Paulino B's Experience
I do not believe that I died, at all, but for several nights, at the point of
going to sleep, I heard a kind of a buzzing sound growing louder, that is,
increasing in intensity, and I would awake startled. This went on until one day
I just let myself go and immediately found myself advancing through a dark
place, but with stars like the universe, as it were, and I was accompanied by a
being of light whose face I could not see, though I felt I had known him
forever, which gave me great confidence, feeling no anxiety or fear. In fact I
felt that I belonged in that place, and the being and I continued our way in
conversation about things I cannot now recall. I only recall that he was saying
to me You must speak with him! and I asked, With whom? and he just
replied, With him, and then we came to where there were more beings also
of Light, whose faces I also could not see, though as before I felt that I knew
At that moment the being said to me, We are getting there, and I then began to feel an infinite love, it was something beautiful which I had never experienced in this life, a series of feelings such as love, joy, happiness, and then he said to me, From here on you have to continue alone, he is there, meaning the one I had to speak to. Then I found myself in front of the Father of the universe, a being of intense but beautiful light which conferred a love which truly one cannot express in words. Just from seeing Him and feeling his presence I was weeping in an incredible way. He wore a white tunic with a golden sash tied at the waist, and at first I could not see His face, but as soon as I was in His presence I fell on my knees weeping and said: My Father, I would like to see Your face, and He answered, Do not weep, stand up, and I stood and then turned to see His face. It had an appearance of grandeur but did not appear old, with silver hair and a thickly-growing silver beard. I don't recall what we talked about, but we did speak for a time. What I most remember are my feelings, as I could not stop weeping from the love I felt which was so strong. In fact I am writing and weeping now, because my soul remembers that meeting. Then the thing I feared most happened. He said to me, You have to go back! And I said, No Father, please, I don't want to, I want to stay here at your side, this is where I belong, don't send me back! And he was saying You have to go back, and I was crying like a baby, because I really did not want to go back, I felt so happy, so complete, and the truth is I did not remember anyone from my life, all I wanted was to stay there for ever. But in some way I was aware that it had only been a visit, with a purpose which I do not recall, though I know that my soul does remember. Then I woke up soaked in tears and I went on weeping like this for quite a while in my bed, but happy, and sad at the same time, that I had returned.
I want to add that from childhood I have had a strange way of reading the thoughts of other people. I know as soon as I see them and start to speak with them what they are like on the inside; I see if they are good, bad, liars etc. This has sometimes led to comments from people that they find it uncomfortable to look me in the eyes, because under my gaze they feel naked , on the inside, that is. I don't know what that is about, but it was like that from my childhood, which was also very difficult. But that is another story; I want to share with you this experience and I just want to add that God exists and is inside every one of us, because we are all one and we are connected with one another. That is why God tells us Love thy neighbor as thyself, because we are all one, but many of us have to work hard to understand this and spend our time hoarding money and being selfish towards others; but when we understand this, our earthly and our spiritual life will change and we will be different in every way. My advice: try always to do good works, help those in need, even if you don't know them. Perhaps that person was your father or son in another life. I for the moment will try to be better and to help others in need as much as I can. Good luck and thanks for letting me express myself on this site.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Throughout, everything appeared so real.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Throughout, everything appeared so real.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes. I was not speaking with my lips, just the mind, like telepathy. I was not
walking but floating and I felt neither tired nor hungry, nor any of those
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, happiness, joy, only positive emotions.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain, I don't remember.
Did you see a light? Uncertain, I don't remember.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes, I felt I had always known them.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life?
No. I only confirmed what I had always believed, that God exists.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain. I don't remember.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes, the Universe.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes, I just understood.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes, immediately
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? That all human beings should love each other as themselves.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None. The site is excellent.