Therese A OBE
I'm at the boarding school, on an evening with the game 'calling souls', with 'true' stories and with the finger on a glass; a great fear from a girlfriend who is going to bed. After more than two hours the rest of the people also go to bed. I fall asleep, despite the fact that the window of my box remained open, but even though it is awfully cold, this is not important. I don't see anything and am exhausted, and the window is too far and too heavy to close.
Suddenly in the middle of my sleep I'm
waking up, being astonished that I'm flying above my sleeping and appeased body.
I'm sucked into a long, very long cloudy tunnel. I wonder what is happening to
me, I don't want to enter it, I feel fear.
Despite my slow pace I'm stopping brutally. An entity is barring my way;
facing me is an assembly, or rather a procession of shadows and white shrouds in
a single file. They all are heading
towards a dome. A gray shadow is turning to me, it is negative but not lost. I
don't know anybody and this saddens me enormously, why here same as down there?
Suddenly the dome is coming to life and fills with a blinding light of intensive
love, I feel it's invitation... We are one and the love is a whole, matter and
souls, we are all communicating together, it's fantastic. I am light, I am
translucent, I am appeased and happy, the light is loving me! Suddenly three
controlling entities are stopping me, they are defying me. One of them is
'talking' to me, of love, money????, no time to question myself, a heavy hand is
grabbing me and brings me suddenly back into my body, but I'm not alone anymore?
I'm hurting, this hand was leading me painfully into my prefrontal cortex. I'm
waking up suddenly, I feel very cold, I wonder where I am. I'm sad, happy and
wondering. I'm getting up still frozen, I close the window. I'm falling asleep,
practically immediately, with apprehension but also confident. I'm no more
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain An immense room with 64 beds, partitioned into unheated boxes, windows open on a winter night.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes You are sensing, and the words I'm using to expose the facts are not strong enough to fit a description, as everything is multiplied by a thousand, the good, the bad, sadness, and love, felt at that moment...you are absorbing the emotions of the others.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Two moments: When I saw my body below me, and when I felt illuminated or rather irradiated by a light of love.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was aware of who I was, and of my freedom to give energy to the matter.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Reduced before (glasses), after (also glasses).
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same with hearing, but my smell has developed relatively.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fears, worries, no control, questioning, magic, wonderment, discovery, answers, abandon.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A very long cloudy tunnel directed upwards, in the shape of a cone.
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Blinding, warm and heartful, an entity of light which we are a part of.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
One of the three entities talked to me.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain Saint Peter
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes Warmth and love.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes He controls, cleans the souls, keeps the beautiful ones and rebirths the souls that have to be purified.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes New soul.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes Bonds of strong and undefinable love.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No Love, money?
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes Love, money?
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes I was part of a 'whole'.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? Yes You are not coming back alone, you take a soiled soul back with you.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience No sexual humans at all, no father or mother or child, no good nor bad, but gray and matter, love. No hell, nor paradise. The earth is the hell and the paradise. Our acts have direct consequences on our life an the ones of the others. The other is the most important, and you are the most important for the others.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events a
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I'm not looking for love anymore, I found it in myself.
My experience directly resulted in: No changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Auguring with cards and intuition.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes More than 20 years. Negative and derisive reactions. I told myself that I must have been 'dreaming' it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely not real Same as above, and always cruel.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was probably real The accounts.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I only had to communicate internally, and not by going to a precise place.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No
What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience
(NDE) do that would be of interest to you?
Allow all registered (persons) access to
all NDEs, so they can understand who they are and what our missions are.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? What kind of questions and answers did they get in order to continue? Are there entities that came back with them?