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I was an atheist in what feels like the remote past, it was only 3-4 years ago. The tiny crack in my atheism through which the ‘spirit’ came through was a sudden belief in ghosts, following an experience in a hotel room. Somehow I became interested from there in near death experiences, about which I read voraciously, as well as the readings of Edgar Cayce (which I found out about from near death experiences online). This led me to try meditation for the first time, using the method outlined by Edgar Cayce. I should add that I was encouraged in this by the first true (in my opinion) ‘guidance’ I ever received – a leaflet in my mailbox about a meditation seminar at the time I was mulling this over (I had never seen or received any in my life to that point), as well as a friend suddenly relating to me over the phone his own meditation experiences, when he had never had cause to even try it before…

I rapidly began to have psychological/spiritual experiences that convinced me there was truth to all this. It was powerful to begin with. I encourage you all to try this if it feels right. Be very careful and always ask for ‘protection’ before you do, imagine yourself surrounded by a white light. That is deeply important.

I began to experience visions when meditating, to experience accurate predictions of some future events relevant to my life, to be given information which soothed and calmed me, explained things. I’ve suddenly found myself having much of this information ‘compounded’ by similar experiences I have read about other people having. It is a form of ‘verification’ if you will that the meditations, the imagery, the sounds and experiences are not just the product of my own ‘wanderings of the mind’ but something deeper.

I began to feel a sense of calling and duty, linked to work I was supposed to undertake in this ‘realm’ if you will. I followed it religiously, gave it the utmost importance in my life, all the while practising my meditations and spiritual lessons regarding having less fear, living life in a caring way, understanding myself and others, etc. It was an important time and a duty to perform.

My life has been significantly altered by this experience and I am a better person for it. This is always my rebuttal to some of my atheistic friends, with whom I’ve shared many of my stories – if it is some form of delusion, or even a mental illness as some would suggest (usually with care in their voice), why does it improve my existence? Why am I healthier for it? I experience a state many long for in their lives, a sense of peace, which took me a long time to attain and which was only available by following this ‘spiritual’ path and the teachings that came to me along it. It was always at my ‘request’, too – none of it was ever intrusive or something I hadn’t called out for by myself.

Existence here matters, you are important, special, have some calling/duty here to perform. This is all necessary. It truly is. The emptiness you may feel is often due to this – you are failing to awaken to this side of you. It lies hidden somewhere deep down. It is hard to find it and you shouldn’t feel disappointed if you fail to do so. It’s hard.

This is all part of a hidden dream. It is not what we believe it to be in our more basic human state. It doesn’t matter what you do, it matters how you feel while you are doing it. Sometimes this may be bad, you can learn to grow from that experience. Each one of us is different and it is hard to know what is true for any given individual.

I write this because I was compelled to do so and for no other reason.

Thank you for taking the time to read it.

God Bless

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No Response

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Yes on multiple occasions

Was the experience dream like in any way? Yes in terms of it felt like a psychological phenomenon separated from earthly existence, but with a greater sense of clarity to it - it is unmistakably 'other' in a sense, nothing like it

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience? A mix - this is a pastiche of so many experiences it runs the emotional gamut entirely

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? On some occasions unusual music, sounds etc

LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No Response

Did you see a light? Yes Points of light that grow, ebb and fade in response to thoughts and emotions

Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes Never saw them, just felt them and they spoke to me, relating information

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Numerous times - ways circumstances in my life would pan out, the attitudes of those around me which later turned out to be true. In broad terms, not wishing to give any identifying information away - the times at which certain stressful transactions (renting a house) would be resolved, hidden agendas certain people known to me were harbouring (eg someone I thought was close to me was milking me for personal gains I was didn't know of at the time)...

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes They become irrelevant - you stop thinking of them that way - sure you may see clearly but you're not seeing with any eyes in your head or anything like that. The sights, sounds, noises, states, intelligence - they are all just different aspects of experiencing the same thing. It is a way of communicating/expressing a state.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes 'Time lost all meaning' - the classic response. This is true. It ceases to exist but can be called up to exist if it's useful to serve as a reference point in discussing certain things 'over there'.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? Yes Certain events in my own life that have transpired, the way they would transpire, very far reaching ones about the future of the human race etc. The ones about me have proven true, some wait further off in the future to be verified, the ones about humanity appear to lie very far out ahead. I did have a sense that the end of 2016 would be a tumultuous time globally but it was no more specific than that.

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Sense of intuition about certain events, how things will transpire, steps I should perform to achieve a certain outcome etc. It is beyond my control this one. It simply arises. Sometimes I can request and be given extra little pieces of 'intel' but it's hardly ever.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes 180 degree turn around from agnostic erring on total disbeliever side of things (I was an atheist but kept an open mind, as I think one should if they're being truly scientific about things - you don't know what's going on out there at the end of the day) - to now being beyond any shadow of doubt that there are other means and modes of existence that are outside of the body and the physical realm entirely. I would just say that I believe the truth of existence, where we're from etc is only partially captured by experiences we can have in the human body. It is so other, so alien, so rapturous and beyond this place. Nobody here really has the full answer to what awaits over there. We can't even handle it really anyway while we're here.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? All personal relations are improved, my relationships with people outside my family/circle of acquaintances are improved, I feel a sense of peace day to day, really nothing in my life has remained unimproved by this. It was all nonsense before really, even though I thought it was great. Everything is filled with a greater sense of peace, love, and patience. It's something I'm continually working on though - by this I mean I am still a human being and have all the limitations that come with it.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Bits and pieces with certain people at certain times. Nobody is really ready for the full force of it and I don't want to be known as spirit guy. It is awkward and not what I want to do with my life day to day.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? A range - too many and too complex to answer this

What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part has been the ongoing sense of duty, purpose, devotion, growth and meaning. The worst has been the fighting it took to reach peace internally - many a restless hour contemplating what to do, how to improve, learning to trust, understand, love those who are unloved, who challenge you etc

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No Response

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. Doesn't capture ongoing experiences super well but what can you do I suppose, you want to keep it standardized and 'scientific'.