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Experience description:

After smoking (as usual), I went to bed. I remember having a really hard time falling asleep. I saw myself sleeping, as if my soul was floating above, I could watch my body sleeping.

At the time I did not really understand, rather I was like: “Am I dreaming? Why do I see myself?”

And I saw that blinding white light, pure white! Even whiter than snow, like a tunnel, it was something quite indescribable. This light pulled at me like a magnet.

It was then that I realized that it was not normal, so I tried to reach my body and I couldn't.

Instinctively, I professed my faith by reciting the “Shahada” and I rejoined my body straight away.

It was fast, very fast, and very violent, BANG! the impact was as if I had just landed on my stomach in water from 100 floors up above! 

It automatically woke me up, I was sweating, my heart was pounding! I felt something heavy, I felt heavy (unlike this feeling of lightness and serenity felt previously). I cried, cried a lot.

Strangely, all of this happened very quickly, truly very quickly, but it was if when it was happening, time had stopped, as if space/time was not the same.

I tried to talk about it with people around me, and I was told to quit smoking. But honestly, I know it's not caused by cannabis. It's much more than that, I'm sure !!!

 At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain. I had smoked cannabis, but then, I smoked it regularly.  

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes. All the previous questions were difficult to answer. Just to describe this light, the state I was in, how it happened, is indescribable. Words are not enough. Even the light - 'tunnel' is the word that comes close to it - but it was not really a tunnel like the ones that cars use to cross a mountain, for example, it was different.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?  When the light pulled me in and I tried to return to my body and I didn't succeed.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compared to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal. I understood that what I was experiencing was abnormal and I was sure that it was not a simple dream; it was much too real.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I saw things in the details, for example, neither my chest nor my stomach was moving at that time (when I was watching myself sleeping)

 Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember hearing anything; it was more a visual aspect that was felt and touched  

 Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?   At first, I was confused, I didn't understand, then I panicked, and I felt this serenity and this lightness.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Uncertain. I saw it, it attracted me like a magnet, an idea that scared me because just before that, I was trying to go back to my body, in vain.

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes. A white, pure, blinding light even whiter than snow!

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

 Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain.   I had already dreamed of the prophet Mohamed when I was a child. It is said that when we are in front of him, we know for a fact that it is him.

And it really is the case, he was very handsome, filled with “nour” (light), the same blinding light that I saw in this tunnel. I was serene, and at peace, in osmosis, he advised me as to the direction of my life and told me to watch out for myself. And then he recited a verse from the Quran, and I woke up, as if after an impact, sweating.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

 Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

 Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I saw my body sleeping, I was in the room and when I was sucked / pulled as if by a magnet, towards this light, it was like space / time was changing. It was happening fast but unusually slowly, as if time had stood still.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It was as if space-time was changing for me. It was happening fast but unusually slow, as if time had stood still.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe. That we really belong to God and it is to him that we return

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Uncertain. I had this feeling of being sucked in by the light and had no way to return in my body at that moment, it is only by professing my faith that I managed to return to my body.

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. It can be weird to understand (even as a believer, I can’t understand it), I clearly tried to get back into my body, but couldn't. When I was being pulled by the light, and I saw that I couldn't return to it, my believer’s instinct (maybe?) made me profess my faith. And as soon as I uttered the Shahada, my soul returned to my body.

Sometimes I ask myself: “What would have happened if I hadn't professed my faith?”

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes. That white light, that feeling of serenity.    

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes. This materialized due to the fact that it was by professing my faith in God that my soul or my spirit found itself back in my body.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes. Same as the previous response, it was only by professing my faith in one God that I was able to return to my body.    

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

 During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

 What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. In Islam, it is said that when we sleep, our souls find themselves prostrating at the foot of the throne of Allah, that is why there are invocations of praise to be said in the morning when we wake up, because God could have not us let us wake up. But no texts speak of this white light.

 How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.  I remember the details of this experience, even when I’m just imagining I am reliving it. But it still remains indescribable. While an everyday memory, even a striking one, does not make me feel the way I feel when I talk about this experience.  

 Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: To be aware that this experience is not normal, that not everyone has it. That God could have called me back to him. He gave me clear proof of his existence and of the importance of my actions. At the time I was someone who was drifting, I smoked, drank a lot too, and was far from my religion etc. Today I try to put on the best behavior, to be there for others, to make myself as useful as possible, to apply my religion as assiduously as possible; it really is a second chance to make up for mistakes in the balance.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   No  

 Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?  The fact I could not get back into my body. And that I succeeded only after professing my faith.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes. One week. It took me some time, and many people thought I was crazy and told me to stop smoking.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes. I really did not believe that stuff! I thought it was science fiction. Or tall tales told in the United States (all the videos seen on that topic were American ones) 

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real. I did not dream it. It was truly something I lived through. The perceptions, feelings those feelings.       

 What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was probably real  

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

 Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

 At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

 Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain   It is indescribable. I can't find the exact words to tell what happened to me

 

 

Experience description:

Après avoir fumer (comme dhabitude ), je suis partie me coucher. Je me souviens d'avoir vraiment galérer à trouver le sommeil.

Je me suis vu dormir, comme si mon âme flottait, je voyais mon corps dormir.

Sur le coup je n'ai pas réellement compris, jetais plutôt là 'je rêve ? C'est réel ? Pourquoi est ce que je me vois ?'

Et j'ai vu cette lumière blanche aveuglante, un blanc pur ! Encore plus blanc que la neige, comme un tunnel c'était quelque chose d'assez indescriptible. Cette lumière m'attirait comme un aimant.

C'est à ce moment là que j'ai compris que c'était pas normal, du coup j'ai essayé de rejoindre mon corps et je n'y arrivais pas.

Instinctivement, j'ai attesté ma foi par la 'chahada' et j'ai directement rejoint mon corps.

C'était rapide, très rapide,  et très violant, PAF ! l'impact était comme si je venais de faire un énorme plat de 100 étages!

Ça ma automatiquement réveiller,  jetais en sueur, mon coeur battait la chamade ! Jai ressenti quelque chose de lourd, je me sentais lourde (contrairement à cette sensation de légèreté et de sérénité ressenti precedemment) j'ai pleurer, énormément pleurer.

Étrangement tout ceci s'est passé très vite, vraiment très vite mais c'est comme si quand cela se passait le temps c'était arrêter, comme si l'espace temps n'était pas le même.

j'ai essayé den parler autour de moi on ma dit d'arrêter de fumer. Mais sincèrement je sais que ce n'est pas du au cannabis. C'est bien plus que ça j'en suis certaine !!!

Au moment de votre expérience, y avait-il une situation mettant votre vie en danger ?     Indécis(e)    J'ai fumer du cannabis mais jetais une consommatrice régulière.

Cette expérience est-elle difficile à décrire avec des mots ?    Oui     Toutes les questions precedente ont été difficile a repondre. Rien que de décrire cette lumiere, l'état dans le quel j'étais, comment de la c'est passé est indescriptible.  Les mots ne suffisent pas. Même la lumière, 'tunel' est le mot qui sen rapproché mais cetzit pas vraime. t un tunnel comme ceux que les voitures utilisent pour traverser une montagne par exemple c'était différent.

A quel moment au cours de l’expérience étiez-vous au niveau d’état de conscience et de lucidité maximum ?    Plus conscient(e) et lucide que d’habitude     Au moment où la lumiere ma attiréet que j'ai essayer de rejoindre mon corps et que je n'ai pas réussi    Jai compris que ce que je vivais n'étais pas normal, et jetais sûre et certaine que ce n'était pas un simple rêve cetait beaucoup trop réel.

Veuillez comparer votre vue pendant l’expérience à celle que vous aviez immédiatement avant l’expérience.    Je voyais les choses dans les détails, par exemple; ni mon torse ni mon ventre ne bougeait a ce moment là (lorsque je me regardais dormir)

Veuillez comparer votre ouïe pendant l’expérience à celle que vous aviez juste avant l’expérience.    Je nai pas le souvenirs davoir entendu quelque chose cetait plus un aspect visuel, ressentit et touché

Avez-vous vu ou entendu des évènements terrestres qui se déroulaient alors que votre conscience était séparée de votre corps physique/terrestre ?    Non     

Quelles émotions ressentiez-vous pendant l’expérience ?    Au début jetais déboussolée je ne comprenais pas, ensuite j'ai paniqué et j'ai ressenti cette sérénité et cette légèreté.  

Avez-vous traversé un tunnel ?     Indécis(e)    Je lai vu, ça mattirait comme un aimant , j'ai été effrayé par cette idée parce que juste avant j'essayais de regagner en vain mon corps

Avez-vous vu une lumière surnaturelle ?    Oui     Une lumière blanche, pure, aveuglante encore plus blanc que la neige !

Vous a-t-il semblé rencontrer un être ou une présence ésotérique, ou bien entendre une voix non identifiée ?     Non     

Avez-vous rencontré ou décelé des êtres décédés (ou en vie) ?    Non     

Au cours de l’expérience, avez-vous eu connaissance d’évènements de votre passé ?    Non     

Vous a-t-il semblé pénétrer dans un monde différent, surnaturel ?     Un monde nettement ésotérique ou surnaturel    Je voyais mon corps dormir, jetais dans la pièce et quand j'ai été aspiré / aimanté a cet lumière c'est comme si je changeais d'espace temps. Cela se déroulait vite mais anormalement lentement, comme si le temps s'était arrêter.

Le temps a-t-il semblé accélérer ou ralentir ?     Tout semblait se passer en même temps, ou le temps s’est arrêté, ou il n’y avait pas de notion de temps    c'est comme si je changeais d'espace temps. Cela se déroulait vite mais anormalement lentement, comme si le temps s'était arrêter.

Avez-vous soudainement semblé comprendre tout ?  Au sujet de l’univers     Que nous appartenons réellement à Dieu et que c'est à lui que nous retournons

Avez-vous atteint une limite ou une structure physique de délimitation ?     Indécis(e)    J'ai eu cette sensation d'aspiration pat la lumière et javais comme aucun moyen de retourner dans mon corps à ce moment là ce n'est qu'en attestant ma foi que j'ai réussi à regagner mon corps.

Avez-vous vu des scènes de l’avenir ?    Non     

Avez-vous  le sentiment d’avoir connaissance d’un savoir ou dessein particulier ?    Non     

Veuillez expliquer tout changement qui aurait eu lieu dans votre vie après votre expérience :   Large changes in my life    D'être conscience que cet expérience n'est pas normal, que tout le monde ne la vit pas. Que Dieu aurait pu me rappeler à lui. Il ma donné des preuves clair de son existence et de l'importance de mes actes. A l'époque jetais quelqu'un à la dérive,  je Fumais,  buvais pas mal aussi, et étais loin de ma religion etc . Aujourd'hui je m'efforce davoir le meilleur des comportements, detre la pour les autres, de me rendre le plus utile possible, d'appliquer ma religion le plus assidûment possible ; cest reellement une seconde chance de rattraper ses erreurs dans la balance.

Après s’être produite, votre expérience a-t-elle provoqué des changements dans vos valeurs ou vos croyances ?    Non     

Après votre expérience, possédiez-vous des facultés paranormales, sortant de l’ordinaire ou autres que vous n’aviez pas avant l’expérience ?    Non     

Avez-vous raconté cette expérience à quelqu’un ?    Oui     1 semaine. J'ai mis du temps , beaucoup mont prise pour une folle et m'ont dit d'arrêter de fumer.

Avant votre expérience, connaissiez-vous les expériences de mort imminente (EMI) ?    Oui     Je ny croyais vraiment pas ! Je pensais que c'était de la science fiction. Ou des fables raconter aux états unis (toute les vidéos vu a ce sujet étaient des americains)

Peu après avoir vécu votre expérience (quelques jours ou semaines), comment considériez-vous sa réalité:    l’expérience était tout à fait réelle     Je ne lai pas rever. Cetait vraiment vecu. Les sensation, les ressentir les sentiments.

Comment considérez-vous actuellement la réalité de votre expérience:    l’expérience était probablement réelle      

Vos relations ont-elles changé directement à cause de votre expérience ?    Non     

Vos croyances/pratiques religieuses ont-elles changé directement à cause de votre expérience ?    Non     

Au cours de votre vie, est-ce que quoi que ce soit, à un moment quelconque, a reproduit une partie de l’expérience ?    Non   

Les questions posées et les informations que vous venez de fournir décrivent-elles votre expérience complètement et avec exactitude ?     Indécis(e)    C'est indescriptible. Je ne teouve pas les mots exactes pour raconter ce quil mest arriver

Devrions-nous poser d’autres questions afin de vous aider à exprimer votre expérience ?    Donner + de choix multiples de réponses parce que s'expliquer avec nos propres mots c'est compliqué

Y a-t-il une ou plusieurs parties de l’expérience particulièrement significative(s) ou avec une valeur particulière pour vous ?    Le fait de ne pas avoir réussi à rentrer dans mon corps. Et seulement après avoir attester ma foi, j'ai réussi.