Phillip D's Experience
I had met a girl and we had a very very strong connection. It was as though we had a magnetic connection that was a manifested physical thing... at times sparks would snap between us if we touched...it was odd yet it affected one very deeply. As things of this nature develop we went to explore our natural human tendencies and went to a motel to be physical, i.e.. to make love. Being a romantic by nature I had set candles and had music playing...it was the soundtrack of Forrest Gump... the theme song set on repeat so it played over and over very softly...I look back now and wonder why I did that ..it's as if I knew something. We had both acknowledged to one another we had seen the movie in our conversations leading up to the motel date, but that was just one of the many things that we had talked about and had found mutual in our selves, it was just a sub-conscious (?) thing I did. So the music's on and the candles are lit and we try to make it happen but it is not mutually a great experience so I get frustrated and stop my endeavors to make her climax and ask what's wrong? The questions I pose get no response and so I become angry and decide we should leave. What was frustrating was that the level of trust I wanted by her to just express her needs but she wouldn't.So I decided to "show her" and get up and get dressed and decide we should leave and forget the whole thing. Yet the truth was I knew to do and was the one afraid to speak it, I only now have the courage to admit it. As I stood there beside the bed, dressed, keys in hand saying "Come on let's go" She said "No". Well having the ego I do I was broadsided by her response. She told me to get undressed and to get into bed because she was not ready to leave. This melted my heart completely and I at that moment fell in love in a way that was unknown to me, so I did as I was told and as I lay on her with my hands entwined with hers and as we looked in one another's eyes. I felt I KNEW her, as if I always had, which created in me a ????????? feeling.
I said to her..."I remember you"......then it began.......the candles did not dim... but grew quiet, the music which was very low became a physical thing in the room...then very gently the sound of wings folding one upon another could be heard... you could hear the structure of the bone and feather as they folded, one upon another....one on another and I knew it was covering angels and as I knew this I was no longer here...I was there. There is where the sky was as blue as twilight on a perfect summers day...there was no coldness just warmth and a feeling of knowledge and LOVE and the knowledge was (is) that everything is perfectly planned your cares for the world evaporate as the truth of just how safe everything you leave behind is, how God has His hand on us all, how everything is perfect and makes sense, How EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT.....no matter what goes on ...everything will be all right...and you know it and knowing it makes it even more so, and as I was in this perfect blue I looked at the darker Blue which is like the color of the deep sea and as I looked on this sea of dark blue a step arose from it AND AS IT DID SO THE LIVING WATERS OF CREATION fell from it to mix into the waters of the sea from which it arose and a fog began to form and I became as the fog which was pure and complete LOVE which is GOD which is as east is to west....without end and as I "knew" this God smiled......that is the only way I can put it. God smiled, and....
I was back here with J under me, she looked at me and I at her and we both said at the same time "Everything will be all right"....then I said "what just happened? J ? what just happened?" Her response was "I don't know". She began to cry (which I thought was odd) we made haste dressed and left. We got in the car left the motel and drove down the street and I turned on the radio to fill in the quiet...the song True by Spandau Ballet was playing just at the moment where it goes " this much is true, this much is true, I know this much is true" J looked at me and said "This is one of my favorite songs" I said "mine to!"... We avoided talking about it. I tried but it upset her to recall and so I let it rest.
One week later we were at work and went to hug goodnight and as we did so the feeling of what happened before passed between us as if in a compressed piece of time (?)as though it was a hole in the universe we could touch. A few months later the Pastor at the church I went to, became very ill and we expected him to die, it was at the point where no one but family was allowed and final prayers were said etc. Then out of the blue ( no pun intended) he got better....the church welcomed him back and he gave a sermon which I attended and he told his story... He was dying and he knew it, he felt himself slipping away and crying to God to help him as he had a church to run and his family to care for and he did not want to go and as he slipped away he was led to a place of light and a angelic presence was there to help him, it was full of love and light and it said to him, "If you go through the door you will continue and cannot go back, it is your choice". He decided to come back and as he decided he knew "Everything will be alright!"
for Pastor Mike to tell his congregation of this experience showed extreme
courage and the reason for that is they are the kind of church that believe once
you die you are "asleep" with the Lord and like minded theology which is
fine...no judgment here but for him to buck the tide that little bit showed a
lot of faith and he was rewarded by applause and praise which was expressed by
myself as well. I sat in stunned silence as the words "Everything will be all
right" rang around my head and I started to smile deep inside. This was all 10
years ago now....the words.... I hear everyday it seems, in song or a movie or
someone saying it.. My love for J has never been stronger yet it has been 3
years since I have seen her last yet I know one day I will again. I know God
loves us one and all and we all have a job to do and the work is a lot easier
with a smile on your face and a song in your heart and I could speak for hours
on the research I have done, the books I have read and all of the conversations
I have had over the years...and the dreams? Well its just all so special it will
take me most of forever to say thanks, but I try, everyday.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes Finding the RIGHT words
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Complete
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes What ever I am I became but I was not a physical body...it was as though I was thought
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love beyond comprehension
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Yes
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes It was a perfect blue as a summers night at twilight
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes Everything will be alright
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes Heightened sense of peace/calm /acceptance/wellness/complete love/placement of ones self in everything
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes There is no time........there is just the now
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Everything will be alright......every thing is perfectly planned...every contingency is set in place...every leaf, every plant, every drop of rain, piece of sand, wind that blows has a place and meaning and extreme value.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes but by nature I am precognitive and always have been yet after the experience I am more accepting of this part of my make up
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes I have met several people who have had NDE's and I have a easy sense
with certain people and we speak as we have known each other forever....a sense
of kinship as it were
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I set out to learn more about everything.....physics/math/music/people of different cultures/the workings of the human mind
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Everything has changed in the 10 years since. But I feel better. I love now. I accept how I was and how I WANT to be...I awake in prayers for others for this (I know) is our true goal to want the best for others, this is love.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Yes, simply it is better because I try to be positive at all times in all situations knowing I have a LOT of work to do!
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Hit and miss. Some listen with hope and share their experiences, others roll their eyes and yeah yeah you.......it's to be expected considering the subject
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Excitement that "IT" was the most real thing I have ever felt and not one part has gone away, in fact I learn more about it every time I think on it.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part... to learn to love... really love others and want the best for them , to pray in secret for them and to see prayers work. The worst? To not have had the courage to speak on it in it's fullness till this late date.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I still do not know why it happened to the 2 of us....I am sure it has had happened to others but I have not found any stories like what happened to us
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes One week later J and I went to hug good night and as we did so the feeling passed between us again with the added feeling of this was, is real. Do not forget.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes I believe it is perfect, it was for my needs, I know that.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. For me its a God send ...my thanks to you.