Scott F's Experience
On February 2, 2013, I went to bed at around 11 pm. I felt fine The day was ordinary . When I awoke on February 3, 2013 at around 8 am I had a heavy feeling in my chest. A type of aching feeling. I was short of breath. My pillow was soaked with tear's as well as my face. I began to recall an experience I had overnight. As I remembered what had happened I began to realize that this was no dream. I thought of how I have had vivid and lucid dream's in the past and know what they are. In this case This experience was realer than anything in life. It started out to be a seemingly normal dream until I was overcome by an energy, a loving energy , nothing which I had ever felt before. I will get into the details later.
The experience began as I was walking down a street as if I were instantly transported into another place or time if you will.
I was walking on a street in a small town . It was early morning. I could feel the warmth of the sun on my face as walked along. The town seemed like a place out of a story book. I saw house's with picket fence's and gardens. I clearly remembered seeing the sun beaming through the tree's as I walked along. This was no place I had ever seen in life however I felt at home here. It was quiet and peaceful. I soon realized that I was not alone. I felt a presence near me. Although I heard no sound I instinctively looked over my right shoulder and there some distance behind me I saw a brightly glowing figure . It was that of a man
The figure's face was not visible through the bright light. I was not alarmed. I had sense that this figure would not harm me. I continued to a house I noticed across the street. I was drawn to it , again, no house I had ever seen in life but I was drawn there.
When I arrived at the house I went inside. There I was greeted by my mother who had passed away 7 month's earlier. She greeted me happily just as she would have in life. I asked her where my father was. She said he was out back. My father had passed away in 2000. I noticed nothing out of the ordinary in the house but as my mother spoke I noticed that she spoke without word's. I do not recall her mouth moving. this seemed perfectly normal to me at the time. We spoke small talk for several minute's and then, as if prompted to in some way I decided it was time to leave. I them began walking back into the village in the direction I came from.
As I walked along I noticed that the glowing figure was still following . as before to my right and behind some distance. I came to a place on the sidewalk where I noticed a driveway or path between the two house's. I made my way up the path. As I passed the house's I found myself in an open area. like a field. I then walked up a path along a tree line. With the field to the left and a forest to my right I proceeded until I could see a large metal building in the distance. Outside the building I noticed several old style car's outside in various stages of decay. I walked up to the building and through a door.
I noticed men moving about , working on old car's. This seemed to be some sort of large restoration facility. I was soon greeted by a woman. She carried a clipboard. She seemed to be in her late 40's with dark short hair. she was dressed in white blouse and black slacks. She was very friendly as she began to speak, again, without words. She was also nobody I have ever met in life. Her word's to me were ' Hello, Well this is where you will be working when you arrive'. As I looked around I saw the men working on the car's . The woman and I walked around the building. Her talking to me from behind as I looked around. Being a fan of old car's I had no problem with this. I was in my element here. After spending what seemed to be a long time here I was again, as prompted to by this glowing figure to say bye and we left the building.
Now outside the building I paused for a moment to look around. I saw the sun shining brightly. I could feel the warmth. I then noticed another path leading along the edge of a tree line. Then suddenly the glowing figure spoke. I was not looking at him but I could hear him say ' Why don't we go to that place you like '. Without any hesitation I walked up the path I saw and before long I arrived at an apple grove. By now it was evening it seemed. I could see the sun setting to my right and a darkening sky to my right. It was here that I took some time to look carefully at my surrounding's.
This the place where everything changed. This is the place where what seemed to be a dream turned into an experience that would change the way I look at life forever.
As I stood in the apple grove I was suddenly overcome by a powerful energy. It was nothing I could see but it felt electric and warm. I was suddenly overcome with joy. My senses became heightened. I could now sense the life in the tree's and every blade of grass. The warmth began to get more intense and with it a feeling of unconditional love unlike anything I ever could have imagined in life. I was at one with my surrounding's. I could smell every blade of grass, apple and the air was sweet. I could see the figure off in the distance, standing quietly as if to ' let me have my time here to take all of this in '.
Standing near the apple tree's I noticed it was getting dark. Overcome with happiness I then knelt to the ground. I was crying with joy. There I was ' Home' I remember saying repeatedly with joy to myself out loud ' I'm home. I'm finally home '. As I set there in the field by the grove I noticed two glowing object's in the sky. These appeared like two nebula. They were white cloudy areas in space , not cloud's. I could see stars within them and hue's of crimson and blue. These 'nebula' as they appeared had what looked like lightning bolts emitting from the bottom's of them. Along the bolt's there were stars. I clearly remember thinking how beautiful all of this was. As I tried to rationalize this. The feeling was incredible. I felt whole again. Free from my body and all of my earthly care's. I was finally home. Thought's raced through my head. I began to think of my life here on earth and my wife. I was at one with everything I saw. I began to think that I may have passed away. This was not a problem though. I thought again of my wife and family. looking out into the night sky I could almost tell the direction from which I came.
Feeling's were mixed at times as I set in the field. I would miss my wife and family but I knew that they would be ok. I was aware now that this was the afterlife and soon they would be here and experience these same feeling's. I can remember having a body still but it was different. I was filled with energy and warmth, I was lighter than air. No longer weighed down by a body with failing health. I was no longer a part of the earth I was at one with all that surrounded me. I even remembered going to bed earlier and thinking that I had died in my sleep. Having had a heart attack in 2011 I assumed it had happened again.
It seemed as if I was given knowledge of just where I was in the universe as this energy and I became one. After spending what seemed to be a few hour's or more, Not sure, time meant very little at this point, I heard the glowing figure speak. It was dark now as he said ' You should get some rest, You have a busy day tomorrow.' I then stood up and as I walked toward him it were as if I had blacked out for a time. Nothing.
Then suddenly I was awake and aware again. It was a new day. I found myself on the same path as the night before, near the building with car's. The glowing figure and I went back into the garage where I spoke briefly with the woman again. just exactly was said is still not clear. It was then time to leave. I took a different path from the building to a street in the village. I turned to my right and walked along the street. It was morning again. I could smell the sweet, fresh air as never before in life. The sun was warm. I was At one with this place , unfamiliar to me but home just the same. I seemed to instinctively know where to go. As I walked along through the village I saw a small white house to my right. I paused there for a moment. I can remember every detail of it. I walked up the steps to the porch. I opened the front door and There I was met by another woman. again, nobody I had ever seen in life. She had graying short hair. She cheerfully greeted me once inside.
Oddly she showed me a set of wooden bed rails. She explained ( without words ) speaking through some sort of mind communication I suppose that these bed rails were broken. Her word's were, 'Oh, your here! I have a project for you'. I looked at the bedrails and saw that it needed new wooden pegs. I leaned them against the living room wall instinctively knowing they were for a child's bed in an upstairs room. As I looked around the house I noticed very clearly that the furniture here all seemed to be older, 'antique' looking if you will but not old. I saw white lace curtain's in one living room window, gently swaying as the breeze blew in. I could smell flower's as the breeze came through the room.
I felt at home here although this was no place I had ever seen in life. I could still feel the intensity of the energy within me from the evening before. After some time speaking the woman said she had 'some thing's to do in the other room'. Before she left the room she also said. 'Oh, By the way, there is someone here who really wants to see you '. She smiled as she left. Looking around the room for a moment I saw a child appear. She was a girl, perhaps around eight to ten year's old. She had very dark, long straight hair. I knew who this was ! I had seen her in dream's earlier in life a few times. She wore a blue dress with white polka dots. The sleeve's and collar had white lace with white lace along the bottom just below her knee's.
She had big beautiful dark eye's. We made eye contact and then with no word's she instantly ran to me, jumping up into my arm's. In life I never had children but I knew her. I was never so happy to see anyone in my life. It had been so long I thought. As I held her in my arm's I felt a warm energy passing through me. Very intense. This was unconditional love. We both began to cry intensely. As we cried There were no word's for a moment. I could taste and feel her tear's of joy on my face. I could smell her hair.
She Spoke in my ear. 'I'm so glad your here '. Through her tear's she expressed how she loved and missed me so much. I was crying as well with joy. Nothing else mattered anymore. I was home. I felt a kind of electric energy pass through me as if from her. It was
Like nothing I could ever completely describe. As she pulled her head back we looked in each other's eyes. ( Without words ) She and I spoke. It was as if we did this through our mind's. Choking with tear's we spoke so fast it was hard to grasp it all.
I set her down and got on the floor. Setting Indian style she sat on my lap, never letting go of my neck with her right arm. We started to laugh at ourselves as we talked, crying at the same time. It was clear to me now what this was all about. I was here to see her. She seemed somewhat wiser than her age but spoke as a child just the same. We were two computer's talking back and forth so fast trying to catch up. This communication was effortless. I felt that she had a purity and innocence that was not of this world. She began showing me thing's she was doing, Book's she read, toy's she had.
I got a sense that she was always this age and always would be. Acting as children do, she would frequently use one hand to free hand to tuck her hair behind one ear. As we talked I began to have sense of guilt at time's as if I had left her there even though I knew she was being well cared for by the woman who greeted me.
I was aware of the glowing figure in the room , quietly observing all of this. It was the that I realized that I would be able to remember all of this. This was much realer than life itself. This visit was a gift ! I felt a deep connection to this girl that ran far back in time. I felt that I was in some way responsible for her and that I was only going to be here a short time. As this was happening My thought's turned back to the apple orchard the previous day. I remembered the energy there and how it was even more intense than ever. I can't even remember all that was said. Mainly some number's. The number's eight, nine and twelve seemed to mean something important to her.
Then as if prompted again by the glowing figure. I knew our visit would be over soon. We both began to cry as I told her I had to go back. She spoke softly through her tear's asking me not to leave. I explained to her that 'I had more work to do and when I return we will never be together forever'. Soon the end came. I could feel her energy becoming more intense. This was pure love. As we cried we held each other tight and in a blink of an eye it was over. I awoke in my bed, here on earth. My chest felt very heavy. I was crying. My wife was already awake in the kitchen. I laid in bed trying to regain my composure. When I went into the kitchen my wife could see that there was something wrong. She was nervous. She asked what was wrong. As I choked back tear's it took some time before I could even speak to her. I told her in detail what had happened. She phoned her mother who is a devout Christian and I spoke with her about it. As the day went on I tried to make sense of it all, thinking ' who is going to believe this ? '.
Not being a very religious man and being the rationalist that I am I could still not deny that what this was nothing less than a gift. I know what lucid and vivid dream's are about as I have had many. I was under the influence of no drug's and do not drink alcohol. If I had any doubt that there was life after death I didn't anymore. I have no doubt in my mind that on February third 2013 I left this life for a brief visit with a child who's name I still do not know. But I am better for the experience.
This was no less than a two day journey I will remember my entire life. It was a gift. I have spoken with a psychiatrist who has spent a lifetime studying this subject as well and has no doubt that in his word's ' I am one of the lucky few ' who get to have this life changing experience and to remember it in so much detail. It's now April 2015 and since this 'journey ' I have come to view life in a whole new way. No name's were ever given to me but this doesn't matter. I know in my heart that Whatever her purpose, I will meet that little girl again and I will be ' home '. I have written a manuscript in detail about this experience.
I am still astounded by all of this
and I would welcome any input from anyone who has a higher knowledge of it.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain After having explained my experience in detail to several doctors, a psychiatrist a noted author on Christianity and They all agreed that I had most likely stopped breathing for a brief time or suffered some type of event during sleep. when I awoke I had a 'heavy ' feeling in my chest. ( discomfort ) and slightly short of breath as I had not been breathing properly for some time.
Was the experience difficult to express in words?
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? From the time I was in the apple grove to the end, leaving the girl behind. I felt intense warmth, energy , alertness, heightened senses.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was visiting with the girl. I felt I was at one with her and the universe. I knew my place in the universe. Much of this is hard to explain in word's. I can only say that I knew I was in the presence or a greater power and that we were being watched over. Nothing could harm us.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Much more vivid, even at night in the apple grove. I could see details in the tree's and the sky.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. About the same. Much of what was said was through the mind or eye's. although I could physically hear it too.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was completely aware of the earth and my life but it was of no concern. I felt light year's away.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A figure, glowing intensely. The figure of a man who followed me. Also two objects in the night sky resembling ' Nebula ' , or star forming regions in space. These however emitted bolt's that did not move or make any sound that resembled lightning.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
A brightly glowing figure in the form of a man . So intense I could not make out any detail of him. And a child who seemed ' Angelic' in nature, wise beyond her year's
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My parent's, both deceased at the time of the experience.
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? Yes My entire life. It did not ' pass before my eye's ' although I clearly remembered it.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
Although much like earth , There was a Spiritual feeling about it. I felt the presence of higher being's all around as guarding over me.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I understood that this life is only temporary and that the place I was at was where I came from and will return to at the time of my passing. I knew now that I am here for a purpose. I have work to do. ' paying it forward ' it part of this.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
Although I did not want to leave I knew in my heart that it was not my time. I was only allowed there to meet the child.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes I was and am still aware that there is life after death. This information, although not using the spoken word was told to me by the child. It was through her eyes that I know this. It's really hard to describe. She was a child but wise beyond her year's. Communication was through the eyes and feeling's that passed from her to me. It's not all verbal. communication can be through feeling's from one being to another with no word's.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes I could sense that I was in the presence of a higher being. In fact, the girl seemed ' Angelic' herself. but I could sense the presence of 'angels' and 'god' if you will protecting this realm.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes I remembered my life here on earth as I do now. In detail, however it was of no significance at the time. If I existed anywhere else, it was Where I was during the experience.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes A total and complete connection and understanding of the universe and oneness exists after death. The energy itself is what gives one this knowledge. It is all around you. You feel it enter your body on it's own or through another being there. The girl gave me the knowledge that life does not end here on earth. all questions are answered through the energy or others there. oneness comes with it. you are 'home '.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes Challenges are part of life. The reward is what comes after life. We chose to be here. We were meant to be here. We are free to make our own decisions here. There not always 'a reason for everything'. Our lives are not pre planned We are free to make mistakes.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes Challenges are part of life. The reward is what comes after life. We chose to be here. We were meant to be here. We are free to make our own decisions here. There not always 'a reason for everything'. Our lives are not pre planned We are free to make mistakes.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes Love in this world is often conditional. Love in the afterlife is totally unconditional. The meaning of 'Love' in this world is a feeling. In the afterlife it's part of everything around you. it is all around you. In everything you see and feel.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? Yes Life is worth living no matter how hard. We are here in part to help others. As for the child, she may have lived a short life here. she will never get any older there , nor will we return here. at least not in my case. In the experience we live in the presence of being's, energy or ' Angels' if you will . a place where we all still have a purpose much as in life.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes At the time I knew I had a special connection or purpose regarding the child. She was the reason I was taken there. She wanted to see me. I got the impression that this does not happen often and only in special cases.
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your exp I thought the afterlife would be much like this one . as far as how thing's look , our surrounding's that is. But the knowledge and wisdom we will gain there comes naturally. It comes with the energy.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the I have a great memory going back to being a toddler. This is well known by my siblings and was known by my parents as I could describe events in detail as far back as 4 years old. The experience I remember much more. It plays out like a movie even today and will never fade.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I give more time to people who need help with things. elderly ,etc.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes I try to be more helpful and encouraging to others.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Not sure. Time will tell but I never see myself proclaiming to have special power's . I do feel that I have special knowledge regarding what happens after death though.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The child. I still am not 100% sure who exactly she is or what role we ha play in each others existence but I do feel the love she put in my heart and soul. That will never go away.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The day I awoke from the experience I shared it with several people. since then I have gotten very positive response from everyone. although one noted author says I saw hell I and that I was being deceived. I have since found that he himself has quite the ' checkered past ' and is not credible. Other's who have spent a lifetime studying this subject have read my account of this, interviewed me have no doubt that I am telling the truth.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Some but not much. My experience bears a few similarities to books I suppose but I don't feel based on the circumstances during the experience that any of the influence it in any way.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Its been over two years and although I have not published or given this information out publicly it still is as real as it ever was . it IS realer that life itself.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real It will never change, I know what I saw, felt and heard. You cant erase this memory. The girl put the energy and knowledge into me. I feel it in my heart and soul as if it were a minute ago. She is real. The place is real. Never in my wildest imagination could I have come up with story like this. It really happened . Why me ? I'm not sure but It was beautiful. Realer than life could ever be.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Closer to my wife and relatives. I am more forgiving to people for many things.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I study religion a little more. and I study NDEs. OBEs etc more. I don't believe in dream meaning's so I don't go there.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Nothing on this earth could ever come close to the reality and pure love that I felt there. I have no doubt that I was dead to this world of only for a few minutes. But life isn't so scary and death is definitely not so scary. To Quote ' Woody Allen' ,, ' I'm not afraid of dying, I just don't want to be there when it happens ' .
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Absolutely. You gave me lots of room to describe the entire experience in detail which is the most important thing here. ( NOTE ) I did have a heart attack in may 2011 )not sure if anything happened again, doctors couldn't find anything