Susan R's Experience
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Experience description:

I was planning my suicide after spending a 2 years dealing with depression.  I did not want to use medication and knew my answers were with-in me, my struggle was not wanting to face them.

As a mother of three, my anger was out of control and I was becoming my parents, or so I believed.

I did not want to put my children through the hell I went through as a child, but I could not release the anger and Depression. My mind set while planning, was to save my children from the horror of me and truly believe that is why this happened. 

On the night this happened I was sitting outside alone deciding my life ending alternatives and instantaneously

went out of my body and into an unearthly place so beautiful (no words to describe the beauty)

with a river of music. Each note and tone had a color associated with it. I was filled with boundless

joy and a happiness I had never known. As I touched this flowing river I became part of it. There ARE colors we don't get to experience on earth and music we have yet to hear.

There was no time measurement. it could have been a second, a minute or an hour or days that I was there.

After playing in the river for whatever time I did, a strong white light came onto me and I was transported to "heaven" or what I DO KNOW is HOME. There was a cloaked spirit leading me through the most wondrous (again, no eartly words to describe) crystal palace with angels I did not see but heard, singing and I knew it was the music of the spheres. This knowledge came to me

along with the knowledge that we make all of our decisions ALL of the time, free will .

I had chosen my childhood horrors and needed to heal and change for my children, not leave them.

As this and so much more knowledge was imploding me, it was the same as a veil being lifted,

my memories of this place and this knowledge was coming back.

At the same time soooo much love came flooding into me and around me, I was part of everything that was happening, I was loved and the love and kept hearing the words although not with my ears

that "Love is the Answer" . And then I was back in my body, full of love.

When I did go to sleep that night and for 3 nights after, each time I fell into sleep, I shot through a tunnel of light to a room where I was with the same cloaked spirit. This was a "healing" room, which I just knew, but not told. Each time I came here I was laid on a table and the other spirits (also cloaked) put me into a deep healing sleep. Each time I woke, I was back in my body on earth. 

After this experience, I just wanted to go back to my real home and feel that love again. I had a lot of work to do to repair my family, but my first priority was myself. I went into therapy and with a lot of work and determination was able to repair the damage my anger had done to my life and my children's lives.  I quit speaking to my parents after confronting them with the truth of their choices, for 18 years. 

My mother had a massive heart attack and had fallen face first onto a parking lot bumper which in turn brought on dementia.

 My Forgiveness was for me. I fought with unconditional love for my parents, but knew my earth time was running short after my mothers catastrophe.

I have been reunited with my parents and 5 of my 7 siblings for the last 3 years. A forgiving choice of unconditional love. Love Is The Answer. 

I had chosen the life I had lived

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  I was suicidal and depressed

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     There are no earth words...orgasmic comes close.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    The whole time

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   Everything was magnified to the highest degree explainable in earthly terms. Emotions, feelings, hearing, seeing, all senses.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
   I was seeing so many things at the same time.  Colors we do not see here.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
   Hearing words not spoken

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   LOVE, JOY, ECSTASY  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Yes   Was more like a beam of incredible light

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   Just explained

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Already explained

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Uncertain   Did not see but KNEW a higher power was present and FELT that love coursing threw my spirit .

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   Yes   My whole life came in a flash nano second as my memories were unveiled.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Already explained

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I now know that EVERYTHING happens in the moment of NOW.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
Unbelievable knowledge I am attempting to write down presently.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes
When I went to sleep on the 3 nights after

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   Part of the knowledge unveiled was that we are not limited to this or any other life we have or will have. We do not ever die, our spirit is not destructible .

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Felt the pressence of this supreme being and that love was more powerful and coursed through me at a different vibration so that I COULD discern it.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   Yes   We are all connected, love IS the answer, we are all spiritual beings, we are here to make a difference and everything that happens is a choice . Free will always reigns.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Just did.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes   I chose this life to overcome the difficulties and come back to unconditional love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   Yes   I chose this life to overcome the difficulties and come back to unconditional love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   Just did

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   Yes   Too much to write here.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   Already explained

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   Just did not remember until this experience, already knew.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   I went from deep depression to ecstasy, very vivid and extreme difference.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   Already did

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?  
Yes   I value EVERY life experience. There is no good or bad. We are ALL great and powerful beings.

Everything is a choice. LOVE

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Many different experiences.  After my experience I am now an empath.

Also, my hearing is extremely sensitive.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?    
ALL

Have you ever shared this experience with others?  
Yes  Only when I know it is safe, or the other person has lost a loved one and is grieving. I explain that their loved one is Home and having a big party, the sadness is for themselves, but will be short lived. Or the person expresses a fear of death.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   I kept researching other NDE's to see if the healing place was recorded anywhere else and finally found my answer in a book by Micheal Newton.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Did

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   My experienced happened so that I could change all my relationships.  That is a big part of my reason for being here, to break a chain of abuse.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   did

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Uncertain   Not sure what this means.  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   They did.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?       Not sure

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience?                        You did good!