Ros J's Experience

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Experience description:   

During a period of several years, I was studying alternative spirituality and mediating, as well as going to church and praying.  I had previously attempted an out-of-body experience in the bathtub with candles in the dark and got really frightened when I heard what was at the time difficult to describe, but once I heard the term "metallic click" I knew that was what I had heard.  I wasn't ready for such and experience obviously.  But I continued to meditate.  I had read about something called "feeling tones"  and in my meditation I was trying to visualize what a feeling tone would be like. 

Suddenly I saw gray swirling energy - clouds?  I don't know.  It became profoundly energized, and poof!  I was transported it seemed, into a tunnel - dark but with vivid scenes of my life on what seemed like endless movie screens, but I was traveling so quickly that I could scarcely see what the scenes portrayed.  In fact, I cannot recall any of these scenes at all now.  They seemed important at the time. 

Suddenly, very suddenly I began to see a light at the end of the tunnel (sounds trite but how else to describe it?) and ever so rapidly I emerged from the tunnel into a vast infinite blaze of blinding light.  This whole thing happened in seconds and upon entering the light, I was terrified and opened my eyes abruptly, aborting the experience.  Since then, I have always wanted to re-experience it under more "controlled" conditions! 

I didn't realize how profound and important NDE's were -- and have been so confused about why I would have this spontaneous meditative experience when what I experienced sounds like a NDE.  I was nowhere near death - only peacefully meditating in my living room!  But I've never forgotten it.  I was in therapy at the time as part of this whole period in my life - I guess you could call it a time of expansion and self-awareness enhancing -- and I remember telling my therapist who quickly wrote it down and asked me to slow down so she could get it all.  I got the distinct feeling she didn't believe me, or maybe thought I needed to increase my mental health treatment!!  Anyway, it is a precious memory, one I'd like to know more about and experience again.  It did not change my life in any way I can easily describe.  It just made me feel sort of special and it also made me wonder about spontaneous experiences and if this was something the brain could stimulate, etc..   Not much, but thought I'd share...

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes

It was so fast, I saw a life review on movie theatre-like panoramic "screens" -- who can relate to THAT?

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           deep meditation

Was the experience dream like in any way?   no

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            euphoria, wonder, fear

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           whooshing

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No

Did you see a light?           Yes

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No, but I had the sense one was there

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes, a sort of life review -- scenes from my life

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Uncertain, I did feel that somewhere my life was recorded and could be reviewed

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes

The boundary was the end of the tunnel, after which there was absolutely NO boundary.  Then there was brilliant light; I felt anxious, and opened my eyes, ending the experience.

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Uncertain, I felt fearful I wouldn't come back if I didn't quickly abort!

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, Sort of silent; I guess most people don't do this..

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  I felt alone because I had never heard of this before.  I also felt a sense of awe and still do.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      I think the best and worst were the same:  the sense that I was not orchestrating this -- I was completely out of control in the sense that I had never seen anything like this, I was not looking for it, and I wouldn't have "signed up" for it.  However, it was awesome and powerful and highly invigorating.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No, Nothing has ever come close.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes