At the same time I had family problems; my brother who was a drug addict and alcoholic, messed around in the family.

Since a week I postponed the appointment at the veterinary for Fred, but  that morning I couldn't stand his suffering anymore, he wouldn't even let himself caress, I felt his pain just by looking at him.

So I decided to go and put a stop to his torture, but when returning I fell in a maelstrom of guilt, anxiety and pain so that I started to pray; and when I talk about a maelstrom I litterally mean a real vortex, my eyes were closed but I really felt like falling at the bottom of desperation.

And suddenly I sensed a flow of ... energy, cleansing, love...( I don't know how to define it differently) picking me up, as if this flow was coming from the bottom of the vortex and took me up into space. I say space, because it seemed to me that I was outside my body and floating, seeing the earth, the moon and the sun at the same time. And at the same time I knew that I was still at home, as I could hear my dog who was sitting beside me, he was moaning for me; I never in my life felt so good , I wanted to remain for ever in this moment of rapture, but I also knew  that I would calmly come back. But during this union, this 'cleansing' I felt a message was conveyed; I cleary say I felt, as this message didn't consist of words but it translates as: 'the most important thing is to love', and I repeated this constantly while I floated.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes     Because I never experienced this before and after. As of this day I'm searching in books and at Youtube to find stories similar to my own, and the NDEs come closest to my experience.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?            This experience was quite short, a few minutes but I was conscious and aware all the time.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness  

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Normal human vision, but I was seeing outside of myself for a few seconds...Its been a while.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Nothing to mention.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   Yes   As I said in my report, I heard my dog moaning, but I felt being in space.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Relief, love, complete happiness.  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Uncertain   I saw it as a vortex, but it could be seen as a tunnel if you like.

Did you see an unearthly light?   No  

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No


Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No


Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No


Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No


Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No


Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   Yes   The most important thing is to love.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   Yes   The most important thing is to love.

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:  I feel that I should appreciate this experience on this earth more, the good as well as the bad, as one has no sense without the other.

My experience directly resulted in:   Moderate changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   No  

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No  

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     The feeling that I felt gave me much hope.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  I felt that I was not taken seriously, but this didn't bother me, as I knew what happened.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No  

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No      

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes   I only had a very small part of experience compared to real NDE's.