Raymond W's Experience
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Experience description:

Was on a course and doing a lot of meditating . sat to meditate as usual and transcended all thought . and not knowing anything till I found myself out in space with the earth a long way away. My first thoughts were how vast the space between planets is and that creation seemed really almost just  empty space . Then I realized that I was without my body and thought "Is this what being dead is ...Bodiless and adrift in the universe " ? I felt calm feeling nothing of cold or heat just observing . As I drank in the vastness and total silence I became aware there was something else underlying 'everything', very faint at first , it was a sense of 'Love' permeating everything omniscient . It grew stronger and I found myself enveloped in and floating in a proverbial sea of Love.

At one point I thought " was in total bliss and the thought came " I could stay her for eternity , and I really meant it . Here I was was in a void the space with absolutely nothing and I needed nothing else for eternity , enveloped in the most blissful completely fulfilled state one could ever imagine. I understood that this was the basis and source and goal of creation and there was nothing else . This for all intents and purposes was the creator , vast beyond measure , timeless and totally complete , absolutely  'everything else just faded  into insignificance . As it became stronger and more blissful it became overwhelming , I couldn't handle the intensity , as though I would be destroyed or crushed by the immeasurable , unlimited power and I was so small and fragile by comparison .

The discomfort grew and I had to retreat and found myself zooming back to earth at great speed . As it grew larger I looked on and the many layers in which I was embroiled , on a planet ,in an area , in a country , in an area of that country  in a house in a room , in a body , in a cranium , and that mind seemed so limited with a lot of what appeared to be disgusting traits  by comparison to the sense of freedom and purity I had just come from . It all was very claustrophobic , suffocating and horrible and small minded and I couldn't bear the thought of returning .There was a split second a moment of hesitation , a sense of urgency that I had to make this decision quickly or I could not go back , where I had to make a decision on whether to go back or not . This was the most complex part of the experience , because I had to weigh up the pros and cons very quickly . There was the thought that I wasn't ready to stay and deal with the intensity of what I had experienced and sense of disgust at limiting myself to such a disgusting (from the current perspective) limited consciousness and body .

The only way I could return to this body was to let go and accept myself with all of the limitations etc because it wasn't forever . And there was a "Ah ! what the hell " and I let the force that was pulling me back into my body do its job , and with that , it was like my spirit was attached to a piece of super strong piece of elastic that was stretched tight and I let go and my spirit just slammed into my body and I came to as though I had been hit by a truck . I was actually physically reeling from the impact as I came to with the shock of impact. I was quite high and serene for weeks afterwards with a sense of freedom and acceptance of myself , a bit like a mini enlightenment and have never forgotten the experience . I always thought of it as a mystical experience but now after hearing the radio interview I think it may have been a type of NDE , as my heart may have slowed down along with my breathing and possibly stopped briefly until my body possibly ran out of oxygen and was under pressure to get going again. However I believe the experience itself was real, more than real and when people ask me if I believe in God , I say "No" ......" I know there's a God.....Its not a question of belief anymore"

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     The direct experience of expanded awareness and love could never be conveyed , I can only talk about 'What' Happened

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When floating in a sea of Love and just before returning to my body.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   An expanded sense of uncluttered awareness

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
   No comparison

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.
   No hearing just profoundsilence

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Pure unlimited Love , Fear being overwhelmed by it and at the same time disgust and not wanting to return to my body  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No


Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
A sense of comprehension that was instant so almost no time between thoughts

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about the universe
Love was everything and all and was the creator , nothing else mattered or really existed and was so limited in comparison , there was only Love, vast beyond measure timeless unbounded.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   Yes
My own capacity to merge with something so enormous without being destroyed and overwhelmed

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to "return" to life
I was being pulled back and partly because I was not ready to merge with that purity and overwhelming  enormity of love

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   I was a spirit outside my body and could exist without it

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   Yes God as the only thing that exists as pure Love

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes   experience only

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   The experience that Love is all there is

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   love is all there is

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   The overwhelming nature was nothing I could have anticipated

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   I have had some psychic experiences which have given me a greater belief in a purpose in life

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?  
No  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   A higher self and voice on occasions giving me information I couldn't have known , perhaps some healing ability ?

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?    
Just the experience of overwhelming Love

Have you ever shared this experience with others?  
Yes  Very soon

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It was much too spectacular

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real   Because it was so vivid

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Uncertain   I don't think so

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No     

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   In relation to 'WHAT' happened , yes but impossible to convey the experience