Experience description:

Before you start asking, I never do any form of drug or alcohol recreationally, okay? So after failing my finals, some other classes before and at that time, getting rejected from a girl I liked, didn't think I would make it into my career choice, I felt lost. I was suffering chronic depression along side with it. At this time I was agnostic and thought to myself if I should commit suicide or to join the military and enter combat to die because at that time I thought you live and then you die and nobody would seem to care. So from that notion, I just kept purposely numbing myself emotionally and kept feeling empty. Eventually I would get this positive, 'holy' good feeling euphoria/aura feeling and keep getting telepathy that 'I'm loved, cherished, that I'm a good person etc.' I thought I was going crazy so I numb myself more and the feeling became more stronger/radiant or w/e you want to call it. Then I saw everything in black and words in white text in English saying 'Do you believe?' I said, 'Huh?'. Then that female voice repeated itself and I said yes. Then I think I remembered some kind of spiral vision and weird glowing feeling from my body its like getting sucked out of type of feeling, really hard to describe honestly. Then I saw my body with my red shirt on my bed, somehow I'm going up more I see my house, then my state, then the whole USA, then the planet, then other celestial bodies. After all that I looked up and saw a powerful light tunnel extracting me into it maybe more than light speed but not feeling any rush of wind or hearing any rush of sound while seeing stars and other celestial bodies pass me by. Then I saw someone who resembles or could be Jesus Christ and he uplifted me from water as he is 'standing on water', it could be him. Okay, I'll describe what he looks like the best I can. Brown hair, beard, tall, white robes, sandals, I can't remember what his eyes looked like unfortunately. But he lifted me up with his hands, right palm up not even touching me and I just floated in mid air standing by him and had this awkward stare off at each other and then few seconds later I surprisingly go get this weird white/yellow combo of light hit me and I see a golden gate and golden road. And I see someone who claimed to be 'God'. Purple and white robes robes, bald, white haired beard, seemed to be slim muscular build, and I think he had sandals on. I said to him that this has to be some kind of dream, he said it isn't. I said 'Oh okay, because in some dreams you can manipulate the scenario, like I'm doing now, talking in the fourth wall. And I'll just touch this 'golden flooring' here, okay?' And I did, it felt solid, being legitimately there. He said to me 'This is not a dream. You always doubt yourself and you lie to yourself through your jokes.' So I joked to him and said 'Oh,so your calling me some kind of weirdo?' He said, 'Well, yes you are very unconventional.' He then said and showed to me these are my future children, they 2 or 3 I can't remember anymore in black silhouettes. He then somehow let me in 'heaven' and saw golden infrastructure, I saw this one building looking like a golden crystal thingy that's floating and its like some kind of house spinning in a circle slowly or could be some kind decoration I don't know, there were golden roads again, everything is shiny and had some crystal texture in a way on the buildings, and yeah I still have that weird 'revitalizing, holy feeling/euphoria/holy aura feeling' w/e you want to call it all throughout my body and my head as I feel that powerful feeling in my head as its like a glowing 'feeling'. Then I went to this hall that seemed like a church with golden humanoid figures just shining away like no tomorrow, not facing me just looking forward staying in place as I somehow was floating forward into a light and I went and saw blinding white light and I somehow 'woke up in my body'. Most strangest experience I ever felt. Now I believe in God. I used to be Roman catholic as a kid but then became agnostic around high school years because science proved too much until this experience came into play. So I wanted to confirm if this experience was real, so I purposely thought negative and I keep getting the positive or negative versions of that aura feeling in my head and get some telepathy saying that 'I'm loved' or 'I'm a good person' or 'Do not doubt yourself' or 'Your joy is inevitable' and as usual, I'm joking it off or fighting it off on purpose (ex. me saying Thanks daddy-o or Sure thing pal) and it seemed to persist to this day. These voices are a mix of female and male voices in different voices/tones. One of them claimed to be 'God' which is just...okay I guess how else can I describe that? So now I'm convinced of spirituality. And another theory I have in mind is that I used to be very religious during my catholic school years from 1st-8th grade and along with my altruistic pursuits from youth until now seemingly or probably lead to this event. I'm just assuming, okay?

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  Panic attacks, tremendous amounts of stress, and anxiety from school drama/real life issues

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?           When I was transported there I guess

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   I felt very energized in a way that I never felt before on Earth

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Looked very real

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I can hear crystal clear

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Calm and tranquility.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Yes   Astral projection/Out of body experience from seeing my red shirt and body from my bed to my house then states then outer space then looking upwards and seeing celestial bodies

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   white/yellow spiral beam that seems very welcoming that's revitalizing in a way that many people cannot describe, I can't blame them.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Jesus and maybe God himself

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes   Jesus

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Uncertain   Maybe just Jesus

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   history of depression in a way

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
seemed like heaven

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Uncertain
Hard to explain

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will


Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from my personal future 
I think I saw my 'future children'

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Yeah God does apparently along with Jesus. I just find it weird okay? because look at the world, there are 4200 or maybe more religions out there world wide, wouldn't that be contradicting to my perspective?

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   Haven't I explained it in the story?

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Heaven and hell exist

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   Yes   Life has purpose

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   Life challenges are there to probably make the person grow spiritually strong I guess

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   I will most likely get married but to whom I don't know

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   Life is surprisingly valuable.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   Haven't I explained it in the story?

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th   Haven't I explained it in the story?

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I now believe in God

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   Treat people with respect and be optimistic as there seems to be some kind of hope being promised, well for me at least

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   knowledge/experience of the afterlife

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Heaven is really golden and it's really there

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  2 guys in the same detailed information

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Yes   read this website a few times before and watched documentaries but was a skeptic about it

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   Started to accept life as it is from that experience

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I felt like I was really there.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   Relationships with supernatural I suppose as I respect them that they are there.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I will remain catholic now I suppose as I have been before

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   I sometimes tried to do the same thing to get that same experience again but to no avail.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   They helped me ask it more in detail