The event took place while I was sleeping, and suddenly I was aware that I had died. I was out in space, maybe sitting on a swing, and looking out into the universe. I had total consciousness, I knew the answers to everything, why it was the way it was, and why it got to be the way it did in some cases.
I know I was thinking about the riddle of cancer, and suddenly I knew how to cure this disease with very simple means. I know I was thinking it seemed funny that nobody had thought of this cure before, which was as self evident as it actually was. I knew everything about the universe, how it was once created and why it all worked the way it did. The more I thought about different aspects, the more knowledge I got. I know I was thinking that "what if one had this knowledge while one was still alive." There was no being of light that came along and showed me around or anything like that. No, you could search for all the knowledge yourself if you wanted to.
Suddenly, I heard a voice behind me, saying "Stefan, it's not your time yet." I didn't see any being of light or anything like that - I just knew there was someone there. I accepted this immediately, and then asked how I could get back to earth. The voice/being then pointed to earth and said I should dive into the water, and then I'd come up on the other side. I saw the earth before me and started diving with my head first. During the dive, I experienced the water and noticed I was on my way up to the surface.
I came up on a shore and felt born anew, happy, blissful, redeemed asf. at the same instant, then I woke up and gasped for air in my bed. At this time I still had great knowledge about life and the all. I instantly got up to get paper and pen to write it all down, but almost immediately, I forgot everything again. For several weeks after the event I tried to recreate my memories from when I was sitting up in the universe, but the story above is all I can remember.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?
Both yes and no - when the experience took place everything was as clear as ever, but whereas I woke up, it was considerably more difficult to express the experience in words.
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain
Describe: I "dreamt" that I died while I was asleep.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
It was a big difference between dreaming versus the experience I had. In it, I was fully aware that it wasn't a dream, but in fact I was dead.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? No
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? nope
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? No
Describe: Nothing other than the stars.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes
Describe: I heard the voice, "Stefan, it's not your time yet".
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Describe: See above
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Describe: I knew everything.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Yes
Describe: see above
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Describe: Unfortunately not.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
Describe: I wouldn't call myself religious, in the sense that I'd go to church or read the bible or anything like that, and I don't do it now either! But I must admit that I think more about spiritual values now after the experience than I did before.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? Nothing in particular in my life is different, and no deeper religious practice.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
What was the best and worst part of your experience? That you donīt remember everything, the best, Iīm not quite sure.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Earlier, I used to read quite a lot about near-death experiences of different kinds, especially the kind of experiences that turned into books. Sometimes, as I read these stories about houses and buildings in spirit worlds, I could at times feel that "Iīve been there, it looks just the way itīs described." But my own experience looks different: no tunnel, no light and no being of light that welcomed me.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: I think about my experience and about death daily. I think I can sometimes feel a light, the size of a basketball, coming towards me and filling me with a kind of bliss now and then. Sometimes I can get the feeling it might be an "angel".