EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

At the time I was 25 and all was well in my life. I was a student and was living with a friend, who had been living for a time in Egypt, before he knew me. Shortly before the experience we had been together and he told me a story, of which the only thing I remember was, that it was about a wise man in the desert. In this story the wise man said, that you had to formulate a request and you would be granted it. At the time I didn't believe in anything, but listening to the account of my friend I got the desire to know about what the wise man was talking... this without even having any idea what it was all about... so I formulated my 'request' inside me. Then we went about our occupations and I forgot all this. During the day I felt the desire to lay down on our bed and it's there that the experience took place.

Stretched out, eyes open, a light appeared above me. A dense and living light (not white but rather orangey in color) that I started to watch intensively. The more I got in contact with this light, the more a kind of comprehension was coming up in me, a very strong feeling. In fact it's description that I'm going to do is the transcription of what I remember (as if it was yesterday) while knowing that, at the same time that I contacted this light a 'comprehension' happened in me, simultaneously transcribed in words. I was in contact with this light and the more I looked at it, the more I got the certitude that I knew it, 'that I came from there and would go back there'...at the same time I had the feeling to look at myself (this could appear strange, but it was like seeing me) and little by little while watching me, I started to see that I also looked at my family... I saw my parents, my close ones and finally the whole of humanity. It was 'I' but not only...it was all beings. As if we were at the same time distinguished and  ONE single and the same being. All the time during the experience I senses (of course words are approximate) a great well-being an inexpressible Love. Then while looking (I'm using this term 'looking' a lot, but I have the impression that the contact really passed through my eyes, as this was permeating me through my gaze and touching me much deeper) I understand that all knowledge of the world was contained in this light. I could have had the answer for whatever question... This connection with the light ended with two words showing up within this light (at least that's the way I remember it) LOVE AND KNOWLEDGE. In this way the experience ended leaving me 'speechless'... How long did it last, I couldn't say exactly, but I think that it was not very long time: 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes... not very much I think.

The aftermath for me; all my fears concerning life vanished (for several years), my contact with others changed totally, in the sense that they got an importance that they didn't have for me before, I believe. But above all (not permanently but regularly) I perceived this 'luminous energy in myself, as if living inside of me'. It allows me to feel a lively connection with nature in particular, with life. This lasted for some years, but I have to admit much to my regret, that I cut myself from it gradually. I don't know how to explain it, but I believe that I got scared, as I was meditating a lot and certain phenomena scared me, with fear to go too 'far'. And then especially I think that my 'ego' wanted to resurface in order to take back control (it didn't disappear but surely knew to take a back seat). Today I nevertheless still keep trusting in what I experienced and it is a real help for me...But I'm nostalgic of this experience that I would like to experience again... I'm asking but there's nothing coming...For sure that my request is no more the same as the first time. I'm testifying today because speaking about is doing me good, as if it was reactivating my connection and above all that this could help some people, not to believe me, but to feel in themselves this alive source.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Uncertain          The Feeling, the state of certitude.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?         No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?At it's maximum I think.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  no

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?          No     
What emotions did you feel during the experience?          I don't have the words...an indescribable well-being.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         no

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?       No     

Did you see a light?        Yes     See my story...My experience is a connection with the light for me.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes     See my description...The light was the union of all beings.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?          No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?     Yes    Vision...a great opening up

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No Response        

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes    I learned the importance of love, and that we are all connected with each other. I believe that we are all the same consciousness which is expressing itself.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Yes     I didn't merge with the light, I only conversed with it.

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No     

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes     No permanent gifts but 'phenomena': Visions of previous life, clear-hearing, being out of body during meditation, premonitory dreams... but everything punctual.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes    Trusting in life after death.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?        A greater empathy towards others, a choice of work for helping others.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?      Yes          Trust in life, new outlook, love for others. I got this experience like a gift.

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes     My close ones: no rejection, only taken aback.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?Joy and trust.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Everything was good.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?          I would like to communicate with persons having had this kind of experience.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?          No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                    Yes   Yes, even though I can't really describe what I experienced emotionally.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.           No, I think that it is comprehensive.

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

A l'époque j'avais 25 ans et tout allait bien dans ma vie. J'était étudiante et je vivais avec un ami qui avant de me connaitre avait vécu quelques temps en Egypte. Juste avant l'expérience nous étions ensemble et il me raconta une histoire dont la seule chose dont je me souvienne est que cette histoire parlait d'un sage dans le désert. Dans cette histoire le sage disait qu'il fallait formuler une demande et que l'on serait exhausé. A l'époque je ne croyait en rien mais en écoutant le récit de mon ami m'est venu l'envie de savoir de quoi parlait le sage...celà sans même avoir une quelconque idée de quoi il s'agissait...j'ai donc formulé ma 'demande' intérieurement. Nous avons ensuite vaqué à nos occupations et j'ai oublié tout celà. Dans la journée j'ai ressenti l'envie d'aller m'allonger sur notre lit et c'est là que l'expérience a eu lieu. Allongée, les yeux ouverts, est apparue une lumière au dessus de moi. Une lumière dense et vivante (pas blanche mais plutôt orangée) que je me suis mise à regarder intensément. Plus j'entrais en contact avec cette lumière et plus une forme de compréhension se faisait en moi, un ressenti très fort. En fait la description que je vais en faire est la retranscription de ce dont je me souviens (comme si celà datait d'hier) sachant qu'en même temps que je contactais cette lumière une 'compréhesion' ce faisait en moi, retranscrite simultanément en mots. 'J'était en contact avec cette lumière et plus je la regardais plus s'installait en moi la certitude que je la connaissais 'je venais de là et j'y retournerais'...en même temps j'avais la sentiment de me regarder (celà peut paraitre étrange mais c'était comme me voir) et petit à petit que 'je' me regardais j'ai commencer à voir que je regardais aussi ma famille, ...je voyais mes parents, mes proches et finalement l'ensemble de l'humanité. C'était moi mais pas seulement...tous les êtres. Comme si nous étions à la fois différentiés et en même temps UN seul et même être. Tout le temps de l'expérience je ressentais (les mots sont approximatifs évidemment) un grand bien être un amour indiscible. Puis tout en regardant (j'utilise beaucoup ce terme regarder mais j'ai l'impression que le contact passait vraiment par mes yeux, celà me pénétrait par le regard pour me toucher plus profondément) je comprends que tout le savoir du monde était contenu dans cette lumière. J'aurais pu avoir la réponse à n'importe quelle réponse...Cette connexion à la lumière s'est terminée avec deux mots qui 's'affichait au sein de cette lumière' (c'est en tout cas de cette manière dont je m'en souviens) AMOUR et CONNAISSANCE. Cette expérience s'est ainsi terminée me laissant 'sans voix'...Combien de temps a t-elle durée je ne saurais exactement le dire mais je pense pas très longtemps: 5 mn, 10 mn, 15 mn...guère plus je pense.

Les suites pour moi : toutes mes peurs concernant la vie se sont évanouies (pendant quelques années), ma relation aux autres à totalement changée dans le sens où ils ont pris une importance que je crois qu'ils n'avaient pas pour moi auparavant. Mais surtout (pas en permanence mais régulièrement) je percevais cette 'énergie lumineuse en moi comme vivant en moi'. Elle me permettait de sentir une connexion vivante avec la nature notamment, avec la vie. Celà a duré quelques années mais j'avoue à mon grand regret que je m'en suis coupée petit à petit. Je ne sais comment l'expliquer mais je pense j'ai eu peur car j'ai fait beaucoup de méditation et certains phénomènes m'ont fait peur, peur de partir trop 'loin'. Et puis surtout je pense que mon 'égo' a voulu refaire surface de manière à vouloir reprendre le contrôle (il n'avait jamais disparu mais surement savait se mettre en second plan). Aujourd'hui je garde cependant toujours la foi en ce que j'ai vécu et c'est une vraie aide pour moi...Mais je suis nostalgique de cette expérience que j'aimerai revivre...Je demande mais rien ne vient...Surement que ma demande n'est plus la même que la première fois. Je témoigne aujourd'hui parce qu'en parler me fait du bien comme si celà réactivait ma connexion et surtout si celà peut aider certains non pas à me croire mais à sentir en lui cette source vivante.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Non     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Uncertain     le ressenti, l'état de certitude

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Non     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      Au maximum je pense

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  non

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Non     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         je n'est pas de mots...un bien-être indescriptible

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         non

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   Non     

Did you see a light?        Oui    voir mon récit...mon expérience est pour moi une connexion à la lumière

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    voir ma description...la lumière était la réunion de tous les êtres

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         Non     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Non         

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Oui    La vision...une grande ouverture

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Oui    J'ai appris l'importance de l'amour,et que nous étions tous connectés les uns aux autres. Je crois que nous sommes tous la même conscience qui s'expérimente

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           Oui    Je ne me suis pas fondue à la lumière j'ai juste 'conversé avec elle

Did you become aware of future events?      Non     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Non     

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Oui    Pas de dons qui aient perdurés mais des 'phenomènes' : vision de vie antérieure, claire audition, décorporation en méditation, rêves prémonitoires...mais tous ponctuels

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Oui    Confiance en une vie après la mort

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   Une plus grande empathie envers les autres, un choix de métiers dans l'aide aux autres

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Oui    confiance en la vie, nouveau regard, amour envers les autres. J'ai recu cette expérience comme un cadeau

Have you shared this experience with others?       Oui    Mes proches: pas de rejet juste interloqués

What emotions did you experience following your experience? la joie et la confiance

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     tout a été bon

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? j'aimerais communiquer avec des personnes ayant vécue ce type d'expérience

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    Non     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Oui    oui même si je ne peut décrire vraiment ce que je vécu émotionnellement

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       non je crois que celà est complet