Lara S's Experience
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Experience description:

This past summer, I was awakened in the middle of the night and in my half-dream state, I saw my grandfather sitting at the foot of my bed.  He was in the form of a spirit, I could only see his outline made of glistening sparkles of light (impossible to describe) but somehow I knew it was him, and oddly, I wasn't afraid (I guess because I thought it was a dream?) He kissed my forehead.  I felt the love-- it was gentle and fatherly and somewhat sad.  Then I suppose I fell asleep again.  In the morning I remembered this and thought it was weird but assumed it was a dream and didn't think anything more of it.

As far as I knew, my grandfather was alive and well at that time.  In reality, he was in his bed at home dying.  Someone was supposed to be bringing him food and neglected to do it (he was in his late 90s and could no longer drive.)  He was found and sent to the hospital, where he stayed in intensive care and then hospice for a few weeks until he died.

During that time, he rallied a bit and we thought he would get better, but his last days were spent in a non-responsive state.

The last time I saw him, he was lying in the hospital bed unable to speak or open his eyes.  I talked to him and said my good-byes-- when I did that, I had a very intense feeling of love wash over me-- like a spiritual hug.  Like my soul had been hugged with warm love.  Someone unseen in the room had hugged me, I am sure of that.  I don't know if it was his spirit or possibly an angel or deceased family member.

Anyway, I believe that my grandfather visited me in spirit form to say good-bye shortly before his death.

Also, he has visited me at least twice in dreams since then (it's been two months since he died.)

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    It is hard to explain how he appeared, he was a light form

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes   

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      I was half-awake

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  I thought it was a dream because it was in the middle of the night, but it was actually quite lucid

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Uncertain     When he kissed me on the forehead, I think I may have been out of body too. It felt as if I were sitting up next to him-- if that makes sense.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?          None that I can remember, just the love which is the type of love we don't normally experience on earth.  Pure and honest and just LOVE.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         No

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   No     

Did you see a light?        No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes          I saw my grandfather who was dying but I had no idea about it at the time.

 Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No      Did you have any sense of altered space or time?     No     

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No     

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No      Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No     

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   This particular event did not affected me in that way, I have been somewhat psychic for about a year now and this is just one of the events that has happened.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    Told my husband, I don't think he knows what to make of any of this but he believes me.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience? Well I guess I was happy that Grandpa wanted to come say bye.  But I was sad when he died, obviously.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     Hm, best is:  it was a special experience to be treasured?  Worst:  No worst

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Grandpa has communicated in other ways (I THINK).  There have been little things that happen that make me think so.  One morning I woke up to someone tapping my shoulder and I think it was him (He is a bit of a prankster). There is other stuff too but it's kind of too bizarre to mention here.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes   

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       Y'all are doing a good job in putting this out there.  I think most people have experiences like these but there is a stigma in talking about it.