Hallie L Experience
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Experience description:

I did not regularly meditate.  On this occasion, I was feeling stressed and grieved that my marriage had ended. I decided it might be a good idea to do so to help me feel calm enough to fall asleep. I remember that it was a little after 12am (midnight) when I went to bed. I lay there doing deep breathing and bringing my attention to 2 single words that I repeated in my mind slowly and deliberately.  The 2 words being PEACE and LOVE.  I concentrated fully on the meaning of each word with each slow repetition, eventually imagining and considering the meaning as if it were embodied or experienced as a felt emotion. 

Before long, I perceived the room around me from an angle above my bed - ceiling height, gradually seeing the view of my rooftop.  Then I was viewing my property from above far enough to see the suburb and further still the city lights from an aerial perspective.  I noticed I was in orbit and feeling totally enthralled and curious by what I was witnessing.  Viewing the earth illuminated by the sun's reflection, just astonishing, its a joyous experience remembering this as I write now after some 29 years later.  It was absolutely peaceful, felt connected to all and everything.....I felt completely safe, awed and humbled by what I was witnessing.  Until I looked down at myself and not seeing 'me' (my body/self) I experienced a slight panic, then felt myself back in bed falling with a rocking thud.  I sat up in bed immediately feeling alert and elated with joy (but startled by what I had just experienced).  I checked the clock and it was well after 3am by then, although it felt that only minutes had passed since going to bed.  I immediately got up because I felt intense electricity in my hands, arms and throughout my body.  The uneasiness I was feeling before going to bed was replaced by what I can only describe as enormous, confidence, and sense of courage and peace.  The only thing I could do to dissipate the electricity felt in my body was vigorous callisthenic exercises (to the music of MTV at the time).  To this day the memory remains as vivid as any conscious life experience (perhaps more vivid). And to date I have not been able to repeat this experience again.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?        Yes    The serenity, depth of love and awe experienced.  The after effects can only be described as transformational, enough so that I no longer experience feeling unsafe when being on my own (since).

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?       No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    I felt completely conscious and aware of more..

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?           No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         Yes    I had no form at all, just conscious awareness.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           love, connection to everything, calm, serenity, belonging.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           Not that I would call a noise, but probably best described as a diffuse hum, but mostly silence, and stillness.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?           No     

Did you see a light?         Yes    the illuminated planet earth, reflecting over our oceans....with a bluish hue / line around the sphere that is our globe.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         No     

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?    No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?  Yes    sharper senses; especially visually and kinesthetically

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           Yes    complete altered perception of time.  Over 3 hours felt like minutes.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           Yes    a heightened sense that I was completely safe and connected to all in the universe

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?              Uncertain     Not sure the question makes sense in light of my experience, but the only boundary was when I became aware that I could not see myself/my body, and the next thing I felt like I fell with a thud in my body, which was itself constricting/limiting.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     Yes    That I was safe, whole, nothing to fear in life.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?         Yes    Greater confidence, less self-conscious.  A sense that there is more to just our physical form/life.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?    I have become more trusting of my intuitions, more respectful of anyone else, no matter who they are what they look like, where they come from. In terms of relationships, less likely to judge or criticize.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No Response        

Have you shared this experience with others?           Yes    They listened, but no idea if they were influenced or not.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? After the initial surprise, and startle of the falling sensation into my body, I experienced feelings of joy, confidence, elation.

What was the best and worst part of your experience? the best - seeing the earth from space and the elation afterwards.  The worst, the tingling electricity / vibration throughout my body, that felt like I could not contain in the body and needed to 'use up' to shake off....but even then I would not describe this as a 'worst feeling' but rather it was evidence to me that this was no ordinary experience.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?      I have so longed to re-experience this state again, but have not been successful in repeating - so far....

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No     

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       Good question! Words simply limit the full expression of this experience...all I can say is that it was completely sensory and heightened in consciousness