Susan's Experience
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Experience description:

I was trying to clear my mind.  So much, too fast.  Just diagnosed with Stage III breast cancer, moving back to my home, job transfer to where I could get treatment, chemo and doctor dates scheduling.  I thought, I have to clear my mind, so I started saying a prayer.  I still couldn't concentrate so I started singing the prayer (even though I can't carry a tune) in my mind.  I was sitting upright on my bed with my eyes closed.  All of a sudden I saw a crack of light, then brilliant light.  Overwhelming peace and love overcame me.  I smiled, how wonderful this is, I need to do this more often I thought.  I kept singing the prayer in my flat voice.  Then a bunch of angels appeared to the right of the light.  They were singing with me, but much more beautiful voices.  It was like the "dueling banjos", I was flat and they'd finish in beautiful harmony.  I got so excited I wanted to see their faces and wings and broke my prayer/singing, and everything went back to darkness.  I couldn't believe it.  I was "high" for days, telling everyone what I saw, so excited. Most folks looked at me like I'd lost it.  I didn't care.  I wanted to go back.  I will cherish this forever and always pray to the God of that light.  This is where the reality is, this is what we're all supposed to strive for, love and kindness to each other.  There is no doubt in my mind now that this is where we'll go, it's all a mystery but all so very clear, too.  Light and love can outweigh darkness.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Uncertain I was just diagnosed with cancer.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I just told you.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal  

Did your vision during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any way, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?   Yes  

Did you have any visual impairment during your normal everyday life immediately prior to the time of the experience?   No  

Did your hearing during the experience differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any way, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?         No  

Did you have any hearing impairment during your normal everyday life immediately prior to the time of the experience?   No  

Did you experience consciousness / awareness apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring at a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you later (after your experience) verified really happened or was real?   No  

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body that you later (after your experience) verified did not really happen or was not real?   No  

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during the time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical body that were located far beyond any possible physical sensory awareness of your physical / earthly body?   No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Overwhelming peace, love.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   I already did.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth, but whose earthly lives had ended prior to the time of your experience (they were deceased)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any earthly beings who were alive at the time of your experience (they were not deceased)?   No      Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence?  Angels singing.

Did you become aware of past events in your life?   No  

When you became aware of past events in your life, did you encounter anything that you had forgotten or did not know?   No  

Following your experience, did you ever investigate the reality of any past events in your life that you became aware of during your experience?   No             

Did you later verify (after your experience) that any of the past life events in your life that you reviewed during your experience were not real or did not really happen?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Bright, beautiful place.  

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   It was all clear that love and peace was what we were supposed to be seeking.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there is continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there is no continued existence after earthly life (�no life after death�)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being really does exist?   Yes   It was obvious God exists here and he was providing the light and love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being really does not exist?   Yes   see above answer.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives did have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that some or all of us currently living our earthly lives did not have some type of existence prior to our current earthly lives?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there exists a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s) or other thing(s)?   Yes   It was obvious earth wasn't important, or material things,.. only love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there does not exist a mystical connection, oneness, or unity that connects some or all of us currently living our earthly lives with something else, such as other being(s) or other thing(s)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   see above.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   I wrote it all down.  I will never forget it.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   see above

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of the experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?   see above

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes see above

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   see above

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   repetitive see above

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No  

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   this would be much more functional if you'd shorten it.  I would imagine most people would never take the time to get through it., way too long and repetitive.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   a few questions would have done the job.  NOT 68

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?        We need to get these experiences out so everyone can know!  It would affect so many if done in the right way.

Please offer any suggestions that you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                    TOO LONG!  Limit it to five or six questions.  It's dysfunctional and repetitive.