Sally J's Experience
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Experience description:

I walked into the Alamo in San Antonio, Texas, looked-up into the ceiling/roof area and was immediately met by golden-yellow spirits/ghosts which came pouring-down towards me and went completely through my physical body. There were 50-100 separate, distinct spirits, but three in particular stood in the middle of the rest. They were clearly "leader-figures", men with authority over the rest and they were clearly respected by the other spirits, also. One was neatly dressed in clean, beautifully-tailored "gentleman's" clothes of the 1830's time period. He was bare-headed -- No hat.

One was clearly a military officer of some sort, with a long sword sheathed by his left hip and a couple of medals pinned to his uniform. He wore a kind of broad-brimmed hat with a feather in its band. Those men looked to be aged 25-30. The third man was dressed all in fringed buckskin, a large knife sheathed on his belt, a long rifle in one hand (held, stock-down, his hand around the barrel). That man wore a "cowboy-looking" styled hat, brown in color, to match his buckskin. He appeared to be older than the first two men, but I couldn't say how much older...Perhaps, as much as 10 years older.

These three men were the ones who "talked" with me, telepathically. They stood about "half-way" between the top of the ceiling and my head, about 8-10 feet above my head, as the rest of the 50-100 spirits continuously streamed-down and through me. The moving spirits felt warm, both literally and figuratively. They were relieved and very glad to see me, as if they'd been waiting for a very long time for me to return, even though I had never physically visited the Alamo before in my life.

The three male authority figures had the kindest faces and their eyes in particular seemed warm and inviting and kind. They kept beckoning me to "come with them". It wasn't in a commanding or forceful way, no demands. It was more of a pleading, like we were old friends somehow and they wanted to be together with me again. I could feel my spirit rising-up out of my body, but I wasn't frightened by it. It was difficult to breathe, but only because I couldn't seem to make the muscles of my chest raise my ribs so I could take a deep breath. I could very much feel my heart beating, as if I'd run a long ways, even though I was standing still, in the middle of the Alamo.

When I politely "declined" their requests for me to join them, I could feel my spirit going back into my body, but the other spirits kept pouring-through my body as well. The sensation from them didn't change, it remained "warm, friendly and inviting". I cited my "reason" for not going with them as my family -- I felt I just couldn't leave my husband and my two sons yet.

The spirits seemed to understand 'why' and the three authority-figure spirits only smiled after I answered them. At that point, I could hear my husband's voice very close to me, like he was whispering in my ear. He spoke one word, "Janet", my name. I turned around to answer him, and noticed that he was a full 50 feet or so away from me, standing at an exit door, waiting for me. Our eyes locked and I simply walked away. I never turned around again to bid the spirits "Farewell" or "Goodbye". I was both shaken and exhilarated by the experience

Experience circumstances:  I was fully conscious, 100% healthy, completely sober -- no drugs or alcohol in my system.

Was your experience(s) consciously and deliberately induced?  No. I walked into the door of the Alamo, looked-up into the ceiling and immediately saw and felt golden-yellow "spirits" /"ghosts" coming pouring-down from the ceiling area above me. I could feel them literally passing through my physical body and it was as if I was being hugged, greeted by them, like they had somehow been waiting for ME, for a long, long time.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?  No.     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain.  Trying to describe the whole experience wasn't "difficult", but I was more fearful that whoever I told would BELIEVE me, that this WAS a "legitimate" experience that truly DID HAPPEN to me, that it was "REAL", even if none of us could fully "understand" 'why' it happened or 'why' I was "singled-out" for it.

I DID have "difficulties" describing two areas of the experience:

1) How the HECK does one "accurately" describe what a ghost or spirit looks like?! They had a bit of "substance", in that they weren't completely "transparent", yet I COULD see parts of the roof/ceiling directly behind them, through their bodies. I could definitely FEEL them, as they passed through my body. They were also colored golden yellow all over, but the clothes they were wearing had different colors. How does one describe THAT?! It's like "you'd have to have been there" yourself, to fully understand it. 

2) I absolutely LOVED "speaking telepathically"! It is SO much EASIER than speaking with the physical mouth, tongue, lips! As the spirits and I were "talking" to each other, we could instantly "tell" not only the "content" of our words, but also the mood, the emotional tone(s), the thought "behind" the words -- It was like "seeing" and experiencing for myself, the "total package" that goes into what humans call "communication". It wasn't only the words themselves, it was like feeling EVERYTHING ELSE that person was feeling as they were speaking to you. It is a FAR SUPERIOR way to "communicate", MUCH better than the "human way" of "speaking"!

As I was telepathically communicating with them, I was thinking in another part of my brain, "I wish all of us could ALWAYS communicate like this!" There's no guile in it, no way to be "dishonest", because you FEEL what the other person is saying, you "pick-up" accurately on their emotions and mood(s). There's no place to "hide", like saying you feel "fine", when you're actually very upset. There probably wouldn't be as many wars, because there would be no need for "diplomacy" -- Whatever the other person felt and thought would be "on their sleeve"! See how many WORDS I had to use to "explain" my telepathic experience?! It's RIDICULOUS!

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?    Uncertain.      I had to make a definite choice, whether to "live" (stay where I was), or "die" (go with them). I had a difficult time breathing during the experience, could literally FEEL my spirit being pulled out of my chest area. I wasn't "afraid" or "scared", I just felt I couldn't leave my family yet. I believe it WAS a "life-threatening" event -- The experience itself was "life-threatening".

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I had "tunnel-vision" for the rest of the room, but was hyper-sensitive to the spirits and to what they were saying. I could see, with my physical eyes, my spirit as it rose-up partially out of my body.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  In a way, though I was fully-conscious through-out the whole thing and could remember everything later, in detail.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Yes.   Very much. It was as if my mind were split somehow. My physical eyes were taking-in the information, in detail, that was before me, very much like a computer or a calculator -- With little or no emotion, but in great detail. The other piece of my mind was "conversing" telepathically with the spirits and was highly emotional, receptive to every nuance, every glance, every glint of their eyes -- Every little "sign" or "clue" of their emotions and thoughts. When my spirit rose-up partially out of my body, it was the same sparkle-y golden yellow that all of the other spirits in front of me were.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Nothing but peace and excitement. It was wonderful, even the sense of "suffocating" didn't cause me to panic. I also felt honored as it was happening, because I "knew" somehow that these spirits thought I was "special" somehow, that I was an old "friend", come back to see them.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I was "deaf" to the noises in the room around me -- whispers, low voices, feet shuffling on the floor, the low, soft "boom" of the entrance doors as they opened and closed over and over. I could very much "hear" the spirits' voices, but it was more of a "mind thing" than an actual physical "hearing" of them. They definitely DID have various, different voices, just like individual humans do. I DIDN'T hear harps, "heavenly music", trumpets, "singing voices", etc.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations familiar from religious teachings ie. Heaven, Hell, Hades, etc.?  Did you encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?  Uncertain.  I'm sure it isn't "normal" to see spirits at the Alamo, but no, I didn't see "heaven" or "hell" or "St. Peter", etc.

Did you see a light?  Uncertain.  The spirits were "lighted", but I didn't see a distinct light or light source. The spirits were more diffused with light, like they were bathed in a soft golden yellow light.

Did you experiment while out body or in another altered state?  For example did you attempt to visit a family member or friend at another location?  Did you eyewitness an event that you would not have known about had you not been out of body?  Did you attempt to move a physical object while in the astral/etheric universe?  Uncertain

If yes or uncertain, what did you do and what was the result of the experimentation?       I'm not sure how to answer this question. I DID see spirits from the Alamo battle era, but I didn't try to "do" anything unusual or try to "walk through a wall" or anything like that.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes.  I immediately looked-up the clothing of the 1830's, around the time that the battle/siege of the Alamo was taking place and the clothing that the three authority-figure spirits were wearing matched almost exactly what I saw in the books.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?  Yes.  I described this in questions 4, 5, and 8.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Uncertain.  I'm not sure 'how long' I stood there in one spot. I didn't have a "sense of time passing".

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes.  I could definitely feel the boundary. I knew if I crossed the boundary, I would physically die, but my spirit would go on.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes.  I still can't "reckon" my unusual "talent" with my fundamental Christian beliefs. The two don't seem to "go" together.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices?  I'm much more aware of how finite our time is here in this world. It makes me appreciate it that much more. I'm not afraid or unsure of "death" anymore, either, the whole "dying process". If it's anything like what I experienced at the Alamo, I won't be afraid when it comes around again. 

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes.  My highly-religious parents thought I'd seen "angels". My husband never really DID give me much feed-back on it. He didn't deny that it happened, but he didn't seem very "interested" in my "story", either. They're the only people I've told.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Relief, a gradual weakening of physical strength that is with me to this day...It makes me wonder if that wasn't the "price" I paid for my unusual vision that day, that I was to become physically disabled as a result of it. I was peaceful, calm.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best part was the communicating telepathically. The worst was not being believed, exactly, when I told my husband about it. I wanted him to be as receptive as my parents had been, to "share" it with him -- After all, he'd BEEN THERE with me that day! But his response was "cool".

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I have had many such "psychic" experiences prior to and after this particular one, but had never, before or since, had the sensation of my spirit leaving my physical body and coming so close to death during the vision. I'd never actually had spirits communicate with me so fully and vividly as I did at the Alamo, either. Before, I'd only had a vague "emotional" response, such as "anger" or "sadness" left behind when a spirit passed-through my body. I have NEVER "actively-sought" ANY of these experiences! They just seem to "happen", out-of-the-blue, unexpectedly. I seem to simply "walk into them".

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes.  It was easy to answer these questions for me. They followed a logical path, too, in their order.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.  Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?  Please tell me how to accurately describe "telepathy". Not the "clinical definition", though; I want to accurately describe the sensation of it, the way it's SO much FASTER and accurate than mere "words and talking", as humans do.