I lived in France in my last life. I only have snippets of the in-between place from my last life before going into this one.

When I died, I remember seeing a white light and a tunnel. The tunnel was surrounded by clouds and there was singing, and the closer I got to it, the more I felt at peace. The next thing I remember was that I was sitting in a room, sitting across from my spirit guide. There was a desk between us. I remember loving my spirit guide like I would love a parent, and I felt like we had known each other for a very long time. We spoke at length about my last life. I helped many people, but I also made many mistakes. I had to live the experiences of the people I hurt, and it was painful. I remember it being very painful, but I was grateful for the perspective. When I relived their pain, it felt like I was really reliving the moment I hurt them as if I was them. After this experience, I felt like I grew in empathy and remorse. I was then asked to take responsibility for my actions without excuses, and I did.

I remember the smile on my spirit guide's face when I did this, and he gave me a hug that felt very warm, and he told me he was proud of me. He said that because I took responsibility for my mistakes without excuses, I was ready to evolve to the next spiritual level. This was exciting because before this, I had stayed in lower spiritual levels for a very long time. It took me a long time to learn the lessons that I needed to in order for me to progress. The next part I remember: we were still sitting across from each other and we were discussing what I wanted to learn in my next life and what I wanted to accomplish. I thought about going back to France, but I wanted to try something different. I thought it would be interesting to see what it would be like to grow up in the USA because all of my past lives up until that point had been in Europe and Asia.

I was told that I couldn't reincarnate with my soul family because I had to go on a solo mission. I relied too heavily on my soul family in the past, and it was hindering my progress. I was the slowest to develop from my soul family because I was afraid of being independent. I was very upset by this, and I argued with my spirit guide for a very long time, begging to reincarnate with my soul family, but my spirit guide was firm. He said that my higher self consented to this, so I had to go. He asked me what my goals would be in this life, and I chose very ego-driven goals. He explained to me that in this next life, I would be put in a very hard life so that I could accelerate my growth, and that I would lose my ego desires, and it would be a good thing. It would prepare me for another spiritual evolvement. I was angry and told my spirit guide that I would not listen and I would pursue my goals anyway. But my spirit guide was again firm, reassuring me that it's really okay to let go of these things. It is a crucial part of my progression. And that in the next life, I would rapidly progress—which is drastically different than my past lives where I progressed like a snail.

I kept fighting him, and I thought that remembering my past life would help me make the decision to pursue my ego-driven goals. But my spirit guide said that I would forget my past life and this conversation due to amnesia. But I was determined not to forget. I didn’t forget that conversation I had with my spirit guide, just like I wanted.

Out of respect for my spirit guide and the sacredness of that journey, I’ve chosen not to share how I was able to remember. I understand now what I didn’t before: Why it’s important that we forget. 

Next, I got to choose my next life circumstances like gender, my body, my name, and I got to choose between two different sets of parents. I was told that I would be put with a different soul family than my origin soul family to help this family break toxic generational cycles. After I chose my next life, he went over the probabilities of how I would react to my life circumstances. And here is where things get interesting. The probabilities ended up being wrong. Because we have free will. He told me I would be born in a cult (true), I would be abused by my parents (true), I would get married to an abusive man (true), and that I would have children (false). I ended up divorcing this man and leaving the cult I was raised in, which was not in his probability. But my spirit guide said that could happen—that this was just the probability of what could happen in my life based on past performance.

I said goodbye to my spirit guide, and I remember my descent to earth almost being like peaceful skydiving.  I didn’t forget that conversation I had with my spirit guide, just like I wanted. But ultimately, my spirit guide was right. I no longer want any of the things I wanted right before coming to this life. Instead, I want to serve others and shed my unhealthy ego. My spirit guide was right.  *I forgot to mention that my spirit guide gave me goals that he wanted me to meet; be present with the moment (meditation), take full responsibility for my actions without excuses, shed myself of unhealthy ego, and learn to serve others because I genuinely want to help them not for good consequences or praise that could come form helping them*

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          No     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    I was dead.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  No.  I've remembered this happening since I was born.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Mixture of many, sadness, remorse, anger, happiness, and then fear about going into this life.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         Singing when I went to the spirit world.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         Yes    Just the tunnel I went through is something people describe a lot when talking about dying.

Did you see a light?        Yes    I described it my description I gave.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    I described it my description I gave.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes    I described it my description I gave.
 
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I described it my description I gave.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes    I described it my description I gave.       

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     No     

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I've had this memory since birth so it hasn't affected it.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Have you shared this experience with others?       No          What emotions did you experience following your experience? I described it my description I gave.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     I described it my description I gave.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I described it my description I gave.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?           Yes    I described everything accurately in the description I gave.


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