EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION

For as long as I can remember, I've always had premonition dreams and experiences that science can't account for but on this particular occasion I remember being in my dream and suddenly feeling like I was anxious and confused and the sense of coming out of my dream but feeling like the dream was coming along with me, like it startled me and for many reasons! As I was aware that I was becoming alert and awakening like I was scared or shocked, almost panicked and desperately trying to escape my dream somehow.  As I woke I realized I was frozen and couldn't move in my bed and tried desperately to move my legs so I could jump out of bed or turn my head, anything, but couldn't budge a muscle not even my mouth or voice. I saw straight in front of me in the center of my bedroom wall a very bright light through a very tiny spot that seemed to illuminate into my room from somewhere else but also had other colors in it like fuchsia pink and warm oranges with gold etc expanding outward and there were spirits passing thru without a care for me or even noticing me really.  I just watched them pass thru and disappear and then I became aware of a very different kind of spirit who was very clearly trying to communicate with me, like she had specifically came to me for something.  I saw her clearly in front of me, young girl, long blonde flowing hair, very pretty.  I knew she wasn't going to leave and could feel her emotionally and her suffering and desperately wanting to show me something as if she needed my help. I tried to talk with my voice but nothing happened and I looked at her and remember communicating to her that I wasn't sure why she was there or what I could do and I remember feeling sorry that I couldn't do more because I couldn't move and the tears were beginning to run from my eyes down my cheeks.  I knew and I felt her sadness and that whatever it was, I had to at least try to help her.  Suddenly I knew she wanted to take me somewhere to show me something and we were both taking this trip and I was seeing the scenery change as we continued on.  I remember thinking to myself that I needed to pay close attention to all the details in every sense.  I could see that we were going up north but closer to coast, knowing for sure we left the suburbs and there was more open road less city life, and there were more trees like crossing mountains but still definitely going straight upwards going north.  I could tell we were leaving my home state of California and things quickly changed to having trees, lots of them and it became very lush and green, I could hear water but as the forest became more lush where all I could see was just the green foliage all around the sound of water became louder and I could hear the creek or river that was running through this forest.  I knew the water was icy cold and the presence of recent rainfall was felt and I could feel the chill in the air and could smell the fresh rainfall while noticing how we were deep into this Forrest river place she was taking me. 

I was wide awake with my eyes open but it was Ike I was staring off into space while we shared this vision and experience.  Kind of like freeing your mind and being shown a mini movie that moved in a flash but experiencing every little detail in every sense and then some. I can still remember it Just as clear as when it happened with all the detail and heightened sense of everything I was feeling, she was feeling at that moment, and her experience and emotional overflow of everything.  I knew she wanted closure for her and others and wanted to resolve this 'thing' that hadn't been yet. She wanted peace for her, for other victims, to bring peace to her family and the others, loved ones and stop this horrible thing from continuing on.  I knew she wanted to be found and was asking for me to help her and the other victims who had suffered enough and not been found, just left here in the middle of nowhere hard to find because of thick growth of the forest along the river somewhere in Oregon. I remember soaking it all in every detail and feeling so sad and traumatized coming to the realization that no one would ever believe me and think I was just crazy or they'd tell me it was a dream and no law authorities would take me seriously and gather a search party to find an anonymous girl without even a name and many others left dead by the river.  I wasn't even aware of anyone missing in the news and it must not have circulated through the news media so I couldn't even reference any cases of these missing girls.  We slowly disconnected and then she was gone.  I remember having the feeling of holding your breath for long time and then suddenly letting your breath out,  and then I could move again.  My chest was very tight and then I felt very sad and helpless and started to cry, knowing I could never help her, wondering why these things would always happen to me but getting stronger.  I tuned it out after this and said I would dream no more. This was like a curse not a gift!  It was probably a couple years later or so, I was with my daughter who was a baby at the time, looking to rent a movie at the local video rental store and in the new release section right in the middle of the movies in the 1st or 2nd aisle going across, there she was.  She was on the cover of one of the new releases- there were several copies to rent and neatly spread out across the shelf. There she was with her long blond hair and the the thick green lush forest in the background.  I stood in shock I couldn't move a muscle and felt so helpless and sad panicking and wanting to leave the store but barely able to move my legs.  Finally I did leave the store and the sadness stayed with me for a long time. I was able to actually pick up the movie box and read what it said - it was based on a true story that was just recently solved about these young girls who had all disappeared and later found dead, tortured and murdered, left by the river somewhere in Oregon.  I was relieved they were found but I never got over it.  I never rented the movie and not sure that I ever could.  It changed my life in many ways

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    Knowing that I was awakened from dreaming in a state of paralysis and being able to communicate with spirits through our minds only and detail everything that was being communicated.  It wasn't just verbal, it was being able to see things and places in so much detail and hear noises that were important to the locations and happenings, the information that was shown to me

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?      I was awake and levels were higher than usual

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No it was very vivid and real

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Uncertain     I was awake but able to see, hear, smell and communicate at a much higher level to see a place very far away with every detail

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Sadness, pain, devastation, hope

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         Yes the sound of a rushing river and the sounds of a forest of the vision and journey that I was shown

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?   No     

Did you see a light?        Uncertain     Only the light of when I first awoke and witnessed spiritual energy passing through my bedroom wall

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    In my bedroom- I didn't know any of them and only 1 being was communicating with me telepathically. It was an advanced kind of communication through our minds and emotions combined

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         Yes   

I was shown some information in detail of events that had taken place and later discovered and revealed just as I was shown

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         Yes          The victim that showed me this information was murdered and her case along with other victims had not been solved t that time.  I had no idea who she was until a couple or so years later when I saw her on the cover of a movie based on true events from a few years prior

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes    It was like I was more aware of everything around me all at once including emotionally of not only myself but the being that came to me- I could feel all of her emotions and experiences- I could sense what happened to her and felt everything about it inside and out to the core, like all at once I summed it all up and felt it as well emotionally

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No     

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Uncertain     I already was aware of this connectedness but never been able to tune in to that kind of level before

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          No      Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Yes          Every experience I've had since in whatever way it came to be has heightened

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes    I believe we are all here together somehow only separated by dimension

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I notice things more than other people do, I can read people and the emotional energy wherever I go

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    They freak out and are shocked.  They think I should tune in more to this energy but they think it's just exciting because they've never had experiences like this or other things and have no idea how much you really feel and are affected by it

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Sadness, helplessness, devastated

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Feeling helpless was the worst knowing she had come to me specifically