Heather P
Experience
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Experience description:
Hello, my name is Heather and I am from Southern New Jersey. The experience that
I would like to share happened twenty-five years ago, when I was 13 years old. I
was in Missouri visiting four cousins and an aunt and uncle, who had moved from
New Jersey two years prior. I spent a month with them during my summer break
from school. After a couple of weeks of being back home in New Jersey, we
received a devastating phone call from our family in Missouri. My cousin Joshua,
also 13, passed away in an accident on a dirt road near the family's home.
Days later various family members from the East Coast made their way out to
Missouri to attend Joshua's funeral. Most of the visiting family members had
stayed at other places in the area, while my immediate family and I stayed at
our relative's home. I slept in Joshua's room.
The night before the funeral it had been getting late so I went to lie down
while the others stayed up talking. I went to Joshua's room, got into bed and
closed my eyes. What happened next is something I will never forget. As soon as
my eyes had closed I saw nothing but white light. After a few moments the light
started to slowly surround and embrace me. I felt as though I was being
comforted and blanketed in pure love. I opened my eyes and was stunned at what I
had just experienced. As I got up to walk out of the room I felt a tear of joy
roll down my face, which surprised me. The tear had reinforced the experience
for me and I was so happy. I can say with certainty that I was not asleep during
this experience, which seemed to only have lasted for a few seconds. When I had
left the bedroom immediately afterwards everyone was still up talking and I
concluded that only a couple of minutes had passed since I first left them.
The experience had left me in a state of shock and I didn't tell anyone about it
at the time. I simply did not know what exactly had happened or how to describe
it. I had immediately pushed the event to the back of my mind and did not think
about it again until years later. I recalled the event while talking to someone
about an extraordinary experience that she had had, although at that time I
still did not understand exactly what I had experienced. In fact, it was not
until I watched a particular episode of the TV show Unsolved Mysteries that I
had come to understand. The show had featured a man who had a near death
experience, and some of the things that he described I could relate to from my
own experience.
I
had started listening to and reading about other NDEs and heard people describe
the same white light that I saw and felt; the same love that enveloped me while
in the presence of the light. I hear many describe this light as a'being of
light,' which they often say is full of love and understanding.
Just last year I told Joshua's mom about my experience. Aunt Charlene was silent
for a moment and then told me that after Joshua had passed away she was having a
really hard time with losing him. She asked Joshua to give her a sign that would
let her know that he was still close by.
One night Aunt Charlene was driving on the dirt road where Joshua's accident had
occurred. She said it was dark out and, the location being a back country road,
there weren't many lights. Over the spot where Joshua had died she saw a
hovering white light. It seems as though Joshua was letting her know that he was
with her. Aunt Charlene also
mentioned that some of the neighbors told her that they had seen a white light
above their farm house for a period of time following Joshua's passing.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Very alert.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No, not at all.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
Unconditional
love.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Uncertain I can't say that there was a
specific location during the experience there was just white light, perhaps
heaven-like but I did not associate the light with heaven at the time the
experience occurred.
Did you see a light?
Yes
I saw nothing but bright white light
during the experience, the light embraced me and I felt unconditional love from
this light.
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
Yes
The being that I met was the bright white light,
only an embrace and unconditional love was felt.
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain
I was only 13 when the incident occurred and I didn't have any psychic
abilities before this event that I can remember. Throughout the years however
there has been some slight psychic inklings or feelings.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes Yes, only in the past couple of
years when I acknowledged the experience and really took the time to research
similar experiences that others have had.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Yes, again only after I really
acknowledged the experience. Now I try to consciously treat everyone with
respect, knowing that everyone is connected. Religious practice have stopped. As
far as career choices I am currently exploring options for higher education into
consciousness studies.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Yes Being more open to possibilities,
how I treat people.
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes Some people just listen and
say something along the lines of "oh wow, that's nice". I think my close family
understands more how profound the experience is.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
Immediately
after the experience there was extreme joy.
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
I wouldn't say
there was a worst part of the experience, it was all positive. Spontaneously
experiencing the unconditional love and the being of light was the best part as
well as where the experience has led me to today. I am certain that I would not
have delve as deeply into NDEs as I did if not for my experience and because of
this I am open to other possibilities, such as reincarnation, that I would not
have otherwise been open to.
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes I had space to write my whole
account out and some of the questions were specific to my experience.
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire.
No.