Susan D's Experience
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Experience description:

I was very upset about a personal situation that was causing me much pain and suffering.  I had begun to worry about it so much that, on this particular morning, I'd worked myself into a state of sheer panic.  My heart was pounding so hard I thought I would have a heart attack.  I was pacing the floor, unable to stay calm and praying very hard to God that he would help me with this situation.  At first I was praying for relief from the problem, but soon began praying that God would help me calm down physically. I knew my body could not sustain this severe stress response much longer. 

I paced into my kitchen (I was home alone) and stared out the window into the sky praying and begging for relief.  All of a sudden and out of the blue a perfect calm descended on me and I heard these simple words clearly in my head: "IT IS NOT TIME.  JUST BE."

From that time on I was fine--perfectly calm and my heart stopped racing.  I was almost happy, even. It was simple, yet amazingly profound. I knew everything was ok.

 I felt that God had taken pity on my distraught condition and loved me enough to help me.  I assume it was the voice of the LORD, but it could have been an angel or some other heavenly being.  I just don't know.  But it was from outside myself, yet was heard within my own mind. 

The problem did not spontaneously resolve that day, or in the weeks after, but my worry and stress did.  I thank God for His love and mercy to me.

Just for clarification, I am perfectly sane, free of mental problems, and have never before or since heard a voice in my mind. (And don't expect to.)

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No   

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?   Yes    How can you explain that you heard a voice in your head that WAS NOT your own voice?  The extreme calm and cessation of panic occurred immediately after I heard the voice. I was unable to calm myself prior and had been vigorously praying for help from God.  The complete calm lasted for days after.  While the difficult situation remained, I had a peace about it within me.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   No   

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   I was awake and alert and sober and sane.

Was the experience dream like in any way?   Not in the least.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?    At first I was scared, worried and panicked.  At the time of the voice I was overcome with calm and peace.  I have often wondered if this is what is described in the Bible as "the Peace that passes all understanding."  I felt loved by God.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?    Just that voice...

Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings?    No   

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?   No   

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No   

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?    Uncertain    For the brief time of the voice, time seemed suspended or slower.  The only thing in existence was the voice itself.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes    Yes.  I suddenly knew that everything was going to be okay.  I KNEW this deep within.  This knowledge came with the voice.  It was a peace and certainty I cannot explain.  I knew that there was order and purpose to this event and all events in life.  I wasn't even told how everything would work out, I just was given the knowledge that all is okay and it is always ok.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?    No   

Did you become aware of future events?    No            

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?    No   

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes    I feel like I have proof that God really does love us and cares for us individually.  I also now know that there is some kind of plan or order to the universe and everything is not so random as I had previously thought.  Everything really is ok-for all of us!   

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes    I trust that everything is okay and in His hands.  I'm going to be alright in this life, no matter what happens.  So is everyone else.  We are loved personally!

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    I didn't tell anybody about it until at least a year later, and then only told three people.  (Each of these people had experienced a paranormal event in their own lives. I figured they wouldn't think I was crazy.)

I have never told my husband about this.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   The worst part was having to suffer so badly that that God decided to intervene.  The best part was the relief from the suffering and being amazed that God actually speaks to people and loves us personally!

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?    I cannot in any way begin to describe how I heard a voice in my own head that WAS NOT me.  The whole experience, though brief and not as profound as other peoples', is indescribable.  I will never forget that day.  I am so thankful to God!

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No           

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?    Yes