Sarah R's Experience
My experience is different in that it was NOT triggered by a near-death encounter, and yet I came to the same spiritual viewpoint expressed by many who did have that experience. That is why I think it is significant that you know of it. It is NOT necessary to die to go to Heaven. Heaven IS a state beyond mind, the realization of completeness and oneness with the Beloved, All-in-All. We always have been, are now, and always will be ONE with the Presence of that we call God, by whatever name. There is no way to be separate from an omnipresent being. Period. We can only THINK we are separate.
I went from flat out destroyed in life and considering suicide, through a four-day transformation through processing my life at a retreat, to a state of joy and Self-realization. I saw myself as A Christ, not the only one but one of many, being sent back out to live in the world, no longer of the world, to share that message of unconditional Love. My old self is dead, so in that sense I did experience a "death." We are all living out the metaphor of the birth, death and resurrection cycle anyway, some just need a more "realistic" death experience to awaken.
After the retreat, where I forgave my entire life, I felt completely at peace, complete joy, and all colors were brighter and clearer. I knew that it didn't matter where I was or what I was doing, I was in the Presence of God and that is the true definition of Heaven. Sitting in a hotel room was the same as glorying in the beauty of a cathedral, or for me, a moonlit night sky on the shoreline. I looked into my own eyes in the mirror and was aware of an infinite consciousness looking back at me. God is omnipresent, everywhere -- is not that space an inch behind your eyes that you think of as "YOU" a place?
I will tell you that my
family did not understand what was happening to me. I did still have some old
issues and archetypes in my subconscious to clear and so later some negative
concepts arose but overall the experience was positive, unforgettable, and
changed me for the better. I became able to channel higher energies from that
dimension we exist in but cannot perceive to create effects of healing in this
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is a level of perception that most people have never experienced, so trying to tell them is like describing a new color. We have words, like "joy" but since we lack the experience they describe, all we are left with is a shallow, flat, temporary, Christmas-card word that has no meaning, until we actually experience what "JOY" is.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain My life had come to a crash-and-burn dead end. Lost love, miscarriage, lost business, no purpose in life.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? First week or so.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: First week or so.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy beyond anything I could ever have imagined possible. Completeness. Love.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Uncertain Felt it.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain My sense was not of OTHER beings, but of a consciousness within all of us that was always there, but I was now aware of. God was speaking to me from within everyone around me, and though what S/he "appeared" to be saying was mundane, the spiritual messages were profound. For instance, walking my niece's dog, I encountered a black man, fishing. The dog was young and untrained and jumping all over. I apologized for his behavior and said, "He's just learning," and the man looked up at me and smiled and said, "It's OK to be learning," and for one instant we both knew we weren't talking about the dog, but about me, and about the human race, the children of God.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes I was going to say no, considering the event starting after the retreat, but I did review and forgive my entire life during the retreat, so perhaps recreating an NDE in life can have the same effect of enlightenment, so that may be something you need to know.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes Yes. Right here. Everything was beautiful, perfect, and exactly what we have asked for.
I wrote a little poem that expresses this.
Seeking Heaven far above,
Don't you know where you are?
Angels see with eyes of Love,That Earth is a shining star.