EXPERIENCE:

First of all can I just say that I am gay teenager, so I wanted to show that spiritual stuff happen to gay people as well and God loves everyone.

It was in the year of 1992/1993 I was 8 years old.  I am 18 now.  All the memories of it have started to flood back now that I have found all NDE websites and have become really interested in things like this as I got older.

My sister slept round a friends house that day and she shared a room with my nephew so I decided that I would sleep in her bed that day, to keep my nephew company in his cot.

I fell asleep as normal, but I woke up at about 3AM with the most weirdest feeling I have ever had, I sort of had hardly any control over my body at all, and I could see the body in a different view, I could see my nephew in the cot and could see/sense beings stroking his head, the room was just spinning.  I wasn't scared though. 

Then I remember that a green light appeared and I felt like I had more control over my body now.  I looked out towards the rook entrance and saw a beautiful angel with lovely jewelry on I think and she had white wings.  She was so beautiful.  She looked identical to my mum but there was something about her so heavenly, it was great.  I just stared at her for ages, and I thought 'hey, what's happening, is this my mum' I then said 'Mum what are you doing' as I thought it must be my mum, the angel just smiled at said nothing at all, but I knew that she loved me.  I feel all emotional now writing this down at work.  Before I knew it the angel disappeared the greenish/white light went and everything was back to normal.  I ran in my mums room and she was fast asleep.  I told her the next day what happened and she said that my sister said that in that room around hat time she thought she saw an angel that looked like me.  She said 'Steve, what are you doing' but the being just disappeared.  My mum isn't spiritual at all so she thought I probably had a dream.  I know it wasn't a dream though, the feelings were so nice.

While I am here I thought I would write about other experiences that have happened to me, around the time.  On 2 occasions I was laying in my bed when for no reason I just floated out my body around the house in balloons and things like that, I was scared though.  I saw my mum and dad in bed as I hovered above them but I just thought nothing of it all, there's me just floating around the house and I thought nothing was wrong.  I can't remember how I got back in my body though.

Another weird experience that happened to me when I was younger on 2 occasions both when I have had a high fever were this.  Well when I went to bed I had a dream that it was just white everywhere and there was a picture of me, and I was so scared of it, I was crying hysterically, it sends shivers down my spine how scared I am thinking about that creepy picture of me.  I actually don't know if it was a dream as I was so scared even thinking about it now and on 2 occasions its been identical, well in my dream all I remember is there are loads of small beings doing things with screws around my picture but I cant see what they are doing.  I really wanted to wake up so I rubbed my eyes and then instead of waking up my dream instantly changed and I was with my parents in it.  It was so weird.

Another experience that happened to me when I was younger is I had this high fever again and I was actually hallucinating, but I got so scared that I put a walkman on but the song slowed down like the battery had stopped.  I got so scared, I looked in a mirror and then saw a flash of lightning hit in my and I just screamed again, then for weeks later I would have flashbacks well just all the feelings came back and whenever I was on my own I could hear like 1000 voices talking to me, but it scared me.  I haven't had any experience like that again.

Weird things happen to me though which are nicer now, than when I was hallucinating like whenever I am outside with nature or I hear nice singing the weirdest sensation comes over me like angels are trying to contact me and I go in complete bliss and my face starts tingling.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Just the way to describe it as there is nothing like it in the day to day physical world

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Alert through the angel experience but had no control of my body at one point

Was the experience dream like in any way?  No not the angel experience, none of it really

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Love, just happy, nice feeling

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  No no noise at all I don't think, I think there was a really nice scent when I saw the angel.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  yes, a greeny nice yellow light all around the room

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes I saw an angel

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No response

      Describe:  In my horrible picture experience I went somewhere all white but I was scared

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes during the angel experience all time stopped

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes like I know when a songs coming on the radio I will dream of things and they will happen.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes now I ain't scared of dying at all and actually I can't wait to go into the spiritual world

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I just don't seem to fit in anywhere at all, and I don't have hardly any friends, I get so upset as I don't know why no one likes me but I think of myself as a nice person and everyone calls me selfish

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes a few but they just stare at me weird like I am lying and I am not

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Just happy that it happened to me and I felt grateful that it happened to me.  I am real grateful to God.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  It was all great especially seeing the angel. 

In the dream thing with the picture of me it was all horrible

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  No

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes I am so interested in the spiritual world

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

Steven's Second Experience