Let me precede this by saying that my mother passed away 5 years ago...
night I have this dream that I was apparently asleep and I woke up on this
hospital gurney. On the gurney next to me was this elderly Asian woman. The
woman seemed to be having trouble, but I don’t know what it was. This nurse
comes over to her and stands at the foot of the woman’s gurney. The nurse grabs
the woman’s feet and starts to slide her around the gurney and she was being
very rough about it. I said, “Hey! You can’t treat her like that! I’ve been a
nurse for 30 years and that’s not how it’s done!” The nurse went away and then
this other woman (I guessed her to be a doctor as she was wearing a white lab
coat) came up to me, looked me in the eye, and said, “He’s awake.” She clearly
wasn’t talking to me. I got off the gurney and there were 3 men and 2 women (all
wearing white lab coats so I thought they were doctors) staring at me. One of
the men told me to follow them. I followed them to a set of double doors. One of
the men opened the doors and asked me to step inside. It was a very large room.
I took one step into the room and then I froze. I stopped dead because there was
a big Nazi flag/swastika in the middle of the room and it upset me deeply – I
didn’t know why. I said I didn’t want to go any further and one of the men said,
“You have to.” Against my will, my feet moved forward and walked me into the
room. It was filled with all kinds of things – all of them unpleasant for me.
One of the women said, “Before we begin, we want you to know how proud we are of
you! You have spiritually progressed much further this time than was
anticipated.” Then one of the men said, “But there are problems that need to be
addressed. If you can’t get past these issues, your progression will be
retarded.” Then they walked me around the room. There were stands with very
large photographs on them (like the kind you would find at a business meeting),
movies that were running and being shown on screens, and other physical
This is what I saw: all of it dealt with Nazi Germany and it was all focused on
one man. I knew this man. He scared me
and I hated him. One of the women said, “This was you during your last great
sleep.” I gathered from this comment that she was telling me that I was “asleep”
during that lifetime. She took me over to a table that had a Nazi uniform on it.
She said, “You wore this with great pride the last time.” At this point I could
no longer see any of the “doctors” faces as I was walking and standing in front
of them and I also had a deep sense of embarrassment and humiliation and did not
want to face them. I could only hear them. The uniform I was looking at was
indeed a Nazi uniform and I recognized it immediately. It was not an SS uniform
(thank God!). It was a tan/brown officers uniform with the Africa Corps insignia
I was filled with a sense of horror and I said, “No, no, no, this was not me. It
couldn’t be me! I’m not like that! I don’t accept this. It’s not me!!!” One of
the men said, “It was you and the sooner you accept this, the sooner this
encounter will end. We know this is unpleasant for you.” Looking at all the
pictures and movies, I could only focus on one man – everyone else in the
photographs and movies was a blur. I knew this man. I couldn’t really remember
anything about him, but I knew his mind. He was racist, very controlling,
extremely efficient, ruthless, and deeply misogynistic. As soon as I had this
realization of him, one of the men said, “You took extraordinary measures not to
repeat the patterns from this lifetime into your current existence – more so
than most have – but you have had some carry over.” One of the women said, “Due
to some unfortunate experiences you have had this time, some of your more
negative former personality traits have resurfaced. You are fortunate however in
that the effort you exerted to not be the same person over again, you put
filters in place should this resurfacing occur. Because of this, your current
detrimental thought patterns are but shadows of what they originally were so
they can be addressed and overcome.
This is demonstrated by your awareness of the women who woke up next to you and
your concern for her welfare. Your former self would not have cared about, or
even noticed her.” One of the men said, “Wake up! Let go of your petty hatreds!
Let go of your desire to control everything! If you do not accomplish this, your
progression will cease.” I said, “Why now? Why have you waited until late in my
life to tell me this instead of when I was younger?” One of the women said,
“Your mother called out to us. She is worried about you and asked us to
intervene - we agreed.” I was going to ask just how I was supposed to get over
these things, but I found myself back in my bed, quite awake and very shaken.
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substances with the potential to affect the experience?
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difficult to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I was asleep
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain I felt like I was in another
What emotions did you feel during
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Yes Things that I think used to be
Did you see a light?
Did you meet or see any other
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
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attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes Examining my personal beliefs
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Paying more attention
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as a result of your experience?
Yes Re- assessing
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Yes Very interested
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following your experience?
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of being true
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