Stephanie C's Experience
I had been feeling
extremely depressed and thinking about suicide for the entire night. However, I
know I would never actually commit suicide. I was just thinking about painless
ways to do it (again, I would never actually commit suicide), and eventually
fell asleep. However, I had the most vivid dream I've ever had. I'm not sure if
this would count as an NDE, but I'm still curious if it could mean anything.
Anyway, in my dream, I remember drowning somehow (I think by a lake or river or
something) and eventually knowing I had passed. All of a sudden I felt an out of
body experience and like i was being lifted up through a vortex. A very intense
vortex, it felt like I was going at least 100 mph. The scenery looked like
bright light and like I was passing through a bunch of stars. The vortex
eventually stopped however, and then my out of body experience occurred. I was
watching my mother try to perform CPR on my dead body and started to panic. I
realized everything I was leaving behind and told myself to go back down the
vortex. My out of body self was telling my then-dead self to come back alive and
to let my mother save me. Eventually, the CPR worked and I was revived thanks to
my mother. I woke up shortly afterwards thankful that it was a dream. I feel as
if I can still remember it perfectly though and can distinctly remember the
feeling of the vortex pulling my upwards.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I was traveling up the vortex and then when I told myself to keep livng.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It was normal.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I do not remember.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear everything that my dead body would have, but I was experiencing an out of body experience.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes I heard my mother trying to save me and the commotion that was around my body that died.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first happiness because I was leaving everything behind, but then panic once I realized I didn't want to leave the world behind yet.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was a sort of vortex that I traveled through, almost like what you would imagine a black hole would be, but it was not a negative feeling.
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a blur of stars/bright light, almost like i was traveling through space.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
I was traveling upwards into some sort of space, but I did not reach the end of it.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Time was traveling extremely fast as I was traveling through the vortex, it felt like I was traveling at least 100 mph.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
Yes, I understood that I did not want to die yet and it was not my time to go.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
As I realized my mother was trying to save me, I told myself that I really did not want to die and to let myself be saved.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life ("life after death")? Yes I was clearly traveling upwards somewhere, like my body was being lifted upwards through this vortex. I did not find out where the vortex ended, but I felt as if it was going somewhere. It felt like my life on earth might have ended but I was just going somewhere else.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes I was traveling through space somewhere outside of Earth, so it felt like there was something beyond this universe that we are connected to.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No Because I had committed suicide in my dream, it made me realize that no matter how hard your life might be right now, suicide is not the answer.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes Because I had committed suicide in my dream, it made me realize that no matter how hard your life might be right now, suicide is not the answer.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? No
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Uncertain I wouldn't say I discovered my 'purpose,' but I did feel like it was not my time to leave Earth yet.
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes I believe that everyone is here for a reason and you will be taken from Earth when it is your time.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It was a very realistic dream that has convinced me that suicide will never be the answer.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I have heard of NDE before and done some brief research, but I don't think it affected my experience in any way.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably real Because this experience was a dream, the act that caused the experience was definitely not real because I did not try committing suicide. However, the experience in the dream felt so real that I believe something happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was probably real This happened recently so my view has not changed.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes I believe all aspects of my experience have been explained.
What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?Because it was a dream, maybe sharing information about NDE and dreams and if it is possible to have an NDE in a dream.