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I was late for breakfast at my boarding school. I ran down the stairs and twisted my ankle on the bottom step. The last thing I remember consciously is hopping on my good leg while shouting "ow!".  

Next thing I know, I am talking to God?! There was an incredible feeling of total, accepting, enveloping LOVE. God "asked" me something like "How is it down there?" (although it was more like a "feeling") and I replied with a "feeling" that life was all just about admin and rushing around trying to survive and that there was very little time or place for anything "higher". He then "told" me I had to go back. I didn't want to leave, I felt I was at home, safe and loved. 

Unfortunately, I then got flung back into my body, it felt like I landed through the center of my chest. The instance I "landed" back into my body I felt as if my lungs were static and I took a big gasp of air to try and re-animate them and the rest of my body, at the same time my body jerked back upright (I had been lying on the floor of the corridor) and as I came back to a sitting position, I found I was surrounded by a flock of boarding school girls, teachers, maids etc.  

I was a little hysterical, as it felt as if I had travelled a million miles in an instance and I was very disapointed to be back, I kept crying that "I SAID I didn't want to come back!".  

I got sent for an EEG (everyone assumed it was epilepsy or something, as something similar had happened before), but nothing turned up and I have been healthy every since and never had anything similar happen again in 12 years.  

The previous experience I had, I choked on an orange while laughing at a friend's joke one night. That was the last I remember, as it felt as if I was flung through the sky at a tremendous speed, to end up hovering in the sky above the city where my parents lived (1000km+ from my boarding school). It was only for a couple of seconds and again I got flung back into my body, leaving me reeling, as it felt as if I had travelled an insane distance in a very short time. 

These 2 experiences have enriched my life greatly, as I no longer fear dying and I have a certainty that there is more to "us" than mere biology.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     All communication was through "feelings", rather than actual words, but in order to describe it anywhere near accurately I have to use words like "I said".

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Same level all the time through, but no experience of "seeing" or "hearing" anything, only "feeling" sights, thoughts etc. I knew where I was, but I wasn't physically experiencing it.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Normal consciousness and alertness

            Same level all the time through, but no experience of "seeing" or "hearing" anything, only "feeling" sights, thoughts etc. I knew where I was, but I wasn't physically experiencing it.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Uncertain      I didn't actually "see" anything while I was "speaking to God" and when I found myself hovering over my parent's city, it was about 300m above a lake and about 1km from a mountain close to where they lived. It was dusk at the time, so everything was kinda dark.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      Didn't exactly "hear" anything. Just felt it.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            When speaking to God, I felt an incredible sense of permeating, unconditional love. When back in my body, I felt a great sense of loss.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      When I got flung through the air to go hover in the sky close to my parents house, it felt as if a clothing hanger had been stuck into my shirt and I got shunted on a rail to a "railway station". From there I got shunted to my parent's city incredibly quickly. On the way back though, it felt as if I just got sucked back into my body.

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Spoke to God, no one else. Well, I didn't exactly "speak to" or "see" anyone. I rather felt as if I was surrounded by and part of God, like I had been absorbed into God, which is why I could feel the incredible love, it was all around me and part of me.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     When I spoke to God, I felt as if I was "high" above my body (but not anywhere earthly) and the other time I was clearly not in the same city any more.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            Yes, it felt as if I was home.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      I was just told to go back and I couldn't resist.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Uncertain      Well, I can kind of see halos around people's heads, but I assume that's just because my eyes are quite light sensitive.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     Yes, immediately after it happened and now and then when people have asked my opinion of religion, etc. I'm not sure how influenced people have been or what they think of it, but I consider these experiences to have been a great gift and a cornerstone of my view of life.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Uncertain            Well, I always thought it was just a tunnel of light when you died or something and I have never been really religious or anything.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I was fully convinced of the reality of my experiences. I definitely spoke to God, I definitely flew through the air to be closer to my parents.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The feeling of incredible love, going through you and enveloping you and seeming without ending, I will never forget. When I think of religion now, I think in terms of that feeling of unconditional love.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was probably real    I say to myself that maybe it was all just electricity in my brain causing these visions, but I don't know, it felt very real, I literally felt slammed back into my body on both occasions. 12 years later, these experiences still feel like they were real experiences. But I am a scientist, so I say to myself, you have to keep an open mind :)

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
Yes     I don't feel uncertain about religion any more. I feel like I can understand other people's religious experiences and I don't fear death.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Uncertain                 

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes