Bella's Experience
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Experience description:

I went to take a nap. I don't remember how long into it I was, but the feeling was like a powerful force that pulled me into darkness. Like someone had put their arms around me and was pulling me away. It was not welcoming arms either. I felt like it was pulling me into death. It was like a spinning, whirlwind of darkness.  I tried to scream and was unable to make a sound. I was trying to get out and wake up. I guess I was aware enough to know that I was trying to wake myself up. It was a struggle, but I was finally able to yell and be released from the grip of that force. 

Waking up to consciousness, I felt very frightened.  I have had similar experiences since then. Two more in the past year.  The first I felt extreme pressure on my body . I was lying on my side and it felt as if an evil force was up against my head and pushing my head into the pillow. Again I felt the paralyzing grip and tried to yell to wake myself up, yelling "NO". I also felt the enveloping of darkness. I could not sleep for awhile after that, afraid to go into that state again.

The most recent was 2 nights ago, which triggered this search for what has happened to me. I need an explanation.  I had just fallen asleep, or was drifting off. I felt like I was asleep. I felt like a was dreaming. (but that cannot be possible as it was only 20 min. into my sleep, and we do not enter REM until 2 hours) I was aware of a bright light to my right, and thinking that I was dreaming, it was a computer (but to my right is really my tv which was off) Then the light just went out and I felt this vibration start from my feet and move up through my body rapidly. It was a force, and I almost felt like I was about to be lifted up into a cloud. It frightened me. I felt like it could be death. I felt like i had to wake myself up. And the paralyzing feeling of being unable to scream was there as usual. But, I manage with a lot of will to yell "NO" again, and I'm awake. Then I feel aware of a presence and almost think I saw spirits, whatever they may look like. No form of a person, just wisps. Again, I am afraid of going back to sleep. I don't believe I am dreaming at all in any of my experiences, and trying to explain them to someone is difficult, but I am convinced that they have been experiences.  I feel a spirit, but not a friendly one, am I right? Or is it just my fear? And how do I overcome the fear of it?

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain

because it was unlike anything I'd ever experienced

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           just fallen asleep

           
Was the experience dream like in any way?   yes

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            fear

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           a rush of air

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           Uncertain

this last time, I was aware of what seemed like a computer screen light, I thought I was dreaming, and thought it was a computer

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes

people tell me I was dreaming. One friend believed me and made me aware that it could be obe

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  fear

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      nothing good about it. Worst was the gripping fear

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes