Stewart B's Experience
I have had
epilepsy for the past 10 years; it is now controlled by medication. However when
I used to have seizures I used to have auras before them. In relation to what I
see at the start of the aura. I see normally, but I can see another vision
underneath my sight, for example it is like looking at 2 TV screens one on top
of the other. The new vision that appears underneath my normal site is always of
myself from a different view. For example if I was sitting in a chair then this
new view is like someone (who does not exist) is looking at me from across the
room and what ever they see I can see in this new vision. Another example of
this vision is if I am standing up when I had the aura, the 2nd vision would be
like myself standing behind me and I could see the back of myself. I can move my
arm and I would see my arm move from the view behind me at the same time. this
was usually followed by the epileptic seizure.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I felt as though I was drifting away, I would not know where I am no matter how hard I thought, for example if I was in my bedroom, I would no longer know where I was, it was like my mind was in two places at once.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes, it felt like the world around me was not real, I felt separated from it
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes My mind was separated into two, the one where I am standing and the other half in the me standing behind me.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Lost, confused, panic, dizziness
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? sometimes a loud noise like an alarm getting louder and louder, like a high pitched tone which never broke, just consistent
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes sometimes, I saw flashing lights later in the OBE, but this is probably more related to my epilepsy.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes I had no feeling in my body, for example my nerves did not work, I felt numb, my vision was dizzy, once I smelt burning
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes I had no awareness of time
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No either it would end itself and I would be very sleepy, or it would end in an epileptic seizure
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain if all the lights are off in a building and my eyes blindfolded, I can walk around without hitting the walls, as I can feel them through my whole body pushing against me when I near them, however the most logical cause is that I just sense heat coming from the walls or something.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? none, I believe it has something to do with epilepsy so, just part of my medical condition, therefore accept it as part of my day to day living.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes This sounds like a rare type of aura called a depersonalization, or more simply, an out-of-body experience. Here's a page of information about auras: http://www.epilepsy.com/epilepsy/auras.html. Depersonalizations come under "special-sense auras".
Effectively an aura is a seizure in itself, but a partial one (occurring in only one part of the brain) which comes before the main seizure. Out-of-body auras occur when the partial seizure affects the parts of your brain that deal with memory (since you are remembering what you look like), vision (since the aura affects your sight) and sense of space (since the vision is from another point of view). This area of the brain is probably near the junction of the temporal, parietal, and occipital lobes of the brain, but particularly concerns the parietal lobe. Here is a link to a scientific article describing this phenomenon:
t=Abstract&list_uids=14662516.Member of the Epilepsy Research Foundation