EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I've been contemplating sharing this story for a while. At first, I've considered writing a book but motivation isn't there and I can't be bothered to sit down and write a whole volume.

Anyway. This all started back in 2015. Back then, I was living with my ex and her mom, which I later learned was a psychic. At that moment, I was an agnostic with zero knowledge of the spiritual. All I did was meditate.

I've always had strong intuition and sixth sense and, perhaps because of her mom's presence, my 'sensitivity' seemed to increase around that time. Out of the blue, I slowly started experiencing otherworldly pictures and concepts in my mind. I told her about it and, in her own words, she said 'You're going to remember everything.' I proceeded to see her aura later that day, although I had no idea what I was looking at.

What I eventually started remembering was... weird. I remembered visions of the future I had both as a kid and as a baby inside my mother's womb. Over the span of the following months, I would get flashbacks from time spent growing inside my mother, before incarnating and from a past life. It always happened when I was zoning out while playing videogames.

I can't say exactly when my soul incarnated the growing body during the pregnancy but I remember the first thing that happened was a complete memory wipe. I was left in the dark with not a single concept in mind. Afterwards, I started seeing a kaleidoscope of colored triangles. Each color had a distinct meaning. Greens, blues, reds, oranges... The patterns were simple at first but got more and more complex as time went on. The only color whose meaning I remember are the oranges ones, who physically hurt like a migraine and represented the geometric fire. This 'fire' allows us to see things in three dimension inside our brain (the root of our imagination.)

As time went on, the kaleidoscope faded into the background and was replaced with the normal mind background we have when we're not thinking about anything. Once the kaleidoscope part was over, my brain was a 'blank slate' waiting to get fed information. That's when the ego starts to form itself. It starts off as feeling like someone else is inside your mind and then that feeling of someone else starts causing you trouble. It lashes out at you and tries hurting your soul through whatever it can use through the visions your guides or the universe send you. Those various visions will shape and define your ego before you're even born, pre-defining your preferences and how you will react to things - because of the ego in the background and how it will keep causing you trouble until your final moment. The visions are experienced and re-experienced until they are firmly written in your subconscious.

I believe those visions are also sent to help us make the right decision or support us in difficult moments to come. I believe they also shape how our brain functions, thinks and feels, as the mind is a blank slate with no memory before these happen.

Something important to note: until much later in the pregnancy, I did not have the ability to think logically. Everything was taken at face value and integrated into my emotional core, including my mother's extreme anxiety who plagued most of the pregnancy. I also did not have the ability to sleep until later on in the pregnancy, so all I did for a while was loop through what my guides or the universe would send me, which were various moments of my life to come.

Most of the visions I was being shown are not worth mentioning. However, I do remember, early in the pregnancy, being told I had to 'define a code of conduct' for myself. At that time, my mind was floating in a blue scene that extended in all directions. I had to define things to myself such as no killing, no stealing, and so on.

The main thing worth mentioning about those visions is that they mostly dealt with a particularly difficult moment of my life where I had to guide and help someone without fail. The visions made sure I wouldn't let that person down and they worked, despite how hard it was, by working on my subconscious mind.

At some point during the pregnancy, I had to configure what my organs were gonna be used for. I remember being shown each part of my body one at a time in my mind and, with the help of my guides or angels, being shown what each of them needs to do. It was more like me agreeing with them and allowing them to do it for me than actually shaping the whole body but I remember this vividly. For example, there was a big red sphere in the middle of the chest who represented the heart pumping blood - and it was actually possible to mess it up and make it breathe air instead. Perhaps this is where malformations and birth defects are pre-programmed for a desired life outcome? in any case, I was able to confirm this through Jill Leigh's videos about the mental body where she basically says the same thing (she is the director of the Energy Healing Institute, you can look up her website to learn tons of interesting things about the energy bodies)

As far as actually being born goes, I don't remember what going 'down' felt like but I remember being told I was going to meet my parents and suddenly feeling out of breath (probably when they cut the umbilical cord). Then I heard a voice in my mind telling me to breathe. I didn't know how but my body eventually did it on its own and then I was fine, despite it being a very scary moment. Being born was the end of a long, extremely traumatic and painful moment. When you're in the womb, you have no concept about anything outside of your mind. You don't even know you're a human being or growing inside your mother. Your whole universe is just you and your inner dialogue and whatever picture you have in your mind. It is extremely different from our everyday lives, despite the fact that everything we think, feel and do goes through filters that were created inside the womb. We use them to function and 'think' but it's all a big system programmed to keep us alive and thinking through the fear of death, which is produce by the ego. 

As for my pre-birth memories:

The farthest I can remember was me being told that I would have to wait a long time before my next life, which I was okay with. I waited all those pre-incarnation years in a kind of 'spiritual home' or 'personal universe' who contained what I liked and wanted the most at that moment, namely the feminine energy being made available to me for my pleasure (You can picture exactly what I mean by that). I had to wait between 30 or 40 years in my personal universe before someone finally told me through telepathy that my time was up. The wait was made easier by the feeling of infinite and universal love towards all things, including me. Eventually, a higher being showed up, he was male, and he brought me to place which was a golden tunnel made out of light. He told me I could have anything I wanted in my next life. The first thing I asked was eternal life... Which did NOT make him happy. He was extremely angry, which made me cry. I said 'You told me I could have anything I wanted!' and then he calmed down and sent me loving energies to reassure me. I then proceeded to ask what I wanted, which was to be handsome, have a wife, to be rich and something else I will keep for myself. So far, everything happened except the being rich part. I went back to my personal universe for a while and then someone else called me - a guide who didn't need to incarnate anymore but still wanted to, probably because he enjoyed life for what it is. We were floating in his personal universe, who was a vast landscape with snowy mountains. I loved his energy and asked him if he could be my dad in my next life, but he made me understand it was not going to be him. He told me he was going to be my best friend's father. He wore the appearance he has today in life.

Soon after, I underwent a 'training' where I was explained the meaning of the chakras and told they were going to show me how to use the green, or heart chakra, as I 'needed more love'. I was explained that there are not enough 'guides' on Earth and for reasons I don't remember, I was extended an invitation to the 'program'. Here's how it went: we would teleport to various locations on Earth where people were engaging in conversations or arguments and the guide 'on duty' would show me how to react and feel in those situations by making me feel exactly how I should. I wouldn't always get it on the first try but they were patient and I would catch on after 5 or 6 examples. I don't remember what happened next but I remember that my aura, at the end of my initiation, starting from the inside to the edges, turned blue, green and lavender. I was told I'm going to be shown how to use the light blue chakra, or throat chakra, when I would return after this life.

I was eventually called again and told it was my time. I was sent to someone who was waiting for me in his office (it had an actual office desk and libraries). He was an old bald man with a very kind smile and bright green aura who radiated with love. He explained to me that I was going to die without pain in this life - by having a heart attack in my sleep.

For some reason I can't quite remember, I was also extremely skeptical when it came down to them offering me someone who would be my wife. I think they knew as they made us meet: I was floating and waiting for her when she appeared in front of me. She had a green, yellow and red aura. I was going to be her teacher in this life. She knew this and said she was going to listen when I told her 'You will have to listen.' and she replied 'Yes!' I then fell in love with her and said 'I think I already love you.' and she said 'Me too.' I wanted to talk with her more but we got separated when they brought me somewhere else. I understood I was going to be incarnated in the next minutes so I told them 'Just a second' and I went back to my personal universe because I wanted to enjoy it one last time before leaving. Then, I went back to him. He gave me an astral body (which is the 'muscular tension' we feel all the time in our energy fields) and explained to me I was going to need it. We were floating in a yellow and golden cloud and he told me 'Don't think about anything.' then I felt myself being pulled down. The pull was impossible to resist but I did not try, I wasn't scared of being incarnated. As I got lower and lower, the bright intense golden light and colors surrounding me gradually got dimmer and dimmer, until everything went black and I couldn't feel the universal love anymore. That's when I felt cold in my chest, which I believe is when the contact with my body was made.

Life kept happening around me and my ex. She was trying to cope with her mom's passing and I was still trying to understand what was going on with me. I stumbled upon spirituality books who felt like the answers to my prayers, as most of what I was remembering was also in those books. We eventually broke up as she started dating someone else and I moved in with my current girlfriend, which I believe to be who I met in the astral planes. She has the same energy as the person I met before incarnating.

In a strange but probably wanted twist, my girlfriend had experience with the spiritual. When we met and up to this day, she's had someone or something following her. I witnessed countless paranormal happenings since we moved in together - objects moving on their own, light switches turning themselves off and so on. She also left her body on two occasions and saw my aura, which she confirmed to be blue, green and lavender like I told her. I also saw my own aura in the mirror.

I also remember having telepathic conversations with other kids back in first and second grade during class. Everyone in the classroom were having vivid and intense conversations with someone else while the teacher had no idea what was going on. I remember asking someone else for a pencil and they turned around and gave it to me without ever speaking a single word with our mouths.

I also remember having a kind of 'fire' in my pelvic area as a kid, a fire we can use to die on command. I got rid of it because I was scared I was going to end my life prematurely: my life was hell as a kid. My dad drank a lot, got into fights all the time with my mom and we were poor, so I was miserable. That 'fire' was referenced in a spiritual book I used to own so I know this isn't my mind making things up.

Ah yes, I forgot to mention but I also remember a past life where I was living in a house surrounded by forest. In that life, I was living with my family and I developed schizophrenia. During a crisis, my family members took on the appearance of black clouds with red eyes and something really bad happened (I'm not going to discuss this here) which ended in me taking my own life with a revolver. I remember how leaving my body felt - painless but confusing. I felt myself being spun around my body, as if I was in a tornado stuck inside my chest, and then slowly being pulled upwards. (I later learned that this is the result of the silver cord being broken down. The silver cord binds the soul to the body until its death) What followed was worst: I entered a lower vibration dimension where the feelings of depression and solitude were at their ultimate. It was pure hell - a thousand times worse than what I was going through while still alive. I stayed there a few months, constantly asking my guides when I would be allowed to leave. It eventually happened. Everything was dark red, muddy orange and dark yellow, the colors of sickness in energy terms. It was the worst place you can imagine, actually very close to depictions of Hell, without actually being Hell.

Here are a few more things I remember:

Visiting the astral planes while dreaming as a kid and seeing colors that don't exist in this dimension. Incredible, beautiful colors surrounded with black crystals and red foggy clouds. The brain cannot 'see' those colors so when I'd 'wake up' (come back inside my body), the colors wouldn't pass on to the brain and I'd get incredibly sad not being able to remember them. My girlfriend has the same memories from her childhood - she said she even tried drawing the colors by mixing colors as a kid and was very frustrated it wouldn't happen.

While visiting the astral planes while dreaming as a kid, I would sometimes visit a tall, artistic woman who would show me incredible works of art she made. Her art was not only visually beautiful, it also contained feelings and thoughts. It was almost alive - the only one I remember looked like a zebra, it would come running towards me and I would feel/know/understand everything she poured into it. She loved everyone but seemed to have a preference for me. I was able to find a French experiencer who goes by the name of Marc Auburn who mentioned the exact same story in his book.

While dreaming as a kid and leaving my body, I would sometime meet a smiling man with curly hair who would slowly attract me towards him using love and then attack me when I'd get too close. The process repeated itself countless times until I stopped approaching him to feel his love. I believe the idea was to teach me not to trust everyone, even if they show love.

When I would do a temper tantrum as a kid and cry, my guides would frequently come down and send me red energy through my feet. It would instantly calm me down and almost force to fall asleep. My guides gave me this energy once while I was still dating my ex and it was wonderful (I was feeling incredibly stressed out when it happened)

Speaking of energies, I also spent a week or two in complete bliss and love around the time when I was remembering everything. Things didn't matter anymore, all I could feel was unconditional love towards everything. It was completely random and unexpected, but I enjoyed it while it lasted. It happened a few weeks after my ex's mom passed away. The 'spiritual high' stayed until I focused on it and decided to pin it down inside my mind - it instantly vanished and hasn't returned since.

The last time my girlfriend had an out of body experience, she was floating in the forest behind our apartment block and could feel the life energy in the trees and grass around her. She said that she spent hours there but only 20 minutes passed here. She could see the energy of life in the trees as yellow bubbles flowing through the trees. Oh and she also had money (one coin) fall on her head despite being alone and naked in the apartment's hallway.

Speaking of life energy, I distinctly remember when it appeared while I was in my mother's womb. It felt like an incredible pressure and slap to the face that made me its slave: there was no resisting it. We all act in terms with this energy and we will stop only when our time has come. We don't realize it because we forgot when it appeared but it's there and very alive in our every waking moment.

I'm going to describe the higher dimensional planes where the guides and angels are as the closest to what we can call heaven: feelings of infinite bliss and love, incredibly powerful love (beyond what words can convey). Also free from all judgment, you are free to 'be' without anyone or anything holding you back or making you feel bad for what you are. The guides seem to have a limitless understanding and patience for all of us.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?      All of it. The memories would came back through my forehead when I was zoning out while playing video games. It felt like I was fed information through my forehead and all I needed to obtain it was ask myself the right question.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness   There was no difference in alertness.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   I wear glasses but there was no difference around the time it happened. I still wear the same glasses today.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   No difference.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Mixed. Very scary and off-putting at first, but once I realized there was no danger, the information would make its way more easily into my mind. Then it became pleasant.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I have met several people that guided me towards this life. They were loving, compassionate and wanted to help.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   I have remembered most of the time spent growing inside my mother's womb, dozens of years spent in my personal universe in the spiritual realms as well as a past life.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from my personal future 
I have a vivid memory that is still to happen that was sent to me when I was growing inside my mother. It's a vision of me driving a car under an underpass alone in the day. It's a memory that might actually happen in a few years as things just happen to be that I'm looking to get a car soon.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   Yes   I have vivid memories of the spiritual realms and some of its spiritual hierarchy. I remember them as being planes where love and joy are omnipresent through everything and everyone - words can't express how strong the love is felt. We see colors and hear sounds that don't exist here. There are also lower planes where horror, despair and grief exist.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Uncertain   I am uncertain about this only in the sense that I don't remember having an actual conversation with any God - but it's impossible to me that all of this can exist without a creator behind it. I think I actually talked with Him but I just don't remember it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   Yes, I have vivid memories from a past life who tragically ended with me putting a bullet through my skull. I remember the death process and what kind of hellish existence awaited me after committing suicide.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Everything is connected and alive. The only reason we're not aware of it is because the human body filters all of it out.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Yes, the afterlife is literally made of the strongest, most personal and deep love you can imagine - and more. There is no doubt that we are loved beyond measure and that most of what angers us here has no importance in the long run.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Uncertain   Being aware of everything I remember did make me feel like it was my duty to pass it on but I was fighting with depression and couldn't find the strength to write it all out before today.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   I was agnostic so in my mind, it was pretty much 'anything goes' when it came to the afterlife. I readily accepted my ex's mother as a psychic and I would ask questions out of curiosity, which eventually led me to remember things.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.   I still remember everything vividly as if it happened today. I decided to omit a few details to avoid redundancy but what is here is exactly how it happened.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   There were not really any exterior changes. I became a LOT more patient and tolerant in general. I used to be quite demanding with hatred towards specific kinds of people because of all the bullying I endured as a kid but now I try to see everyone as friends, even those who hurt me.

My experience directly resulted in:   Slight changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   I was an agnostic but believed all psychics were faking it and that re-incarnation was a joke. Not anymore.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Uncertain   Well, I do see things others don't every once in a while. A week ago, I was cooking pasta on the stove and while I was stirring the pasta, I saw an orb of light leave my chest and disappear into the stove.

I've also seen my aura in the mirror as well as my girlfriend's. I also see things move on the corner of my vision a lot more than before.

I also feel vibrations in things when holding them with my hands. It happened once. That or random heat in objects.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Not really, I believe I've said everything.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I told my ex right away but she didn't believe me, despite having a psychic as a mother. My family thought I was mad and made me see a psychiatrist who said I was depressed but lucid.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I viewed it as real as what we experience here. The memories were too accurate and too 'mine' to be made-up.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   I have no reason to believe my memories aren't real at all. I treasure them as they helped me understand myself better.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   Yes, I used to believe in an unknown intelligence behind everything but now I'm confident that the creator is real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   Not really.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   I feel like I don't have anything else to add, which means the questions were relevant.