Wendy S's Experience
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Experience description:
It began
two nights after my Spinal Fusion operation. I was in so much pain. I was
mildly sedated. I had also been given an oral medication for headaches. I
remember falling asleep. In a light sleep, I remember a nurse taking my blood
pressure and stating that it was dangerously low. Shortly after, I saw a woman
who was bald, leaning over my bed and it felt like she was almost on top of me.
The pressure was horrible and I could not breathe. She then put her hand over
my mouth and with her hand, she pulled all the air out of my lungs. I was very
frightened. Then, I was standing at the window in the hospital room. My body
was still in the hospital bed. A young woman with long brown hair took my hand
and we stood side by side and like a flash of lightning.. we bolted through the
hospital window and into mid-air. Flying through the sky.. she took me to my
old neighborhood. She took me to the house at the end of the block and stood
with me in front of a window. On the other side of the window was an ocean
and beautiful sand dunes. She took me to the other side of the window and stood
in the distance as I stood along the shore. I felt as though I had answers to
my past, present and future at that moment. I felt like my brain was a library
full of letters, numbers and complete knowledge. I never saw her face.. I just
remember her long brown hair and her hand. She took my hand. Initially, when I
left my hospital bed (obe) She took my hand and we flew out the window into
mid-air, ending up at the window where the ocean was on the other side. When I
came back to my conscious self.. I was very sad, as though I lost my best
friend. I can honestly say that for the weeks following, I felt as though I was
in a state of postpartum depression. A girl
with long brown hair took me to a home with a front window in my old
neighborhood where I grew up. On the other side of the window was an ocean and
beautiful sand dunes. She took me to the other side of the window and stood in
the distance as I stood along the shore. I felt as though I had answers to my
past, present and future at that moment. I felt like my brain was a library
full of letters, numbers and complete knowledge. I never saw her face.. I just
remember her long brown hair and her hand. She took my hand. Initially, when I
left my hospital bed (obe) She took my hand and we flew out the window into
mid-air, ending up at the window where the ocean was on the other side. When I
came back to my conscious self.. I was very sad, as though I lost my best
friend. I can honestly say that for the weeks following, I felt as though I was
in a state of postpartum depression. When the
girl with the long brown hair waved for me to go back. I didn't want to go..
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Yes I was under the influence
of narcotics due to post surgical pain. I slightly remember a nurse taking my
blood pressure as I was asleep and remember her saying that my blood pressure
was dangerously low. I was partially aware of what was going on around me
during my obe
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes drop in blood pressure
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Partial alertness.. because I
could remember a nurse taking my blood pressure and I remember a patient walking
into my room thinking it was their room. I remember the nurse taking them out
of the room asking them to be quiet because I was sleeping.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
In a way.. but it affected me for
weeks after.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I saw myself laying in the
hospital bed and I remember thinking I looked pretty good for being so sick. It
sounds like a silly thought.. but that is what I remember thinking
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
I felt absolute peace. I was so
in love with the moment. It's hard to describe.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
Not on the outside.. just what was in my brain. Again, it's hard to describe.
It was almost like time was at a stand still and the girl with the long brown
hair was guiding me through my experience.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes YES! An Ocean full of knowledge.. sand dunes.. and a the front window of
a house on the corner of my old neighborhood where I grew up.
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Yes A
girl with long brown hair guided me through my experience. She cared about me
deeply and held my hand but when she let go.. she stood very protectively in the
distance in order for me to feel and experience what I was experiencing.
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes word were not spoken.
There wasn't any sound. It was all and sight and thought.
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes It seemed as though time was frozen and I was traveling through an
altered state
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes YES! Absolutely! As I
stood facing the waves of the ocean, I felt as though I was standing before a
body of knowledge. In my mind, I had the answers to everything, past, present
and future. There wasn't any worries or concerns.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Yes When I came to the window..
the ocean was on the other side and we crossed, the girl with the long brown
hair and myself.
Did you become aware of future
events? Uncertain
I believe I was aware of great deal as I was on the ocean side of the window. I
knew that when I crossed back over.. I would forget that knowledge. I do
remember the color gold. I don't know why and cannot explain.
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Yes
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I
felt a sense of depression when I was back in my normal state. I felt
separation anxiety and I missed the girl with the long brown hair.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
Well.. when I
explain this to folks.. they think I'm crazy. I am more in tune with my
relationship with God. I feel more of a one on one relationship with God. I
talk to God daily and I don't fear death as much.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes Oh yes!
Most certainly. What I experienced is sacred. It was like nothing I had ever
experienced and I will cherish it forever and always. My personal one on one
relationship with God is strong.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes I think
they were frightened by it. Some things aren't meant for human minds to fathom
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
sadness, a
sense of loss. I wanted to experience it all over again and go back.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
was the moments that I shared with the girl with the long brown hair. I think,
in my heart, that the girl was me. I felt a better sense of self worth and my
relationship with God and my family grew stronger. The worst part was coming
back to my conscious self.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I can't
think of anything
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes Yes,
very much so. I will cherish this experience. It was wonderful.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
I think
this wraps it up in a nut shell