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Experience description:

I had anorexia in my teens and as this is not a prevalent illness in India, my family, myself and the doctors were not aware of the damage I had caused to my body.  I became weaker and weaker by the day due to malnutrition.   

My family decided to get me married thinking that marriage would solve all my problems and bring me out of my misery.  On the day of my marriage, my blood pressure was extremely low.  I knew the symptoms as I had experienced this before but not as bad as it was on that day.  My body went cold and I was sweating profusely. As I was sitting in the marriage hall, I heard a buzz as if it was all around me yet I could hear people around me talking.  I felt a huge wave of sympathy and understanding towards every body and felt detached from my body.  I also had the knowledge during this time that my marriage would not last as it was not the time for me to be married.  Yet with that knowledge I felt comfortable and peaceful as if I was obeying my destiny.  I felt a radiance inside my head (not outside).  After a few minutes I felt the buzzing stopped and I was back again in the marriage hall.  My sweating stopped and I felt a bit better.  I asked my relatives if I had fainted but they said no, that I was ok and just a bit quiet.

 Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     The feeling that no one may understand.  The experiences and thoughts associated with the event seem to be isolated to just me.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     Very poor health as an after effect of anorexia (starvation)

 At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    all the time

 How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

 If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            all the time

 Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No       Feeling of the brightness inside my head

 Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     buzzing sound

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Great sympathy and understanding for both myself and everyone else

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           Yes    

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     I was detached yet I could hear people around me talking

 Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes    

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Sympathy, understanding and some knowledge about my future

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes
            my own

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I have always been a sensitive person since birth.  But after this event, I have become more sensitive (psychic?). I can sense what other people are feeling and have an intuition about situations before anybody else can.  My understanding and sympathy for others has increased.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         No      

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No      

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Sympathy, understanding and some knowledge about my future. The feeling of radiance inside my head...

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes    

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes    

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        No

 Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes