Stephen I's Experience
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Experience description:

Let me precede this by saying that my mother passed away 5 years ago...

So last night I have this dream that I was apparently asleep and I woke up on this hospital gurney. On the gurney next to me was this elderly Asian woman. The woman seemed to be having trouble, but I don�t know what it was. This nurse comes over to her and stands at the foot of the woman�s gurney. The nurse grabs the woman�s feet and starts to slide her around the gurney and she was being very rough about it. I said, �Hey! You can�t treat her like that! I�ve been a nurse for 30 years and that�s not how it�s done!� The nurse went away and then this other woman (I guessed her to be a doctor as she was wearing a white lab coat) came up to me, looked me in the eye, and said, �He�s awake.� She clearly wasn�t talking to me. I got off the gurney and there were 3 men and 2 women (all wearing white lab coats so I thought they were doctors) staring at me. One of the men told me to follow them. I followed them to a set of double doors. One of the men opened the doors and asked me to step inside. It was a very large room.

I took one step into the room and then I froze. I stopped dead because there was a big Nazi flag/swastika in the middle of the room and it upset me deeply � I didn�t know why. I said I didn�t want to go any further and one of the men said, �You have to.� Against my will, my feet moved forward and walked me into the room. It was filled with all kinds of things � all of them unpleasant for me. One of the women said, �Before we begin, we want you to know how proud we are of you! You have spiritually progressed much further this time than was anticipated.� Then one of the men said, �But there are problems that need to be addressed. If you can�t get past these issues, your progression will be retarded.� Then they walked me around the room. There were stands with very large photographs on them (like the kind you would find at a business meeting), movies that were running and being shown on screens, and other physical paraphernalia.

This is what I saw: all of it dealt with Nazi Germany and it was all focused on one man. I knew this man.  He scared me and I hated him. One of the women said, �This was you during your last great sleep.� I gathered from this comment that she was telling me that I was �asleep� during that lifetime. She took me over to a table that had a Nazi uniform on it. She said, �You wore this with great pride the last time.� At this point I could no longer see any of the �doctors� faces as I was walking and standing in front of them and I also had a deep sense of embarrassment and humiliation and did not want to face them. I could only hear them. The uniform I was looking at was indeed a Nazi uniform and I recognized it immediately. It was not an SS uniform (thank God!). It was a tan/brown officers uniform with the Africa Corps insignia on it.

I was filled with a sense of horror and I said, �No, no, no, this was not me. It couldn�t be me! I�m not like that! I don�t accept this. It�s not me!!!� One of the men said, �It was you and the sooner you accept this, the sooner this encounter will end. We know this is unpleasant for you.� Looking at all the pictures and movies, I could only focus on one man � everyone else in the photographs and movies was a blur. I knew this man. I couldn�t really remember anything about him, but I knew his mind. He was racist, very controlling, extremely efficient, ruthless, and deeply misogynistic. As soon as I had this realization of him, one of the men said, �You took extraordinary measures not to repeat the patterns from this lifetime into your current existence � more so than most have � but you have had some carry over.� One of the women said, �Due to some unfortunate experiences you have had this time, some of your more negative former personality traits have resurfaced. You are fortunate however in that the effort you exerted to not be the same person over again, you put filters in place should this resurfacing occur. Because of this, your current detrimental thought patterns are but shadows of what they originally were so they can be addressed and overcome.

This is demonstrated by your awareness of the women who woke up next to you and your concern for her welfare. Your former self would not have cared about, or even noticed her.� One of the men said, �Wake up! Let go of your petty hatreds! Let go of your desire to control everything! If you do not accomplish this, your progression will cease.� I said, �Why now? Why have you waited until late in my life to tell me this instead of when I was younger?� One of the women said, �Your mother called out to us. She is worried about you and asked us to intervene - we agreed.� I was going to ask just how I was supposed to get over these things, but I found myself back in my bed, quite awake and very shaken.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No           

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?           No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?        No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?          I was asleep

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  Partly

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain      I felt like I was in another place

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Embarrassment

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?          No

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    Yes     Things that I think used to be mine

 Did you see a light?          No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?          Yes     5 "doctors"

 Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?            No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?         No            Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No Response         

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No           

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes     Examining my personal beliefs

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       Paying more attention

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Yes     Re- assessing

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Very interested

 What emotions did you experience following your experience? Contemplation

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The possibility of being true

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       NO

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes    

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.   None