About the fourth day my primary care doctors came in and told me I had a brain tumor that was inoperable, that there was nothing they could do for me and I had only 3-6 months to live. They might as well have dumped a load of bricks on me because that's how hard the news hit me. I had thought about what it would be like to die many times but here it was, dumped at my feet in all it's infamy, what will my family do without me, better yet, what would I do without my family? A fear of death started growing in me because even though I know the Scriptures pretty good and believe them they were all but forgotten because of the reality of death at my doorstep. Another doctor came in later and told me I had Kidney cancer that had spread to my hip bones up my spine and into my skull where it had formed two tumors.  

Death, death, death was all I could think. I've been healthy all my life and here I was full of cancer, dying. Something didn't seem right about this to me.

I've believed in God and Jesus since I first heard about them and although I haven't lived a life of sainthood I didn't think anything I had done wrong deserved this! I started crying to God for forgiveness asking him to wash me in the blood of our Savior and to wash my sin away. That night I started praying. It was the only night of my hospital stay that I spent the night alone without any family members. I want to be very clear that I was not taking any mind altering drugs. I was taking Percoset for the headaches and an anti-inflammatory for the swelling in my brain, but even with the brain swelling.  I was lucid and had a clear mind. The next part of this story is true and not drug induced but was as real as reality itself. 

As I laid on my back on the hospital bed praying fervently to God for forgiveness and calling on his sacred name, I started to rise up out of my body and through a mist. Suddenly the mist cleared and before me and all around me was deep outer space. I was lying in deep space with my hospital gown on wondering how I was going to breathe when I realized that I didn't need to breathe, I didn't need my glasses to see and knew that I was perfectly safe. I looked around at the panoramic view of the universe and my first thought was the universe was God and that it went on forever with no end, eternity. I didn't really think it, it was just something that I immediately knew. I looked to the left then to the right, I could see millions of stars of all sorts, I could see galaxies in all their glory. If you've ever seen pictures of deep space taken by the Hubble telescope that's about as close as I can get to describing the beauty and glory of deep space. I was compelled to look to the left again and that's when I saw him, there was God, standing millions, maybe billions of light years away. He was clear as glass and I could see his features shaded on him like a glass figure would have. He had no hair, he had a slender, muscular build, he had no clothes on and had no reproductive organs. There was a galaxy in his right shoulder with a cascade of stars going down his right side and over to his left side. I guess in a way you could say he was clothed, but with stars and galaxies! I could feel his love and empathy for everything from across the universe. He had just popped up out of the fabric of the universe and was still connected to it. I still knew that the universe was him. Faster than I could blink he traveled all that distance and stood before me. He was smiling at me as he had been when I first saw him. He no longer had the galaxy and stars in him. His appearance still looked the same but now he was filled with a sparkling blue energy. He reached out with his right hand and a blanket of blue energy shot out of his hand and enveloped me like a cocoon, It had thin black horizontal and vertical lines forming a grid in it and somehow I knew he had made the cocoon by using mathematics. All I could do was look at him, I had never felt so much love, warmth and compassion in my life and I would have been perfectly willing to lay there in front of him for all eternity, I wouldn't have complained one bit. I knew he loved me and I know he knew I loved him. Reaching out again with his right hand he touched my kidney and started filling me with an energy that was so powerful that I started growing and becoming very powerful and mighty. If I had shouted it would have been heard all over the universe, if I had stomped my foot the universe would have shook. I was becoming something else, something made of spirit but still human, I was becoming a super spiritual, super human being! What was happening to me is just indescribable. As I was raising up from my prone position my knee went through the outer shell of the energy cocoon. I didn't get to finish the whole transformation as I know now that he was just giving me a taste of what my new body will be like. It was kind of like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly. When my knee went through the cocoon he lowered me back down through the mist and back into my body. 

The whole incident lasted maybe 5 minutes, but I'm not sure since there wasn't any time there, and I didn't look at the clock before or after the incident.

I started thinking again and was amazed by the fact that I had just returned from lying on my back in a hospital gown in deep space in front of God wrapped in a blanket of blue energy! 

God did not say he was healing me when he touched me. We did not talk or use mental telepathy to converse. But I know he wants me to use love instead of hate or revenge, patience instead of anger, mercy instead of judgment and that those things would heal me and be like medicine for my body and spirit. I have been through radiation and there is a possibility I might have to have more. I'm taking the newest chemo which comes in pills. But hey, the tumors are shrinking, my bones are getting stronger and the doctor who said I had a tumor in my brain was wrong! It turned out that both tumors growing in my head were attached to bone and as long as they were on the bone they were not life threatening, as bone cancer is incurable but treatable. I also found out that the kidney cancer was actually a mass growing on my kidney and had not penetrated my kidney or damaged it! Praise God!!! I've since learned, even deeper than I knew before, that the way of God and the way to God is through love, patience, virtue and joy. Amen. 

God bless everyone who prayed for me. Many people prayed for me who only knew me by my name. God heard your prayers and let me have this experience so I

could confirm to you what you already knew, that he exists and loves you so much that you would burst at the seams if you tried to contain it. 

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was told I only had 3-6 months to live. I thought I was going to die a slow agonizing death.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    All through it.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            All through it.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     I just didn't need my glasses as I could see perfectly across millions of light years.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No       I didn't hear anything at all.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Love, compassion, empathy.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I rose up out of my body through a mist.

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light of a million stars and some galaxies.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I saw God.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     I went up into deep outer space. It looked like I was looking at one of the spiral arms of our galaxy.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     There was no time, only eternity.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I knew that God loves his whole creation.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     The next day. Some believed me, some thought I was drugged up.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I know people who have had them and I've read about them.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I still think about it deeply everyday. It's helped me with my understanding of life.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    I learned on a very personal level that God loves his whole creation. He is the creation/creator, He is the universe.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real            Same as above.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     When I catch myself thinking bad things I terminate the thoughts.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        God is beautiful. Do not fear death. To be with God is your ultimate destiny.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes    

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   I have none.