Sue & Harry's Shared Experience
I cannot accurately describe in detail the exact details. My husband and I were on a cruise on the Sun Princess Cruise Lines. We were in cabin B 90. It was approximately twenty years ago. We were in perfect health. No problems to complain about. This particular evening we had the opportunity to attend a private classical piano concert given by a very nice young woman. We strolled about the deck after the concert and then headed to our cabin. Our room was very disappointing to us. We had two twin beds separated by a small night table. Not exactly romantic. However, it was over twenty years ago, and the new style of travelling was not in vogue.
I woke up at sometime during the night to see a light that was blinding. It was a white light. Nothing that I could compare to anything from before. I saw a man standing at the foot of my bed between our beds that was looking at us. Actually me. I at first was confused and thought I was dreaming. However after lifting myself off the bed I knew he was there at the foot waiting for me. I was filled with fear. I had been raised in a strict Catholic upbringing and I knew something was definitely not right. I closed my eyes and prayed for dear life. I was filled with a terrible fear of something that I cannot describe. I closed my eyes and prayed to God that he would protect me and keep me safe. The next thing I knew it was morning.
My husband and I carried on during the day as if nothing had happened. But later that day he appeared to be tired. I asked him what was wrong and he told me that he had experienced a very strange thing during the night. Then he described the very same thing that I had envisioned. How is that possible? He told me that he looked at me and he saw a man standing between the bed bathed in a white light. When he saw the man I was turned towards the wall sleeping. I saw him in the same way. Turned toward the wall facing the other direction. How can this be? We both saw the same thing at about the same time, yet we were alone and not aware of either one being present. The light was not like anything we can express. There is nothing to compare. Nothing I have ever seen in this life like it.
Since that time my life has been filled the strangest happenings. Things I
cannot bring myself to mention. But a feeling of stuff happening before it does.
And often that is exactly what happens. My son of 28 years of age died on
December 12th. of heart failure. I am treated for the same illness. I know he is
in a better place. I feel it strongly. I no longer have to feel afraid. He is in
a better place and I have been given peace in that knowledge. No matter what
faith we choose to acknowledge God...we are all his children and we are loved.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I felt the most fear.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When I felt the most fear.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I cannot describe this light. It was blinding. A pure light. Totally white. Blinding.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure and simple Fear. I was afraid. Bewildered. I have always been a very nervous person.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes To this day I wish I had had the courage to talk to him. I do not know who or what he was. He appeared in human form and yet he was not like us. He was so perfect and pure. He felt my fear and felt compassion and left me. That I do know.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes My husband witnessed the same occurrence the same night and yet did not mention it until I asked him why he was so tired from that previous evening.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes When a person experiences absolute and totally pure fear... or peace...time ceases to exist.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
I sometimes sense thing before they happen. And very strong feeling of things having happened before. A strong sense of déjà vu. Once in a while it stops me in my tracks. It is so familiar. Yet, not often. Like an old movie being repeated. Being there...done that... if you know what I mean.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I'm not sure. I have always been sensitive. I feel a strong bond with the universe and God. I feel that there is good and bad. That we are here for a purpose. I do not allow myself to open up. Sometimes the things I see are scary. I do know that my time here needs to be purposeful. To give back and not just take. I have been very critical of others in the past and I am trying to be more forgiving.
Have you shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, that this is not the end of it all. This is just the beginning. I have had a recurrent dream of myself standing in a field of wheat somewhere in England or maybe in Canada, but I was standing on a hill... on a lovely summers day watching a gathering of people from a distance in front of a small rural church. They were gathered for a funeral.. and as I watching it became apparent that it was for me. I looked at them and felt the warmth of the sun and total feeling of lightness and happiness and I wanted to tell them that it was Ok that I was not dead. I was still alive, but different from them. I had been born into a new existence.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes