I went to bed very late at the night of the 11^th October. When one of my girls woke up around 8:30 am I was extremely tired and therefore asked daddy to get up. So I could go back to sleep easily, seen the big tiredness I felt.

I don't know if this happened during a dream, but suddenly I found myself in front of the building of the old apartment where I had been living with my family. I saw myself as a child, as well as my brother and my sister. I saw their physical appearance with such a precision! I had not been remembering their appearance of that age, it was a little bit like erased. And it did upset me, to see myself so happy with my family and so small. I said to myself ''but this is strange to dream about this, moreover it is strange that I'm aware that I'm dreaming''.

And I don't know how, but I felt a very unpleasant buzzing in my ears, it was very strong and I felt that I was able to leave my body from my outstretched position, and I found myself taken upwards in a crazy speed, as if being propelled.

I turned and I found myself in a dark place, almost a complete blackness. I didn't really feel reassured, even less when I saw a light afar. I knew that this was for sure not normal, that this meant something. And while advancing I felt a presence. I didn't see a silhouette but I felt it, and it was as if my doubts were dissipating, that I could go there, that things would go well.

And there! The most magnificent of sensations (even more than that)! I suddenly came into this light. It was white, but not the white we know, that I would qualify as too dull. It was bright, radiant, divine, indescribable, it was much stronger than what I try to explain to you. I was bathed in it, it was welcoming me in an unbelievable manner. I felt so good, so calm. In peace. At last I understood. I was well. And I continued on my way. The presence was still there, but I felt it a thousand times stronger. It was the god-mother of my little sister, who passed some years ago due to a cancer. I don't know how I knew, but she was there, all around me in this magnificent light. I wasn't dazzled despite is power. It was really very soft. I was advancing and a wonderful music came along, sounds of bells, they reverberated. It was sumptuous. I felt an infinite love. This will seem horrible, but even though love was different, I never felt this with my two girls (despite the fact that I love them with all my being, with all my heart and that I could give everything for them!).

And then, in this light I understood that I was was leaving, but this was not serious, finally I understood everything, BUT I had to move backwards. MY GIRLS! That's the sentence that came into my mind, but I had the impression that I was told it (I didn't hear any words, it was instantaneously in my head). And then this message: ''Live your life from day to day, take care of your surrounding, you have to be there for them''.

Then I was propelled backwards. I felt sad to leave everything, I felt so light.  But it was not the moment. I had some difficulty finding my body, I didn't succeed, I don't know how to say, I was struggling. Then I went to the living room looking for my darling. As soon as I saw him I calmly asked him, even that no sound came out: ''You have to get up and go to the sleeping room, I want to come back but I am unable to do it by myself, I just need a little help''. Obviously there was no reaction. I retraced my steps and finally came back on my own, I just had to let go.

I felt the heaviness of my body, no pain but I felt air entering my nose and mouth, pure air. I woke up while inspiring very strongly. Despite everything that had been happening I was exhausted and fell asleep right away, I really had no choice, as if I had been knocked out.

When I woke up again around 11:00 am. I reflected about all this and I started to cry, to cry tremendously. I felt so privileged having experienced all this. So disorientated about my return and so nostalgic about everything that I just experienced. I was crying but I felt good, I had no sorrow in my heart anymore. I realized AT LAST that I needed not being scared of all this, that our deceased loved ones were in peace, that there was no need to worry.  That life finally was over there, and this love...!!! I immediately talked to my darling, who saw that I was upset! I had chills, I had the impression not having entered my body completely; that was very special. And I felt hot, red cheeks, warm skin (no fever!) but I felt good, on my little cloud, finally still light.

I wasn't really believing in all those NDE stories, I never had been studying this subject. For me this type of thing happened to people in hospital (so they surely got drugs that took effect on their brains). I didn't know the ''symptoms'' of those NDEs. It was after all this that I made a tour on the net, and was 'hallucinated' when I saw that I experienced the same thing.

It's only two days, but I do nothing else than thinking about it, in my mind I forgave all those who had been hurting me enormously. I decided to act less in the heat of the emotional and to put things into perspective. I have no fear of death anymore, and I'm reassured. Yesterday I talked to my mother who was aghast. She strongly believes in the ''paranormal'' (this word now makes me laugh, because everything I experienced  seemed so natural to me) and each time I was arguing with her, as I found that she was too naive. She sensed that I needed to talk about it, I really could talk for hours about it. It was so very majestic! But to talk about it to everybody, I think that's not the good solution. One Person already doubted all this, and I don't want to be in front of a wall, I want being listened to. I also want to tell people worrying, not to worry anymore.

There is something coming after, that's for sure!

Circumstances around the time of the experience:  I was sleeping

Your condition at time of experience:  Other  I don't know. I was sleeping.

Experience included:  Out of body experience  Tunnel    Unearthly light  Presence of deceased persons  Darkness      Boundary  Strong emotional tone         

Your religious background at the time of the experience:  Do not know    

Your religious background currently:  Do not know 

Do you consider the content of your experience to be:  Entirely pleasant

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Uncertain 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes      Words are not able to measure up with what I felt, I don't get to explain it, it was divine.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?            In the light.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      Normal consciousness and alertness    It was similar but I had the impression to understand everything.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   It was infinite, all around me.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.    I don't know.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?    I had several emotions. Fear, then reassurance and finally I was filled with love, peace, it was pleasant   

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   Uncertain   I passed into a black place, but it didn't resemble a tunnel.

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   A white light with different shades, very bright. I was impregnated, it was wonderful, indescribable, sensational. Filled with love, kindness, tenderness...

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I heard a voice I could not identify


Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes    She was the god-mother of my little sister who died of a cancer, she was reassuring and accompanying me.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
A magnificent, bright, indescribable world.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had no awareness of time.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No


Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No


Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life
I thought about my girls, they need me and I also need them, I wanted to accompany them along their life.

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No 

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes     It was natural to know that there is something after terrestrial life.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your exp  

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th  

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:    I don't see life the same way anymore, I'm more understanding, and less of character

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes    I'm sure that there is something after death.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes    I sense things, heat, I feel that we are surrounded, it's special.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes   Immediately after this I talked about it with my husband while crying, he listened and believed me. Then the next day I talked about it to my mother who believed me, and told me that I should tell about it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   Uncertain   I vaguely heard about it but I was never interested in it.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real  

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I want that the relationships that I have with my loved ones will be appeased and that we should be closer together.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I want to take more interest in this.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No      

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Uncertain   I'm not really able to explain it, you have to experience it to believe it.

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?    Reassure people, give evidence, keep hope.

DESCRIPTION DE L�EXPERIENCE:

Tout d'abord il faut savoir qu'avant tout �a, j'avais �norm�ment peur de la mort, une phobie. Pas vraiment peur de la mani�re dont j'allais mourir mais peur du apr�s. Peur qu'il n'y ai plus rien, du n�ant, qu'il n'y ai plus d'existence et qu'on perde tout. Ca n'allait plus vraiment dans mon couple, et je commencais � baisser les bras et rentrer dans une �ni�me grosse d�prime (je les ai plut�t enchainer ces derniers temps) mais sans raisons particuli�res.

Je m'�tais coucher tr�s dans la nuit du 11 octobre. Lorsqu'une de mes filles s'est r�veill�e vers 8h30 j'�tais hyper fatigu�e et est donc demander au papa de se lever. J'ai pu donc me rendormir avec grande facilit� vu la grosse fatigue que j'avais.

Je ne sais pas si c'est arriv� pendant un r�ve mais tout � coup je me suis retrouv�e devant l'immeuble de l'ancien appartement o� j'habitais petite avec ma famille. Je me voyais petite, ainsi que mon fr�re et ma soeur. Je voyais leur physique avec une telle pr�cision! Je ne me rappelais plus de leur physique � cet �ge, c'�tait un peu comme effac�. Et �a m'a bouleverser, bouleverser de me voir si heureuse avec ma famille et si petite. Je me disais ""mais c'est bizarre de r�ver de �a, d'ailleurs c'est bizarre que je me rende compte que je r�ve"".

Et je ne sais comment, j'ai eu des bourdonnements tr�s d�sagr�able dans mes oreilles, c'�tait tr�s fort et j'ai senti que de ma position allong�e j'ai r�ussie � sortir de mon corps et me suis retrouv�e emport�e vers le haut � une vitesse de dingue, comme propuls�e.

Je me suis retourn�e et me suis retrouv�e dans un endroit sombre, presque le noir complet. Je n'�tais pas vraiment rassur�e, encore moins quand j'ai vu de la lumi�re au loin. Je savais que ce n'�tait pas vraiment normal, que ca voulait dire quelques choses. Et en avancant j'ai senti une presence. Je n'ai pas vu de silhouette mais je le sentais, et c'�tait comme si que mes doutes se dissipaient que je pouvais y aller �a allait bien se passer.

Et l�! La plus magnifique (m�me plus que �a) des sensations! Je suis arriv�e d'un coup dans cette lumi�re. Elle �tait blanche, mais pas le blanc que l'on conna�t que je qualifierais de trop fade. Elle �tait lumineuse, rayonnante, divine, indescriptible c'�tait bien plus fort que ce que j'essaie de vous expliquer. J'ai �t� baign�e dedans, elle m'a accueillit d'une mani�re incroyable. Je me sentais si bien, si tranquille. En paix. Enfin je comprenais. J'�tais bien. Et je continuais mon chemin. La pr�sence �tait toujours la, mais je la sentais 1000 fois plus fort. C'�tait la marraine de ma petite soeur qui est d�c�d�e d'un cancer il y a quelques ann�es. Je ne sais pas comment je l'ai su mais elle �tait l�, tout autour de moi dans cette magnifique lumi�re. Je n'ai pas �t� �blouie malgr� sa puissance. C'�tait vraiment tr�s doux. J'avan�ais et une merveilleuse musique m'a accompagn�e, des sons de cloches, �a resonnait. C'�tait somptueux. Je ressentais un amour infini. Ca va vous para�tre horrible, mais bien que l'amour �tait diff�rent je n'avais jamais ressenti �a avec mes deux filles (malgr� le fait que je les aime de tout mon �tre, de tout mon coeur et que je pourrais tout donner pour elle!).

Et puis, dans cette lumi�re, j'ai compris que je partais mais ce n'�tait pas grave, enfin je comprenais tout MAIS il fallait que je fasse machine arri�re. MES FILLES! C'est la phrase qui m'est venue en t�te mais j'ai l'impression qu'on me l'avait dite (je n'ai entendu aucune paroles, c'�tait dans ma t�te en instantan�e). Et puis ce message: ""Vis ta vie au jour le jour, prends soin de ton entourage, il faut que tu sois l� pour eux"".

Alors j'ai �t� propuls�e en arri�re. J'�tais triste de tout quitter, j'�tais si l�g�re. Mais ce n'�tait pas le moment. J'ai eu du mal � retrouver mon corps, je n'y arrivais pas, je ne sais pas comment dire, je luttais. Alors je suis aller dans le salon voir mon ch�ri. Je lui ai demander calmement d�s que je l'ai vu, bien qu'aucun son ne soit sorti: ""Il faut que tu te l�ves et que tu ailles jusque dans la chambre, je veux revenir mais je n'y arrive pas toute seule j'ai juste besoin d'un coup de pouce"". Bien �videmment aucune r�action. Je suis retourn�e sur mes pas et finalement je suis revenue toute seule, il fallait juste que je me laisse aller.

J'ai senti la lourdeur de mon corps, aucune douleurs mais j'ai senti l'air rentrer dans mon nez et dans ma bouche, un air pur. Je me suis r�veill�e en inspirant tr�s fort. Malgr� tout ce qui �tait arriv� j'�tais extenu�e et me suis rendormie aussit�t, je n'avais pas eu vraiment le choix comme si j'avais �t� assomm�e.

Lorsque je me suis reveill�e vers 11heures. J'ai r�fl�chi � tout �a et j'ai pleurer, �norm�ment pleurer. Je me sentais si privil�gi�e d'avoir v�cu tout �a. Si desorient�e de mon retour et si nostalgique de tout ce que je venais de vivre. Je pleurais mais me sentais bien, je n'avais plus de peine dans mon coeur. Je r�alisais ENFIN que je n'avais pas du tout � avoir peur de tout �a, que nos proches d�c�d�s �taient en paix, qu'il ne fallait pas s'inqui�ter. Que la vie c'�tait l� bas finalement, et cet amour...!!!! J'en ai de suite parler � mon ch�ri qui a vu que j'�tais boulvers�e! J'avais des frissons, j'avais l'impression de pas �tre compl�tement rentrer dans mon corps c'�tait tr�s sp�cial. Et j'avais chaud, les joues rouges, la peau chaude (pas de fi�vre!) mais j'�tais bien, sur mon petit nuage, encore l�g�re finalement.

Je ne croyais pas vraiment � toutes ces histoires d'EMI, je n'avais jamais vraiment �tudier le sujet. Pour moi �a arrivait aux personnes � l'hopital (donc ils avaient surement des m�dicaments qui agissaient sur leurs cerveaux). Je ne connaissais pas les ""sympt�mes"" de ces EMI. C'est apr�s tout �a que j'ai �t� faire un tour sur le net et ai hallucin�e quand j'ai vu que j'avais v�cu la m�me chose.

Ca ne fait que deux jours mais je n'y fais que penser, dans ma t�te j'ai pardonner � tout ceux qui m'avait fait �norm�ment de mal. J'ai d�cider de moins agir sur les coups d'�motions et de relativiser. Je n'ai plus peur de la mort, et je suis rassur�e. J'en ai parler � ma maman hier qui �tait sur le cul. Elle croit beaucoup au ""paranormal"" (ce mot me fait rire parce que �a m'a paru tellement naturel tout ce que j'ai v�cu) et � chaque fois je la disputais car je la trouvais trop na�ve. Elle sentait que j'avais besoin d'en parler, je pourrais passer des heures � en parler. C'�tait tellement majestueux! Mais en parler � tout le monde je pense que ce n'est pas la bonne solution. Une personne a d�j� remis en doute tout �a et je ne veux pas �tre face � un mur je veux me sentir �couter. Je veux aussi dire aux gens qui s'inqiu�tent de ne plus l'�tre.

Il y a ce quelque chose apr�s, c'est s�re!

Au moment de votre exp�rience, y avait-il une situation mettant votre vie en danger ?     Ind�cis(e)     

Cette exp�rience est-elle difficile � d�crire avec des mots ?    Oui     Les mots ne sont pas � la hauteur de ce que j'ai ressenti, je n'arrive pas � l'expliquer, c'�tait divin.

A quel moment au cours de l�exp�rience �tiez-vous au niveau d��tat de conscience et de lucidit� maximum ?    Etat de conscience et de lucidit� normal     Dans la lumi�re.    C'�tait pareil mais j'avais l'impression de tout comprendre

Veuillez comparer votre vue pendant l�exp�rience � celle que vous aviez imm�diatement avant l�exp�rience.    Elle �tait infini, tout autour de moi

Veuillez comparer votre ou�e pendant l�exp�rience � celle que vous aviez juste avant l�exp�rience.    Je ne sais pas

Avez-vous vu ou entendu des �v�nements terrestres qui se d�roulaient alors que votre conscience �tait s�par�e de votre corps physique/terrestre ?    Non     

Quelles �motions ressentiez-vous pendant l�exp�rience ?    J'ai eu plusieurs �motions. La crainte puis j'ai �t� rassur�e et enfin j'ai �tait remplie d'amour, de paix c'�tait agr�able  

Avez-vous travers� un tunnel ?     Ind�cis(e)    Je suis pass� dans un endroit noir mais qui ne ressemblait pas � un tunnel.

Avez-vous vu une lumi�re surnaturelle ?    Oui     Une lumi�re blanche avec des nuances, tr�s lumineuse. J'�tais impr�gn�e, c'�tait merveilleux, indescriptible, sensationnelle. Remplie d'amour, de bienveillance, de tendresse...

Vous a-t-il sembl� rencontrer un �tre ou une pr�sence �sot�rique, ou bien entendre une voix non identifi�e ?           

Avez-vous rencontr� ou d�cel� des �tres d�c�d�s (ou en vie) ?    Oui     C'�tait la marraine de ma petite soeur qui est d�c�d�e d'un cancer, elle me rassurait et m'accompagnait

Au cours de l�exp�rience, avez-vous eu connaissance d��v�nements de votre pass� ?    Non     

Vous a-t-il sembl� p�n�trer dans un monde diff�rent, surnaturel ?     Un monde nettement �sot�rique ou surnaturel    Un monde magnifique, lumineux, indescriptible

Le temps a-t-il sembl� acc�l�rer ou ralentir ?     Tout semblait se passer en m�me temps, ou le temps s�est arr�t�, ou il n�y avait pas de notion de temps    Je n'avais pas la conscience du temps

Avez-vous soudainement sembl� comprendre tout ?   Non   

Avez-vous atteint une limite ou une structure physique de d�limitation ?    Non     

Avez-vous vu des sc�nes de l�avenir ?    Non     

Avez-vous  le sentiment d�avoir connaissance d�un savoir ou dessein particulier ?    Non     

Veuillez expliquer tout changement qui aurait eu lieu dans votre vie apr�s votre exp�rience :   Large changes in my life    Je ne vois plus la vie de la m�me fa�on, je suis plus compr�hensible, et moins de caract�re

Apr�s s��tre produite, votre exp�rience a-t-elle provoqu� des changements dans vos valeurs ou vos croyances ?    Oui     Je suis s�re qu'il y a quelque chose apr�s la mort

Apr�s votre exp�rience, poss�diez-vous des facult�s paranormales, sortant de l�ordinaire ou autres que vous n�aviez pas avant l�exp�rience ?    Oui     Je ressens des choses, de la chaleur, je sens que nous sommes entour�s c'est sp�cial

Avez-vous racont� cette exp�rience � quelqu�un ?    Oui     Directement apr�s j'en ai parler a mon ch�ri en pleurant, il m'a �couter et m'a cru. Puis le lendemain j'en ai parler � ma m�re qui m'a cru et m'a dit qu'il fallait que j'en parle

Avant votre exp�rience, connaissiez-vous les exp�riences de mort imminente (EMI) ?     Ind�cis(e)    J'en ai vaguement entendue parler mais ne m'y suis jamais interess�e

Peu apr�s avoir v�cu votre exp�rience (quelques jours ou semaines), comment consid�riez-vous sa r�alit�:    l�exp�rience �tait tout � fait r�elle     

Comment consid�rez-vous actuellement la r�alit� de votre exp�rience:    l�exp�rience �tait tout � fait r�elle     

Vos relations ont-elles chang� directement � cause de votre exp�rience ?    Oui     Je veux que les relations que j'ai avec mes proches soient apais�s et que l'on soit plus soud�s

Vos croyances/pratiques religieuses ont-elles chang� directement � cause de votre exp�rience ?    Oui     Je veux plus m'y int�resser

Au cours de votre vie, est-ce que quoi que ce soit, � un moment quelconque, a reproduit une partie de l�exp�rience ?    Non