and the rabbit hole:
...because of her namesake (Lewis Carroll) I started to read 'Alice in
Wonderland', and wondered just how deep this rabbit hole will go. I fell asleep
and before I awoke she was there being so kind to me, and I was aware of God and
her, the same being. I woke up, and I was in union with the divine, everything
had changed, the room was different the light was different (I now realize when
I “see” the room normally it is 90% spiritual sight and the physical seeing of
the room is very little) I thought 'Am I having another NDE?' Am I dead? No it
was conscious union with God while sleeping. I woke up, I could see I still had
a body, but my soul my mind had been filled with such deep peace joy and ecstasy
I couldn't describe it. Just, WOW! The nearest explanation was like a sexual
orgasm only 1000 times more intense. So because there is no separation and most
of our soul is in Heaven now, I can see her and talk to her and this can never
be taken away. The theory is God can't take from God, who is me is you and who
...that part of us that is God is ever present in all of us and can never be
taken away. Then Cheryl started to improve a little. Then my neighbor that I am
worried about called me over to pet his dog, he's a great guy and the dog loves
The stated goal of “!the infinite way” is conscious union with God and this is
what has happened today! (Friday 3rd November 2017) I had been concerned about
JC there had been some feelings that maybe something nice might happen but I
have been concerned with the here and now, this is it, what I had been waiting
for but didn't know in what form.
The being of light spoke many things to me, we are all made of light the light
likes interaction it sees itself in us and through others eyes. We are in fact
nothing else than the light. The girl that broke my heart is also just light and
nothing more, the light loves me and as the light she loves me.
8th Nov 2017,
sat down with some music and my favorite book, I began to read a meditation book
about “The infinite way” and the being of light said turn your music off, as I
did I started to pray, and a peace came, as I prayed “Your love makes me cry!”
and the being came to me, and then much stronger, in waves of pure pleasure and
peace and joy, as if only in an NDE it was so intense and came in waves the only
way to describe this was like sex, but 1000 times more intense.
happened again, while praying the spirit came into me waves of “life“ energy
rushed in waves into my body, “My god!” I said. Then they got more intense,
afterwards I cried because it was so nice. Too nice to bear. Waves of ecstasy
and the presence of God, “As if I am not with you all the time?” said the
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain I could not feel my body, so I
tried to feel it and was surprised to feel it as I though I had died and was in
What emotions did you feel during
peace joy and every nice emotion and love
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
the being kept
talking to me
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Did you see a light?
The whole room was shining with his light
but physically nothing had changed. Because of the being of light it appeared to
have changed 99% but nothing physical. Just his presence.
Did you meet or see any other
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
I was so overwhelmed with His love for me,
I didn't think I was still here I didn't want to move to break the 'spell' but I
felt my body, and then I knew I was still here on terra firma. Nothing had
changed but everything had changed.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes it was like time had stopped, but
the experience went on and on.
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
You can never truly lose anyone or
anything, the girl that broke your heart is made of love as well and as such
lives in your heart where God also lives, in each of us.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes The being of Light gave me hope and
said a lot of things to me. Some of them I remember that He cant take anything
away from us or anyone either.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I often pray to this person this
Being of light, I don't call myself religious or Christian. I have to respect
everyone as they are made of light as well, even if they seem to be evil.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Yes Everything is improving!
Have you shared this experience
Yes On Facebook. No-one really
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
joy. When will the being of light come back again?
What was the best and worst part of
It was all
good. The being of light will never betray me as had happened as a child. He
makes me confident where I had felt betrayal as a child.
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
union with God. Even if you are not a Christian.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
Yes It allowed me to explain the
experience in my own words in the large text box.
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire.
It was perfect!