Instantly I came back into my body and gently  too. My Mom had just come down and upon seeing me thought I was dying. Nope. Had already done that. Like a person who died from sudden death syndrome. I cried and cried and cried. Felt raw. Everything said was erased accept one thing. I could not talk about this but I prayed and cried and prayed asking it to be erased. I could not go "there" without crying. Could not understand why everything had not been erased. A part felt forgiven because everything else had been erased

When R. Moody's book came out I KNEW those experiences of Love was real. But nothing in it helped my "death" and by then had stopped going to Church. Also stopped reading the Bible. God is bigger than the Bible. Far greater and vast. God is Love. After all I was rescued or "saved" as the Church preached but in a very REAL way. Another reason was I did NOT and would NOT subject my children in Churches that taught unworthiness, not good enough, or fear.

Took many years for me to understand why not all was erased. It was a lesson in self forgiveness. We are always forgivable. Forgiven before we ask as human beings BECAUSE at the core of our Being is God.  Or whatever name you call that part of yourself.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     All I can do is write it like a "word  painting" or paint it with words. The only way to understand

would be to experience it and I would NOT wish or want this for anyone that pain. Not even Hitler with all the horrible things done. As a human I feel what he did was wrong. Love is NOT suppose to hurt. As humans we are to Love. Not hate or harm. I look at my shadow I cast on sunny days.  It is real. I can see it. Its attached to me yet it feels no pain or joy. Even at night its there. Just can't see it as well. I liken this to other shadows aka polarities. Regardless, I am Light. I am Love. The shadows are to help us grow while on Earth.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Through the entire experience.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Knowing I was traveling faster than the speed of light. Feeling ripped out of my body. Being in a dark black place.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   First, to answer 6 and 7 everything was fast. Warp speed, actually. My vision was that of darkness. Yet not like normal darkness. Pitch black.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I heard silence.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Anger, terror, remorse  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Yes   After I'd stopped then started going down again is when I felt a tunnel.

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain   I was made to believe I was standing before God.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
Was utterly pitch black.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
Not everything but the only place to write what I came back KNOWING much to the astonishment to a few I said this. God did NOT create hell. The only "hell" is created by man. Many churches try to scare people out of hell to get into heaven. Even today. Love and only Love matters. Inclusion, not excluded.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   The "I" that is within me left and I was fully and keenly aware that "I" had not died.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   When I cried out I was HEARD.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   OK, I know this is for the experience only, but is the only place I can squeeze in that starting before Church, then resuming after the Church days that left me depressed, I have re-lived my "most recent" past life. This life is about unfinished business. Even 2 years ago had another and learned my son was my older brother!

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Obviously does. I can't describe in detail. It a KNOWING.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   It was Love that took me out of there.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   Yes! The knowledge that God did NOT create hell. There is no damnation.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I was taught hell, fire and brimstone.  And believed it.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Geesh! I could write a book. I've many after affects. I was "gifted" before but this was greatly enhanced. Cannot stand feeling negativity from others or hear "pain words" that people do not realize is an energy. EVERYTHING is. But "pain words" go through me like waves that hurt. I became like a hermit to avoid these over time.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   Years later a Most Beautiful Spirit came to me and I felt FOUND! I was loved with no conditions and I gave back. This is how I come to KNOW who and what I am. LOVE!  We all are!

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   Yes, that I was saved in a literal way.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Dream visions, seeing non-physical, hearing non- physical in the physical.  Pick up peoples vibes.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Yes, that I was saved in a literal way.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Only with my husband did I share the entire experience over 30 years later. (Not my former spouse) My Mom only in part right away. I did share this with another about 14 yrs later.  Was not good timing. He had a horrible experience and felt I could share mine. Really stupid on my part because he had not had time to integrate his own. Learned a lesson from that.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   At 16 or 17yrs  old I read about a man who had a NDE. I tossed it aside thinking he had hallucinated.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Oh! I was already hurting about my failed marriage and I hurt worse after this. I did not know one could feel emotional pain until then. But it all made me stronger once I healed.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Time has no meaning in regards to something like this. The pain is gone, but not what happened.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Uncertain   Ever since a child I have been very sensitive. For most of my life I could not stand anger since I was raised in a home of anger. Thus, even my own anger scared me. Even more after what happened. Now, not even my husband's anger doesn't faze me. I think its not only I don't care, its not worth caring about.  Even his "pain words"  no longer hurt.  Can't say is good or bad, it just is.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   I stopped going to Church. Church is wherever I AM.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   For people to KNOW they really do create because we are co-creators. And how everyone is a beloved child of God. That at the core of their Being their Real Self is God. To LOVE!!!

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain   At one point, was like a glimpse of a glimpse, it seemed I saw myself. The pain. When I think of it, seems like a future event in life.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?        Studying NDE is important. I can't help wonder if most of them was pre-planned before incarnating to help herald in the New  Race. To experience violent NDE or hellish NDE is not always easy. Sometimes it can be heartbreaking. For example being shown a loved one will die.