I was living 1200 miles away at the time my mom was diagnosed with cancer and it was real difficult for me. My mom was living with my sister at the time of her death. She was petrified of dying all her life. She used to say when you died you went in the ground and that was it. I flew in on a flight about 1 week earlier than planned on the day before she passed. I just had a feeling things weren't good. That evening my sister and I sat by her bed talking as she recalled things in her past from many years prior. My dad had passed 16 years prior to her and as a young man he boxed in the Golden Gloves. While sitting by her bed she asked who is that boxing? We knew it was my dad. She passed that night and family members recall dreaming of her that same night. Well the day after she passed my teenage daughter flew to New Jersey to see her nanny for one last time but unfortunately she was too late.
That evening as we went to sleep on a pull out sofa in my sisters home, lying back to back, I heard a radio playing in my head, it's hard to explain but it was just as if a radio was on in the house, I even rolled over to ask my daughter if she had on her walkman radio, which she didn't. The song that was playing was by the "Doors" and it was "Touch Me". The words are touch me babe, can't you see that I am not afraid, I'm going to love you till the heavens stop the rain, I'm going to love you till the stars fall from the sky. Well the next morning I asked my sister if she had a radio on upstairs and she said no and I replied well then mommy sent me a song last night to let me know that she is OK, she is not afraid anymore. Now you have to know that my mother was 75 years old and I don't think she even knew who the "Doors" were. This was in 1993 and that song was popular in maybe 1969.
Up to this day I hear
that song at significant times in my life and it has been witnessed by others
whom I've shared my story with. I believe it is my moms way of communicating
with me. Even the day my niece died at the age of 37 from a heart attack, I was
with co-workers, at a convention when I received a phone call to tell me about
my niece. My co-workers said "let's go have a drink" and I was very downtrodden
and had thought of my mom saying "Well I've got another one here with me" and
guess what came on the radio at the exact moment of the thought. Touch me by the
Doors. There have been many other occasions over the years when I hear that song
and it is always at very significant times. I don't think I will ever be
convinced that there is nothing after we die.
Was this experience difficult to express in words? No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Yes
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated: I heard a radio playing in my head, clear as could be.
Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated? The sound was in my head but it was the original musical group I was hearing.
If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive? No
Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No
Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience? No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the deceased? No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No
How long did the experience last? Maybe one minute or less
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden? Neither, it seemed to be in "real time"
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
I felt my mom was finally at peace.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real: Too many experiences with deceased loved ones communicating with me in various ways, most recently in tangible ways from my deceased husband.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Glad that I got to see my mom one last time and talk with her, I went to sleep on the floor beside her bed that evening.
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
What was the best and worst part of your experience? All of my experiences have been good
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Describe: I think the experience has made me a better person.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes The experience confirmed my beliefs
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.? Yes I believe God is perfect and when he created us we too were perfect and through sin we have become imperfect. When he made us we were to live forever. through sin only our spirit now lives forever.
Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Deep sadness, yet peace in knowing that she was still "there"
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others? Uncertain
Questioned my teenage daughter regarding the audio I was hearing.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Yes I've had many communication with deceased loved ones since the experience which I never had before the experience.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a light? No
Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above? No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes I share this experience and others with anyone who will listen in hopes that if they are not believers in life after death perhaps it will give them "food for thought"
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site? No
Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No
Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. No