Reuel B's Experience
being anesthetized for an oral surgery, the last I recall in a physical sense is
being totally calm. A brief moment later time seemed to accelerate greatly. At
this point I was not fully unconscious rather but vaguely hovering over the
procedures and conversation taking place below me. My perception was clear in
seeing and hearing the events take place but in a state limited to observation
only. I did not have the will to explore, being that the entire experience felt
to me only perhaps a few seconds. In reality the surgery lasted approximately
and hour, I felt I was partially out of my body in a state of observation but
also still attached to myself. In overview, my utter confusion for a long time
afterward (and my confession to the bewildered surgeon) was really a brief
insight to the higher states of being which we are meant for.
Did you see
or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
A good heavy dose of nitrous
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
The short time that spanned my
experience was not a time for much analysis. I believe I was closer to death
and thus was compelled to take the very first step in that direction. Visually
and mentally I was aware, but since I wasn't dead, instead ,being in heavy
sedation my option were very limited. Nevertheless, a part of my being was able
to leave my body and accurately recount events even with my human eyes closed.
The fact that my eyes were closed but still I was seeing and hearing leads me to
believe that beyond a doubt a portion of my soul was freed from its former
experience dream like in any way?
Not at all, I have had one other
surgery in which I did actually dream very lucidly but was not seeing out of my
body. Two very distinctly different experiences.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
My experience was of a separate
bodiless state of seeing hearing alertness taking place just above the surgical
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
Although I cannot recall the exact
words exchanged between the surgical staff, I was passively aware of much
conversation taking place.
Did you pass into or through a
tunnel or enclosure?
I wasn't to that stage.
Did you see a light?
Did you meet or see any other
beings? No, Not
apart from the immediate persons around me.
Did you experience a review of
past events in your life?
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later? No
I demanded to speak to the
surgeon and while trying to account to him the details that took place I
realized I was unable to because of the state of shock and disbelief I was in. I
wouldn't have been able to describe every detail anyway, my separation was
merely a blurred existence .
you have any sense of altered space or time?
was like pressing fast forward on a vhs, only I was part and apart from the
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
you become aware of future events?
in a factual sense, but I have always been more in touch with my spirituality,
and destiny of real death.
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
I faintly recall returning to my body. I was never really asleep so when I
"awoke" the scenery around me was melding together in vibrant sort of way. I
have never taken hallucinogenic substances(other than cannabis), but maybe It
would be a similar experience.
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
still am Christian, and feel the importance of moral certainties.
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
I have always
been whimsical about career choices and many other of the needed labeling of
our social structure. I do feel that as long as we are in this state that we do
need to define ourselves and live within our moral beliefs but also to be there
for other people regardless of what the world defines them to be.
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
believe every experience we have will change our life to a certain degree, which
is why I am now being very careful as to what goes into and out of my head.
you shared this experience with others?
have tried to explain to my family , but not until recently, having read the
experiences of others, have I understood what took place. For months afterward
I was extremely disturbed of mind, desperately trying to recall what happened.
After awhile though the turmoil post experience began to fade and now I just
emotions did you experience following your experience?
afterward I was very angry for a couple weeks having not the abilities to
explore into further detail the events that happened.
was the best and worst part of your experience?
Initially I was
pretty upset but now I look at it as a positive learning experience.
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
been passively suicidal at points in my flawed life. Lately though now being off
certain substances I can analyze my life experiences a little better to conclude
that I really do need to finish this test of life to the best of my God given
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
not in an out of body sense, but my sensitivity to cannabis recently brought me
to a very low point in my life where I believe my entire body and soul were
drastically weakened. For two months my whole nervous system was obliterated,
three months and I was feeling somewhat normal. The simplest sound would hurt
my ears not to mention migraines. I have never experienced more anxiety in my
life than the withdrawal from that harmless substance. Three and a half months
later I can now think more clearly and have a better grip of "reality".
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?