I don’t know what this was, I cant explain it.

I was sitting with my husband on the couch having a normal everyday conversation that neither of us can recall now- but something underwhelming like discussing what to make for dinner, and in the tiny space between two words in a sentence (I was the one speaking) I heard an audible pop pop similar to the sound you might make by using your finger inside you cheek to make a  popping noise

From my couch perspective I popped out the top of my head and then back into my body nearly immediately - pop! pop!- and there was a sensation that reminded me of when you have a small balloon on your fist, if you squeeze it, small bubble parts of the balloon might squeeze through your knuckles into mini balloons and then back into your palm. i know thats a funny analogy but thats what it 'felt' like

I was aware immediately I’d had an experience and stopped saying whatever I had been saying, to my husband and said OMG I just left my body, and as I started explaining what had just happened I realised that time wise my experience didn’t match up with the one second or less, in THIS timeline, that I had been away.

However In that tiny split second all this to follow happened.

I was flung, sucked? Out the top of my head and into space, black space with stars and a clear view of the planet Earth down to my left and in front of me but above me and to my right was a wee line of 3 beings in white robes. I don’t know what their faces were like but I was aware they were clapping with utter joy and delight-for me. (Extreme joy and delight)

EXTREME JOY like I had just achieved something so extraordinary and huge. Their celebration of me was phenomenal.

My first thought was “oh! This feels EXACTLY like I thought it would” Now that was a strange thought as I didn’t know what ‘this’ was nor that I had a preconceived idea of what anything outside of life felt like, but never have I imagined it would be space, like stars and planets, space.

The joy and love absolutely washed over me. A love and safety that is indescribable and whilst in it, I could never doubt that I was made from and part of, pure love. It was intense and all encompassing TOTAL love.

These figures were clapping and gleeful like I’d done something amazing that they were celebrating and I also clapped my hands with excitement

A feeling like ‘omg I did it’ (I don’t know what)

I was pretty sure I had died, I didn’t think those actual words but it was like I was done with earth.. it didn’t occur to me I was going back there.

These beings were thrilled for me and I was thrilled for me and then I had the sudden thought of “OH, my family is down there! Followed instantly with a knowing that they would pop out, pop pop pop pop instantly after me, as time was an illusion. And time might have passed on earth but for me their arrival would be imminent. And then I didn’t feel even the slightest attachment or sadness about them.

In that moment I KNEW in a way I can’t explain, with zero doubt, that life on earth was an UTTER game, a nothing. Purely a theme park entertainment ride type thing that I had just found my way out of.

A place to play with experience and that nothing that happened there REALLY matters in the big picture and we are totally safe and loved.

I had the sensation of eye blinking/new reality wonder that you have when you walk out of a movie theater to find its daylight…. or specifically I felt like I had just exited from a mirror maze (I had that thought during this experience) along with the feeling that life experiences were similar to choosing theme park rides.

Out there felt WAY more real than being here on earth (I can’t explain this) like going back felt like entering a dream and that that experience felt like waking up. Way clearer and more real.

And then I was back in my body finishing my sentence. No time had past here, and I did think I’d only popped out and popped straight back...until I started to tell my husband what I had seen, felt, thought and known. It needed about 2-4 mins of linear time to have everything I experienced, happen. I don’t know what this was.

It’s changed me

I can’t not believe we are safe and playing and celebrated and loved anymore.

I feel very privileged to have experienced this but don’t know why I would have

No substances or meditation involved

I consider myself science minded and logical but have been embracing my feeling side since that experience.

About 6 months after this I saw a nde on tv that started similar to this experience. Pop, space, white robed beings, love.

My husband and I looked at each other and I burst into tears feeling somewhat validated.

Since then I have loved hearing other peoples experiences but prior it hadn't been on my radar.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    total?

Was the experience dream like in any way?  no, but coming back into my body felt unreal like this life is a dream

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   Yes    oh. I am unaware of if I had a body...I clapped, so I guess I perceived hands



What emotions did you feel during the experience?          total love peace excitement joy glee

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         popping (two pops) like you could make with a finger in your cheek in the lollipop song :)

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         No     

Did you see a light?        Uncertain     I saw beings, they were in white robes and earth was lit...but not a light where my awareness was on light



Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    up and to my right. if I had to guess about 20 metres from me and diagonally up to my right were 3 white gowned hooded beings -no idea of faces, capping with their hands like in prayer position but with bouncing rejoicing glee. their joy pride and excitement was palpable



Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No      Did you have any sense of altered space or time?     Yes    only that my human body experienced a split second between the leaving my body pop and my entering my body pop but the experience felt like a few minutes



Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    that life was totally a game. it felt light and not loaded with importance. just simply a choice and an experience that I had chosen and can continue to choose. Each experience was akin to choosing a ride at a theme park and I could choose each ride with free will. nothing matters, nothing is wrong, all is well and we are completely safe, time doesn't exist.