Yvonne D's Experience
experiences always start with a buzzing, electric feeling. I am very aware when
this happens that I can lift my arm through my pillow or blanket and usually
move my arm several times. If my arm feels light I know that I can lift myself.
The buzzing and vibrating only lasts while I am still inside the body and stops
immediately once I am fully floating. Initially I couldn't get out through my
chest and went down or upwards to get out but now I know that I don't have a
body, as I know it, in this state and just give a big push and I'm out. I have
very little control over my movements in this state. I cannot feel gravity and
am not aware of legs that can walk or arms that can pull.
have worked out that I can will myself in a direction but even this doesn't
always work to plan. When I first leave I feel very conscious of what I am doing
but it doesn't take long until I get distracted by things such as looking at
doorways or furniture like I have never seen them before. Once I spent the
entire time checking out the bottom trimmings on my wardrobe. I couldn't touch
them no matter how hard I tried and I just seemed fascinated. It was like I had
never seen them before. Another time I fell through the wall of the bedroom to
the driveway and was fascinated by a sense of space.
aimed for the doorway and then seemed to roll and got fascinated by the sense of
rolling and couldn't stop. Once I return to my body I can go to the exact place
where I got distracted and the object is very familiar even if I hadn't really
ever looked at it before. While in the state I do not feel any familiarity or
attachment. I remember looking down at myself once and my husband lying next to
my body. I didn't feel love for him but I knew he belonged there. It's hard to
describe the sensation of no pain, no feeling and no opinion. Just a sense of
knowing but not the kind of knowing that we have in life. As soon as I become
aware of my body I return to it. Sometimes with a jolt and other times I have
just laid back down into it. I feel a fusing, tingling sensation when I return,
as if I become aware that my blood is flowing.
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
they do happen more often around menstruation. Usually when my body is tired but
my mind is not.
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
the sensations that are experienced do not have a word. For example, once I felt
drawn by a light as I floated and the light seemed inviting and warm but I still
felt danger. However, I didn't 'feel' as we know it. I can't describe the
sensation that gave me so much insight about the light. It was just a knowing.
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
from it. I cannot do this when I am stressed.
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
very aware of when I am doing it and very alert when I return. I don't feel that
I am asleep and I am very sure that it wasn't a dream. Even after a nightmare I
usually wake up drowsy or have difficulty returning to an alert rationale state.
After whatever it is that I do my heart is usually racing and I am out of
breath. I am very alert and often get out of bed and can hold a very rationale
conversation. I recall everything that happened and it remains clear in my head
for ever. Dreams become vague within an hour.
experience dream like in any way?
In a dream I
see the world as I see it in everyday life. I feel fear, anger etc. I can move
as in life and I usually do things that I would in real life. In a dream I can
appear at a park, a beach or even at work without having to get there. However,
in the experience I do not feel emotions. In the experience I have to leave my
body first and I have to get out of bed. I don't magically appear anywhere. I am
where my body is and have to move myself to get somewhere.
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Always a buzzing, electric, vibrating sensation and then I can lift myself.
Initially I accidentally came out but now I am very aware of my actions. The
vibrations are the moment I can lift. The buzzing is the start and the moment I
become very aware of what is going to happen if I can stay relaxed.
emotions did you feel during the experience?
None that I can
describe in human words. Perhaps a sensation of freedom and lightness. I get a
sense of knowing but what it is that I know I am not sure of.
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
buzzing noise when it all starts. Twice I thought I heard a voice or a whisper
but I cannot really say. I remember not liking it.
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
of the very first times it happened I saw a light that was very inviting but for
some reason I knew I couldn't go to it. I have never seen this light again.
you see a light?
the once. It was like a door of light that you could pass into. It was as if
others were there but I just knew that it wasn't for me. I knew it was a good
thing whatever it was but at the same time not a good thing for me.
you meet or see any other beings?
the whispering noise but I am unsure about this. I am very fearful of the idea
that someone else could be sharing my experience and I went back immediately
when I heard this noise - with the usual breathlessness.
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
always intend to go somewhere. When the buzzing starts I think to myself I will
try to go out the front door but for some reason I cannot control what I do once
I leave my body. I seem to get distracted. I don't feel a sense of attachment
and my intentions get forgotten.
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
don't get very far. I remember feeling a cold sensation when I fell out into the
driveway once. When I returned to my body and got up out of bed after the
experience I noticed that it was frosty outside. I always know where I have been
and can find the things that distracted me. Sometimes I never took notice of
those things before and get surprised that I can recall every detail so well.
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
sense of touch was limited as I did not really have feet or fingers. Things
always seem brighter. I can see in the dark which has always fascinated me but I
don't see objects like I do when I am awake. I haven't been very aware of sound,
smell or taste.
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Not at all.
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
always as if I haven't lived. No attachment and no familiarity. It's as if you
can't take your intelligence and memories with you. I had to relearn how to use
my eyes in the state as initially I couldn't even control sight. Gravity is
still an issue for me. The sense of knowing is confusing because I don't have
the knowledge that I have acquired in life with me when I am in the experience.
I have no memories.
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Initially I found it difficult to get through my chest to get out but it is not
an issue anymore. For some reason though I feel the need to move through a
doorway even though I have proved time and time again that I can move through
pillows, sheets and walls.
you become aware of future events?
Not at all.
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
become aware of my body I return to it. I don't feel any emotion until I return
gasping for air. I don't recall getting breathless but when I return I am very
breathless and this scares me more than the experience.
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
suffer from Deja Vu. I often do things that I have seen before in dreams. These
things are not even predictable and often happen in places that I have never
been to before and couldn't possibly know what they would have looked like.
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
fear that if I died and someone called out to me I would not feel attached
enough to return. I like the idea though that I would not feel sadness, fear or
loss. I believe that the state of death is similar to this and the state before
life is similar to this. I now believe that there is something more to us than
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
am very curious about how real it is. I have read some of the stories on this
website and while some are similar to mine others seem a little far fetched. I
think there is a fine line between sleeping and whatever this is. The buzzing
and vibrating sensation seems to be something that many of us experience which
makes me think that perhaps it is real.
you shared this experience with others?
immediate family. They probably think I've gone mad. They listen when I tell
them about it all but they don't really comment. They, like me, are very
rationale people. I would tell others perhaps if there was evidence that it is a
real experience and not a mental condition. I don't know anyone else who does
it. I have very practical friends and wouldn't even consider discussing it with
emotions did you experience following your experience?
I feel scared
about the breathlessness. Once that passes I feel like I have been somewhere and
have the natural high that goes with going somewhere, if that makes sense.
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
is having control over the leaving my body. It feels good and light, both
physically and emotionally. The worst part is waking up breathless.
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
never been able to do it under the influence alcohol and I do not take drugs. I
have to be very relaxed but not tired, otherwise I fall asleep. I cannot do it
without the buzzing sensation first.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
questions were obviously devised based on research. They were very relevant to
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
questionnaire focuses on one off experiences. One would assume that if someone
went to the trouble of looking for a website looking for answers that they have
had many experiences. I knew the first time that I had a strange experience but
it wasn't until it became a regular occurrence (over 15 years) that I became
aware that it might be a real thing.