Julianne R's Experience
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Experience description:

I realized somehow that I must have died.  I was in a dark tunnel and there was a pinpoint of light in the distance.  At first I was fearful and quite surprised because I thought I died then, I was moving toward the light and I knew who the light was with out a question...it was God or Jesus.  I kept getting closer to the light and there was this feeling of weight being lifted off of my body.  It was peaceful, overwhelmingly lifted, peace warmth.  As I got closer to the light there was a feeling of warmth flowing over my body starting at the top on my head and flowing over me like warm oil being pored over me.  I was surrounded by the light, the emotional feeling was delight, love like nothing I had ever experienced, overpowering.  The light started to communicate with me as I got closer.  There were no words spoken, thoughts were transferred between us without speaking.  I did not understand what was going to happen but there was absolutely no fear.  I felt love and peace like I had never known.  Eventually I started remembering things that had taken place in my life, things that I had totally forgotten.  I suppose you might call them flash backs...sort of like movies that I was re experiencing.  That is one of the reasons I knew the light (Lord) was giving me the information because I was remembering things that happened that were totally lost to my conscious mind.  As those experiences were revealed I remembered them.  At no time did I feel judged or condemned by the light about some of the selfish things I had done.  It was more self condemnation, and my own shame.  I felt emotionally the feelings of those I had hurt exactly the way they had felt them at the time I had been unkind to them and hurt them.   I was told by the Lord what my purpose had been on earth, in two words, overcoming selfishness was the purpose.  Loving others and giving of myself unselfishly.  I can't remember when this happened but during my time there I was taken around to different locations.  I saw a building in the distance but it appeared sort of fuzzy ....things were not real solid in appearance, but they were not translucent ether.  I was told if I had questions I could get them all answered there, so I thought of it as a library where all truth was located.  We were not actually walking with legs, or really flying but we got places in a sort of floating way.  See, language fails here to be able to describe.  I was going along with this other being when I saw someone i recognized as my Dad but he was not a man, he was a woman.  After I spoke with him (her), I knew with no question it was my Father.  He knew me as-well.  Again we communicated telepathically. I didn't feel like family or seeing my earthly family was a top priority to the people there that were with me showing me around.  I got the impression that I would see family later.  These other beings were not having long conversations with me it was more that I was observing and seeing things for myself.  If I ask questions they would answer but nothing detailed.  I was all of a sudden on a green hill and I saw my dog Freckles, my childhood pet who grew up with us when we were kids.  He was running around in the grass like a young dog and very happy.  I think I remember he recognized me and was glad to see me. 

It came time for me to meet with the light again and decide what I was to do.  I wanted to go back in the worst way to fix the things that I had done wrong ...huge desire on my part.  I was convinced I could accomplish my purpose that the Lord had shown me.  He decided that I could go back but didn't exactly tell me that, I just found myself returning....the weight was felt on my body again and I really noticed it.  Peace, warmth were all gone as I returned.  Then I woke up and realized I could only remember portions of what had happened.  It was very strange because I didn't know if I had died or was just dreaming.  However, it could not be a dream because of the intensity and the fact that I remembered so much.  I never remember my dreams.  I didn't understand at the time why this had happened, I possibly still don't. 

The difficulty of the task I had promised to fulfill became obvious as I realized my selfishness was the human condition that I had been released from during my after life experience.  What had happened was so physically and emotionally huge, as experiences go....nothing ever could even come close.  It was amazing, overwhelming.  The physical feelings the emotional feelings were so intense, of joy, love, warmth, beauty , happiness, community with the other beings there.  The love of God for me, total acceptance and understanding and love he had was so much more that I could ever imagine on my own. 

About eight months after this experience my Father died.  During this period my marriage of 16 years was breaking up.  My entire life was crashing.  I believe I was given this experience as reassurance to not just believe but to know that God loves me and is there for me and that what is to come is worth the difficulty we may experience in our lives here.  That I could get through the pain of loss I was about to experience.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     When I came back I couldn't remember large portions of the experience.  It seemed like I was only allowed to remember certain parts of the experience.  There were portions that I could not express as there was no language to describe what I had experienced.  I found language inadequate to express the physical and emotional reality of the experience.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Uncertain      I was sleeping and do not know if I died in my sleep or what exactly happened.

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    During the meeting with the light

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

 If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            During the meeting with the light

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     Clarity was totally different, colors and brightness were more vivid

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     speech was telepathic...talking was very different

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Overwhelming, warmth, love, acceptance, care, kindness, very intense.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     tunnel dark with pinpoint of light moving toward the light and light became larger and larger until the tunnel was no more.

 Did you see a light?           Yes     I knew right away who the light was.  There was no question.

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     see #3

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    Yes     See #3

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Uncertain      I don't understand the question.  The experience happened to me.  I did not have to verify.

 Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     See #3

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Time and space did not exist in the usual sense

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            See #3

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     A month or so.  When my Father passed away about 8 months later I told members of my family.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    It was so emotionally and physically overwhelming that I knew it was real.  Unlike anything I had ever experienced in my life.  I did not have the language or the thought process to make up what happened as it was totally unlike anything in my experience in life.

 Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            When God tells you in person what your purpose as a human on earth is that would be pretty significant.  Also it was important for me to know that unanswered questions in life will be answered in life after death.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I know it was real.  There is no dought even years later.

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I view my purpose differently.  I know what happens in the death experience and I am happy for family members that have died, even though I am terribly sad for myself because I will miss them, I actually know where they are going and how wonderful it is.

 Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     .I now do not believe based on faith.  I know, I know, I know.....I don't just believe.  That could be a negative because someone who believes on faith alone has more to overcome as they have no proof

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     The parts I remember clearly.