Sue V's Experience
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Experience description:

I had been going through a period that I was enveloped with the fear of death and dying. Questioning what happens to you when you die. A big nothingness, a forgotten existence. I didn't want to die! I was raised without religion and my best friend went to a Catholic school and was conflicted with the question of is there a Savior, a God? I would go to bed many nights thinking of death and crying myself to sleep. I began to pray that I needed to know, please help me, give me a sign, relieve my saddened heart.

I had been sleeping in my bed and all of a sudden I was aware that "I".. my spiritual consciousness.. with no body, but yet I felt completely enveloped in warm light.. as if it had matter of some sort was floating near the ceiling above my bed watching myself sleep. I remember just feeling peaceful.. non emotional.. yet wrapped in this glow of love.. but it wasn't directed toward anybody or any thing. It seemed like just a short time, not enough time, and then all of a sudden I became aware that that was me, my body down there, and when that realization struck me... I was awakened and back in my body. I laid there just a few seconds kind of stunned grasping at what just happened. I began crying.. I think because the experience frightened me ... like was I just dead? And just as quickly as that emotion came over me, a realization struck me. The knowledge that my prayer had been answered, my experience was a gift from God. I was part of something larger than the physical world, there was "life" beyond this Earth. I did not need to live in fear anymore.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I had been sleeping

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   I have never felt the absolute love and peace before in my life.. I do not believe it was a dream at all... it was so pure.. pure peace, pure love

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     no physical body yet I felt like I was a light, cloud of matter

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            gratifying peace

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           mo

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Yes     My bedroom

Did you see a light?           Yes     I felt like the whole area was awash with light.. heavenly

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No       Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Yes     It felt like it happened so quickly when I realized it.. yet when I was there.. there was no time.. I felt like it could have been a lifetime of love.. and yet... very uncertain.. but there was something to it.. can't describe

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No       Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I know with certainty there is a higher power

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I am spiritual; I believe in the supernatural; spirits, etc.. but do not follow a traditional religion

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain      I do not know where my fear would have led me; I was a child - that is an answer unknown to me but the relief of "knowing" allowed me let go of my fear and brought happiness back to my life instead of sadness and despair

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Immediately.. mother accepted.. didn't confirm or deny

I have shared with certain people throughout the years as the topic has arose

I did have a friend who had a lengthy battle with breast cancer and near the end; she asked me to hold her hand and tell her again about my experience.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Immediate - frightened, what did it mean, had I died

Then within seconds, I realized my gift and confirmation

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best - aftermath of "knowing"

Experience itself - Pure peace

Worst - I wish I hadn't been frightened by the realization of separation - I wish I could have realized it and enjoyed and enjoyed it longer

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        no

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     I can not think of anything else to add.. my story is complete

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    sorry,, I have no suggestions