Ruth's Experience
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Experience description:

About 5 hours after waking up from my surgery I was fading in and out of sleep.  I, all of the sudden started going out of my body...almost in a different state.  I was going in and out and found the where with all to push the button for the nurse.  Come to find out, a clip came loose and I was leaking a bunch of fluid.  Had it gone too much longer, I would have died.  My deceased grandmother pushed me back.  I had the thought I could not leave my son, he was 15 at the time.  He and I were alone together for several years and I totally knew it was not my time.  The interesting thing was that when I pushed the button for the nurse, she came and sat with me, even though she was going off shift.   She stayed for me.  When I was in the hospital for another surgery, she came to my room even though I was not my nurse.  I think I was there for her as much as she was there for me.   

Since then, I have had a totally different attitude.  I have become very spiritual...not necessarily religious, just spiritual.  I have had a lot of OBEs and have become very spiritual.  I am a CPA and I have had a need to do something for my community and help other people. In fact, I have connected with so many people that are healers.  It seems like they need me to be in their lives. 

In addition, I lost my  father a month after my NDE and he comes to me often.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was having a mastectomy.

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Actually, right after I went away and called for the nurse.

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

 If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            Actually, right after I went away and called for the nurse.

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     My message was to come back

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I needed to come back for my son.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     Very short...got pulled back

 Did you see a light?           Yes     for a short period of time

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Just my grandmother

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     A lot of light

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Just knocked on the door...meaning close to the door, but got pulled back because it was not my time

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     I did not cross the boundary, just knocked on the door..

 Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     Have become very intuitive and have a lot of OBEs and other visions

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I did not realize it for several months, but came to me later

 Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     Did some minimal reading

 How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    Details just came to me in pieces. I really did not realize it until several months later

 Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I knew I had to come back for my son.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            same as above

 Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     Relish every day

 Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     not real religious, but have become very spiritual

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I wish I could experience it now, knowing what I know now.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes