Oh my gosh. Many times I have tried to say it but people look at me as if they have seen a ghost. They go white with fear. But even the words that come out of my mouth have power, like punching someone, but I don't want to punch anyone or hurt them. I just want to kiss them and love them and hold them and tell them it will be OK because IT WILL!!
My friend Tom started to pray for me in church. We were standing in a room with about 700 other people all praying for each other. I fell on the floor as if suddenly in a deep sleep and lost all awareness of my natural body. I woke up and stood up (apart from my body) and saw a man standing in front of me wearing a light beige robe and sandals. He had a sash/rope/belt around his waist. He was above me. I could only see him from the waist down, I could not see his upper body or face. He looked kind of normal, just wearing funny clothes, like from an historical movie. He said nothing, but simply 'threw' his hands down towards me, palms facing one another. From between his hands came a river of fire that flooded into me and all over me. I felt like I had been hit by a lightning bolt or a freight train but it did me no harm. I was absolutely flooded with joy and delight and strange unearthly feelings like love and peace but so much better. All my senses activated and I started shouting 'Jesus, My Master, My Master!' I fell on the floor again and started crying with joy. Uncontrollable tears streamed down my face. I was utterly overwhelmed with spiritual reality and joy! Somehow the water on my face woke me up and I was left in a heap on the floor calling out Jesus! Jesus! and shouting myself hoarse. A large space cleared around me as people moved away, but I didn't see any of that. I have no real idea how long I was 'out' for, but I was distinctly aware of doing things with my 'body' without my earthly body being involved. I had 'stood up' and held my 'hands' out to him, but my earthly body was still on the ground.
The nearest comparable thing I have found in this life is the love I have for my daughters when I hold them. But even this is a pale and inadequate experience compared to THE POWER. I cannot put it into words it is truly unspeakable. His love flows out of me into people but I don't know where it has come from! Total strangers I have never even seen before I feel I love them like my own children. If I give in to it I feel like I will go crazy with burning love! It is more than a human being can bare! IT IS WONDERFUL!!!!
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain I fell on the floor. I have no idea what happened to my body at the time. I lost awareness of anything else around me. I was outside what we call 'body'.
Was the experience difficult to express in words?....No....
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?....More consciousness and alertness than normal Not at all conscious in the conventional sense. My body was passed out on the floor. I completely lost any sense of my physical surroundings or any of the many people around me. I felt as though I was standing upright, but my physical body was lying in a heap on the floor. My physical eyes were definitely shut tight, but I was looking up at something and could see in that other dimension very clearly indeed. I felt like there is a part of my personality that is usually in a very deep sleep-like state that was suddenly awoken at that moment. It had always been there, but no-one had woken me up before. I was very sharp, powerful and unhindered in any way.....My normal everyday consciousness is like life is lived inside the carriage of a train. It has windows, but few if any can see out. One day I went over to the window, opened it, stuck my head out and saw the real world beyond.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see with my eyes shut! I could see better that way. By shutting my eyes I could enter this other dimension/world/existence.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could not hear anything at all that was going on around me in the physical world. I was cut off from it somehow, even though there was plenty of noisy activity going on around me. I didn't hear sounds as such during the experience, there were no words or other identifiable noises, but there was a rush of joy that somehow included 'hearing', like the most glorious music, but not music, it was like drinking delicious nectar and fresh mountain air at the same time. In fact now I remember I could hear singing and the voices were singing the names of people or beings and they were love songs. Really deep, intense love songs for all the people who exist, each one known and loved deeply and absorbed by love into the cosmos.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?....Oh God, emotions is such a feeble word. Something powerful and glorious is rushing through you, coursing through not just your veins, but your actual flesh. It is as if you are possesssed by something or someone, but much closer than two human beings can come together, even in sex or in the womb. All your expressive senses seem suddenly activated to the maximum, you want to sing at the top of your voice, shout like you just struck gold and won ten lotteries, cry like you've just been undone by the greatest tragedy, spin round in a whirl and shoot up into the air singing GLORY GLORY YESS YESS YESS!!!!!!
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an unearthly light?....Yes....It was a person. He seemed to exist in a bath of light. He seemed surrounded by flashing stars that could sing. They were all singing and declaring his arrival. I was so scared and so utterly THRILLED at the same time. NOTHING IN THIS WORLD IS LIKE IT!! So many things in the entertainment business try to get to that. I admire them for wanting to, but it cannot be done in this world by human hands, no matter how good CGI is!! Even now I can feel those stars singing. They were angels, people, beings who were just so happy to be with him.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin OH GOD YES I SAW HIM!!! I SAW HIM HE IS REAL!! OH GOD YES HOW CAN YOU BE SO GOOD! OH GOD YES I LOVE YOU!
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?....No....
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?....A clearly mystical or unearthly realm....I was sort of in another place, but it was like going for an appointment in a consulting room. It was as if I had been called in to see him, but kind of more as if he had come to see me. It was as if I was in an incredibly bright spotlight and all else around became darkness and irrelevance. There were definitely other people/beings watching us. They always go with him and rejoice in everything he does. And they won't stop singing!! GOD HE IS SO GOOD!!!!
If this is the last thing I write I do not care I am so happy to tell you about this.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?....Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....There was no time. He is the absolute master of it. Not only is he immune to it, he also holds it in his hand, and manipulates it as he pleases, like an artist or sculptor who has liquid clay in his right hand, but it is more like molten metal that sparkles and drips.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?....No....
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?....No....
Did you come to a border or point of no return?....No....
Did scenes from the future come to you?....No....
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Yes....Yes, but it's not necessarily unique to me. I have a gift, but there are other gifts for others to receive and use.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Unknown....I am much more confident. I have the connection now to the power. I know I cannot see with my eyes I can only see with my heart/spirit. I think it is my job to wake people up and to love them like he does, even a little like he does. I think once another person has woken up I can commune with them at the real level and unite/rejoice with them because we know where we are going!!....
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Uncertain It's not so much that my beliefs have changed, they have become more certain and more sure. The truth is the truth and the only question is can you get through the door to access it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?....Yes When I sing in church people start crying (for good reasons I hasten to add!)
I can see things coming to our world from the spiritual realm. One time since I saw a human embryo/fetus in the womb about six feet tall, colored a pale blue, including the umbilical cord with nutrients and waste material passing back and forth, clear as day. I went to the front of the church meeting and shared this picture and a woman at the back began to cry. Later her mother (who was also there) told me privately that her daughter and husband had been trying to conceive without success. They were trying IVF but had nearly run out of options. I had had no idea about this, but I told her well don't worry - you are getting a baby now, and she did. Three weeks later she fell pregnant, and I have since held the baby boy!
If I touch a sick person I can push sickness away and they will be healed.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain Not sure how long before I told anyone. I didn't care too much because it was first of all for me, then for others. Can't remember the first person I told, but I have only told people who I know already believe in Jesus. They are generally amazed or a little incredulous. Maybe also a little unnerved, and don't know what to do with it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:....Experience was definitely real It was more real than the ordinariness of everything around us.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience was definitely real....I still walk in it. I still have awareness I didn't have before. How can it not be real?
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes....I can be more patient and kind if I want to be.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes I strive less. I don't achieve things by really really trying really really hard. I let them come to me. They are always there and they come in the right order. I move with him and keep in step with him and he gives me his power.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes Yes. When I pray I connect straight to God and feel his love for me and all his people. I get that rush again and wait for him to do or say something amazing again.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Well I waffled on as usual. Talking about things is not normally a problem for me. I am a big talker!
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Receiving the gift. Tasting eternity. Discovering that it is real, just as I had been told.Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?....I know it's not a 'proper' NDE, since there was no trauma or threat to my body. But what some of your contributors have testified is so similar to what I experienced then and now, I cannot hold back from sharing my 'thing' with you all, in the hope that someone somewhere will come to the Father through it.