Deborah's Experience
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Experience description:

I was feeling ill for six months before I was admitted to the hospital by my PCP. After 3 days in the hospital I was so weak that I could no longer make my body sit erect. I thought I might as well leave so I found myself moving out of my body through the middle of my forehead or what I later found out to be called the "third eye" in some eastern religions.

 The next thing I knew I was on the ceiling looking down on my body in the bed and said a farewell to myself. Then I found myself floating in outer space and thinking this is "so cool" I remember everything but I just don't have a body. The feeling I had can only be described as "liquid love". There was no fear or distress. I thought that all I have to do is think of somewhere I would like to go like Venus or Saturn and I would instantly be there.

 All the stars were twinkling except one that felt like it was in a north west direction. It was a tiny pin light but super bright. I later found a bible verse where God said; "I live in the north west." I felt myself slowly moving towards this pin light when I heard a voice say; "Deborah." I knew it was Jesus Christ and answered; "Yes..." With a wonderfully tender and loving voice He said; "You have to go back." I said that I didn't want to go back but that I wanted to stay with Him. He said; "I know you do but you have to go back you have too much work to do." I thought work?, what work? I then said ; "But look at that body down there it is done, I can't even make it sit erect." He said, "Don't worry about that I will take care of that you just have to go back." I felt like He as coaxing me and the final decision was still up to me and I think because of God's love that's where free will comes in. Well, I didn't have much to say after that so I said; "Okay."

  The next thing I knew it was the next day and I woke up feeling cured! I jumped out of bed and got dressed determined to go home. I was standing at the nurses' station asking them to call me a cab when they told me to go back to my room and they would call my doctor. He came a few hours later and ordered a blood test. He had warned me the day before that if I didn't get any better they would have to filter my blood.

   He came back after the blood test and said; "I don't know what happened to you last night but your blood count just did a 500% improvement overnight." I knew but I thought if I told him he would think I was delusional. The blood test let me know that the NDE was real and not just a dream or vision. Sixteen years later I saw my PCP again and I told him the NDE. He said he hears stories like that all the time in the hospital!

   From that day on my life was changed. I've felt an urgency not to waste one minute on this earth and to find out what work God wanted me to do. I have been working as an Art Therapist in a drug and alcohol rehab for the past 13 years and firmly believe that this is the work I was meant to do. I have no fear of death and whenever I hear that someone has died I feel jealous and long to be in that place of "liquid love."

 At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The whole time.

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness  

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I was very weak and ill.

 Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Same

 Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Love, kindness, joy.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   A super bright pin light.

 Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
It was the voice of Jesus Christ.

 Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes   Jesus Christ

 Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   Jesus Christ my Lord, my best friend, the Messiah.

 Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   Everything

 Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
 Outer space.

 Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

 Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
My life and what God wanted me to do.

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

 Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life
God asked me to come back so I did.

 Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   You enter another dimesion.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   He spoke to me.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   God.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes   There is a reason for everything.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   There is a reason for everything.

 During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   God is Love.

 During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   Only that I had too much work to do.

 What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I didn't know I had a job to do for God.

 How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience     

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I was filled with a renewed sense of purpose and meaning.

 Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No       

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I probably shared it right away with my boyfriend. I now share it with any one who has lost someone or is afraid of death or seems lost with no faith, meaning or purpose in life. Not everyone, for we do not throw our pearls before swine.

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   As I said I knew it was real because of the blood test.

 What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Same as above.

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I rarely waste time with people or anything in my life because there is too much work to do for God.

 Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I try to find meaning and purpose in everything I do.

 At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Yes   When I pray and study God's word I often feel the love and guidance of His Holy Spirit.  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes