Experience description:

During college, I was routinely 'visited' (through dreams and telepathic communication while awake) from a being/soul who went by the name of Bobby. I am not a religious person, so this being/soul could be considered a guardian angel or spirit guide or even a haunting during those almost 10 years. I didn’t know what to think. I never sought this out. I only knew that this being/soul was connected to me and wanted to be supportive of me through the good and bad times in my life. Occasionally I would ask questions like 'why are you talking to me? What happened to you? Where are you?' Sometimes the answers would be vague and other times detailed. He told me that in his past life, he died in a car crash in his 20s. I only got a vision of him sometimes in my dreams as being a handsome man with thick blonde hair and muscular. He told me that we were connected in the past and that he’s here to help me in whatever way I need help. He also mentioned how he was waiting. I didn’t realize then what 'waiting' meant. I got pregnant in 2012, and that’s when I was cold turkey never spoken to again by this entity. No dreams, nothing. I had horrible sciatica when I was pregnant and got regular massages. The massage therapist exclaimed once to me that he saw a vision of a blonde man standing near me and that he seemed very quiet and kind. I think the term he used was 'such a gentleman.' In that moment, I knew I had stopped receiving communication because I was pregnant with this being who was to become my son. Come 2013, I gave birth to my son and named him Robert. I knew what he was going to look like before he was born because of my chats with 'Bobby' aka him. My son is now almost 13, and I know without a doubt that I knew him before his birth and that somehow we have been connected in a past life. He is very much blonde as well and with the same personality of the being who was talking to me before his birth.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Both very awake and alert; also experienced dreams

            Was the experience dream like in any way?          Sometimes yes it was a full, realistic dream

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         I felt protected and like I always had a companion by my side

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         No     

Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain     I suppose my massage therapist could verify my story but I have lost touch and that was a short period of time I got massages. I don’t even remember his name.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Uncertain     I suppose heightened but nothing much out of the ordinary for me

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes          Altered time. It seemed cyclical and expansive.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I felt like a 'witch'. Like I had tapped into a realm of knowledge about souls that religious people can only mention/fathom when they talk about 'faith'. I also felt like there was a specific purpose both for me and for my son. Perhaps we are navigating it together over time. Maybe the purpose changes? But we are meant to do it together.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes          Everything that I have experiences through dreams and conversations while I was awake helped me to become aware of the future with regard to my son.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     Uncertain     I still don’t consider myself religious. Does understanding of a 'soul' mean that you therefore have to have a faith in something? Maybe a soul is energy that changes over time? I don’t know. And I don’t really care about the deeper meaning. I just know what I experienced and that I’m not crazy.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   It hasn’t affected anything other than I feel very connected to my son. Not just a loving mother/child relationship, but like this isn’t our first rodeo together knowing. My husband doesn’t believe any of this, but that’s ok.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    Just knowing has changed my life.

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    I told my husband and he was dismissive. I told my dad a small part of my experience and he said 'that’s interesting. You just never know.' My dad also has had dreams about people who have passed giving him messages. So he is more open about these experiences. I was also told by someone who considers themself a psychic medium that my son and I have had many lives together in the past and that my dream ability is inherited.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? I am grateful. I feel forever comforted.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          There was no worst part of my experience. Although I will say that I stress about making sure my son has a long fulfilling life. I owe that to him this time around.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Uncertain     The questions were appropriate, but I don’t know in which category my story falls. Pre-birth experience (even though this isn’t being written by my son)? After-death experience from the soul who contacted me? Psychic experience on my part?

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       No. I’m just glad there is a forum for me to write my experience. I’ve been trying to research groups where I can talk about this freely without much luck. I don’t even know how I stumbled upon this site. I hope for posterity sake my story will be kept safe and recorded. I would like to have my son write something in the future if he remembers anything.