Experience description:

            There is life after death. My experience was not a near death experience because I do not believe I had any reason to die. I was lying down getting ready for bed. I was awake when all of a sudden my spirit lifted as my body felt very heavy and impossible to move any part. I tried but then my spirit started going through this very bright white tunnel. I was moving slowly through the light and had the most wonderful feeling of love and peace. It was beautiful and I just slowly kept going. It seemed it took a while and the closer I got the stronger the feelings were. A male voice I hope was God, kept telling me, Becky, Go Back it's not your time! Go back Becky it's not your time. The peace was awesome and I had never felt anything like it. I kept flowing softly like on a cloud and soon I reached heaven as the voice kept saying go back. I reached the golden gates open wide waiting for me to come in. It was Beautiful! The flowers, colors, a waterfall flowing like diamonds, the peace and Love was what I wanted. I wanted to go in but the voice would not let me. I got to experience what heaven is and I did not want to come back. I really did not want to come back! I wish I could experience this again and it just isn't possible if God is not in on it. The feeling of being caressed, the peace and love is wonderful! I share with some people that the most wonderful, beautiful thing that can and will happen to us is death! If we believe and live for God there is nothing better than death. This experience changed my life forever and sometimes I envy death. I wish it were me when someone passes on. It took minutes to get there and suddenly I was slammed back in my body and I sat straight up, waking my husband and I told him I just died. I said I don't know how it happened but I just died and God showed me heaven and I didn't want to come back! There is no love like God's love and there is life after death and I can't wait for my day to go be with God! As I write this and share with others I feel that same love and Peace and I long for God!

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    I was 100% awake and very alert.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            I was 100% awake and very alert.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     In heaven beyond those golden gates are the most beautiful vivid colors, the green, pink, yellow, blues, whites and the waterfall was like diamonds as it flowed solid and deep. The golden gates, they are beautiful not like here. The feeling is so welcoming.

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Yes     The male voice I heard was serious and soft. I knew I couldn't go through the gates from the voice but I yearned to keep going.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I felt the most incredible feeling of love and peace. There is no love or peace here on earth as it is in heaven

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes     I flowed through this beautiful bright white tunnel! I was consumed and caressed by the Light

Did you see a light?           Yes     The light pulls you into it and surrounds you like a tunnel.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No       I did not see anyone but I knew the presence of God and others were there as God spoke to me to go back saying it was not my time.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No       However the feeling of leaving something behind.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Yes     I saw the most beautiful flowers and hilly type dimensions. A feeling of flowing over the ground not actually walking if I would have went in. God would not let me through the gate but I longed to go in.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     The minutes through the tunnel seemed to take time but the time back was slamming back in my body and beauty all around me.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Uncertain            Life in heaven did not feel like time had a meaning. We won't be looking at our watches.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes     My boundary was the gates, I felt my spirit wanting to go in and leave this life behind and yet forgetting there is life anywhere but heaven.

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No       I have been able to see spirits when I was 16 before and after the experience. I also have a gift of Godly sense to keep me prepared for things that might happen. Hard to explain because I do not like to think of it as being psychic but as a gift

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I have always shared my experience and I look forward to sharing at any chance I get. I tell people I know it is hard to lose a loved one but they are happier where they are and death is the most beautiful thing we could ever know and experience. I tell people that why we mourn our losses they wish we were there with them. Some people may think I am nuts and some believe it others don't. I know it is hard for people to not believe if they don't experience it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I don't know if it would be the same thing but I was being beat and battered for the first 33 years of my life. Guns to my head and knives to my throat and there were times before the experience that I gave in and begged for them to just go ahead, I want to die, Just do it and get it over with because I was sick of the abuse. At the time I didn't know what or where we would go.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    My life changed instantly and the weeks and years after I have the longing to go back. I actually envy death. I can't wait for my time. I have shared with my kids to be happy for me when I go!

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            Simply the Love, peace, feeling of being caressed and beauty.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    My experience was so real I want to be there now and forever! Talking about it makes me memorize it all over again.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     Many think I am talking crap and even think I am weird. I always try to be a good example and teacher.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I have the most wonderful relationship with Jesus and I be the best I can for myself and others.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     The questions asked are real and as close to my experience that I can answer

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   No I don't think there is anything I could add, I am consumed in my memory of the experience