I was outside of myself, and all of a sudden I had a huge sense of sadness and disappointment...I realized that I was born again on earth, and it made me so sad to be back here.  I was really upset that I had to do THIS over again.  I'm not sure of the sequence here, but I also remember wanting to be back in the universe.  I understood that before coming back to earth, I was this tiny, tiny speck of light...one of trillions of specks of light, and my "being" was perfection....all knowing and all loving.  And I also realized that if I was not there, even though I was one of trillions of specks of light, that the entire universe would be out of balance-it wouldn't be perfection, and it would never happen, I would always be that speck of light.  It may sound hokey, but I was "One with the Universe".  I was given a very quick review of the life I was to live this time on earth, and I got a lot of information...I didn't remember a lot of the details once I came out of this trance, but I know that at the time, I was given all information.  I was "told" that I would struggle, and somewhere in my 30's or 40's I would have a very tough time (true) but that in my 50's my husband would be very successful and I would live the rest of my life very comfortably...almost as if what I had to learn would be learned through my struggle, and that the rest of my life would be much easier. 

I really have kept that idea close to my heart (the feeling of being this perfect, necessary speck of light)...granted closer to my heart at some times than at others.  I believe that that light lives in each of us, and its the universe's reflection of God within each of us.  I woke up when my sister came up to me and asked me if I was ok.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Meditative

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No, I was still very aware that I was a child sitting next to a creek.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     speck of light

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Sadness, disappointment, love, pefection, harmony

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           Yes     Trillions of specks of lights, right along with me, as a speck of light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No      

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Yes     Being part of a different dimension, there was no measure of time-just being

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes            Knowing that each speck of light was needed and without it everything would be out of balance.  I was also given information about the life I was about to live.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     So far, it is true that I had hard times in my 30's and again in my 40's.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No       Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     At the time I didn't really have my beliefs formed, around God, etc.  I was taught about God, but I had not yet formed a "relationship" with him.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       At times, when I remember it, I feel very assured that I have a part of God within me, and it is up to me to tap into that when I need it.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain      When I remember the experience it gives me great comfort.  It's hard to stay close to it, but I know that it was real, and that it was far beyond an 8 year olds understanding of the world not to be authentic.

Have you shared this experience with others?         No       What emotions did you experience following your experience?        Not sure, I remember thinking that it was incredible, but I kept it to myself.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best was realizing I was such an integral and important part of the universe and its balance.  The worst was the sadness I felt when I realized I had been re-born on earth.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     LSD

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     I've given all details I can remember about the experience.