Suzette J's Experience
Saturday 7th July at 16.30h
It was a Saturday afternoon as usual. On this day I decided to go to the market close by, getting a pizza and some cheese that we were finally eating on the spot. It was a magnificent sunny day.
I came home around 14.30h, and decide to take a good little coffee to rest, as a meal without coffee is simply not possible.
Then I went to take a shower, started the computer and listened to my music play-list. After this nice short moment, I laid down on the sofa of my sitting room, I was taken by a tiredness and decided to take a nap.
No noise surrounding me, I even put the telephone off.
I'm in this deeply sleeping state, laying on the back, legs stretched and than I decide to turn to sleep on my side. I wanted to move my right leg, impossible to lift it. I tried several times, but to no avail.
So afterwards I decide to open my eyes and, no reaction. And there something strange happened, I heard the noise of the wind approaching me. With, in the background, the sound of a drum.
Regarding sensations, at the same moment I had the impression that an entity was entering my whole body through the top of my head.
A disagreeable bad feeling at the moment of this entering, humming, frictions, and a long and powerful sound was ringing. I didn't know at that moment if it was a good or evil person.
I had, all things considered, this fear of the unknown, and was very scared. And then after a few seconds, I calmed down as if somebody was dictating it to me. This humming sound went down at the level of my belly, transformed into a ball of white translucent light surrounded with blue, that I felt but did not see it (important). Colors can be perceived at the energetic level. For me it was a feeling.
Suddenly this light mounted some 10cm above my belly. And there I don't remember this lapse of time more or less short. The only thing that I try again and again, is to get my right leg moving, I realized that I could lift it and get it down but the problem was this, that I went through the sofa, so no physical contact!
I then got the awareness that I was at the exterior of my physical body. I positioned myself at about 10 cm above my outstretched body. I evaluated the distance between this energy that I felt I was, and my body, which means that I also felt the vibration of the sofa.
And I could evaluate the distance approximately. I wanted to be really sure, that I was not this physical body, and that I was not dreaming.
At those moments, the fear of the lack of understanding came back. Then I was so frustrated that I had to stop the experience instantly and couldn't go on with it.
I woke up very slowly feeling all numb, I think it took about 30 minutes to really wake up.
The most impressive thing was that when I got up I was so shocked, that I didn't realize what I had experienced. I remembered it only 3 hrs later, as at the moment it was so disturbing, that I just wanted to forget it and to think about something else. So I continued my daily routines like ironing, the kitchen ...
End of my account.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes These experiences are so strong, that they are difficult to describe with words,
Lets use an animal like a parrot as a guinea-pig and ask him please explain your experience? Coco is telling his girlfriend Lili, something unbelievable happened to me, you know what I'm sharing with you, telling us our emotional stories... of our whole life.
And it is wonderful, but in this other world, words are much more fluid, filled with as much emotions of fear, as of joy, to describe to you what I think, with words.
The only solution is that you are coming with me.
It can be explained,
but I think it's much more difficult to comprehend.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I remember getting aware of all the details surrounding me, at the moment when I found myself being paralyzed and when I wanted to turn myself.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal A completely different state of consciousness, heavy body, feeling an extraordinary lightness, sensations of humming, heard a noise of drums, and the breath of air of a power.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. As I said already, at the moment of my paralysis, I was sleeping so there I couldn't see anything at all, fact is that while being outside I was above my physical body, and could not have a vision around myself, as I was so absorbed to understand why my body was blocked.
I think I focused on
what happened to me. And without seeing, there where many things to assimilate!
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Before the experience I was aware of outside noises, like the music, noise of doors, but they were slight background noises, otherwise I would have woken up for sure.
While this happened the
focus that you put to hearing is strong, as the sound is not outside of us, but
is present inside of us, a distinct sound that you perceive at the level of the
head, in my case.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Uncertain I had not enough time to experience vision in this experience.
I was too absorbed to understand what happened to me physically.
There was too much frustration.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was relaxed, stretched out, then when this thing entered my head and stabilized itself with the noise, I was afraid at that moment, I didn't know what it was, then was told to calm down, then I did so and after a few minutes this feeling went down to my belly, incomprehension as I didn't know, then at the same time happiness of the unknown.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Yes, I saw a white translucent light inside, and blue at the outside of it.
It was sparkling more
or less depending of my thoughts.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
Yes, another state that I didn't know, completely different, unknown, of course if you don't know that's the appropriate term, but a certain peace, a calm, then I had the impression to feel less alone, as if there was a certain help around and a certain kind of love, a feeling different of human love.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had the impression
that in this realm there was no more time, that everything was slowed down.
Moreover, here we have time surrounding us everywhere, wherever we are, the
world turns around time, as well as people. In this other realm it doesn't
exist, at least not what I could notice until now.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Yes, as of this day my life changed, my way of conceiving life, the comprehension of my whole past, people, the world, all became clear and a happiness to live, incomparable to my past.
During some time I didn't recognize myself, I didn't know anymore who I was.
This can be very
disturbing, but at the same time not worse than during the time I felt not good.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes Yes, for me life is continuing after death of the physical body.
Now I know that I'm not
this body of matter.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes Yes, I felt vibrations that invaded my whole body.
This was a shock, as soon as I spoke to myself inside, I got an answer but not through words, but more through sensations.
And now I know that
this supreme energy is everywhere around us. The energy is everywhere inside of
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes Yes, that there was something beautiful, of joy and filled with love.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes All persons can have various extrasensory abilities...
I perceive beings
around myself, and some of them talk to me.
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Yes and no, I believed in some things, but didn't know really in what.
So, yes, when this
happened it was like a revelation for me.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember when I got my driving license, and when I celebrated my 18th birthday, those days where exceptional.., filled with joy and as well as all experiences of going out, or of altered states of consciousness.. that I had until now, it is the same, it's as if I experienced it yesterday. It became a part of myself as of the day where I experienced it. It is a stage like my birth, it is staying engraved.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: If I had not received the help of the Universe, whatever sign ... after all this inward bad feelings, today I would not be at this stage of well-being and happiness, that I didn't know, with this actual clarity.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes Yes this changed everything, as knowing who I really was, understanding of others, the expansion of the Universe, the oneness, life, death ...
Now I know that any
miracle can happen.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain As it happened, that means that I doubtless needed it.
Either it is life or
arriving at a certain limit it is death..
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
During months I found it quite difficult inwardly, I didn't know what to do and had nobody to talk about it, as even I could not understand it, so as of the first day I started to write down in an agenda all my experiences in every detail.
I felt released of all this weight.
Then the internet freed
me of all this difficult lack of understanding.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain Yes at the television I heard about it through short reports.
As I didn't know at all
how this could happen, I never made the link with this.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Like a happiness to be alive, a new knowledge of life, very disturbing at the same time, but as if I got a second chance to stay on earth and to live.
I was distraught and the only thing I wished was to leave, with no obvious reason, an there, for me, I was at the last limit.
With a new way to look at the world, that I was lacking, but that started to come slowly.
Yes, for me this is
part of my reality, and thanks to that I feel better and better, and I started
to develop a taste for life.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real Yes very real same as those that I live actually.
Nobody, even not my relatives could have been of help to me.
Not my family, not a psychologist, nobody and nothing, seen the stage I was at.
I preferred not to exist, than somebody telling me that I was sick psychologically.
And now many things
come back to normal, I feel motivated in my whole life, with this impulse to
accomplish new things...
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I have a much more positive look at life.