Nicole F's Experience
My name is Nicole and I wanted to share
a transformative experience I had last year.
I've been practicing meditation for
about eight years now. I used to meditate on a daily basis, but now it's
about two or three times a week. This particular episode occurred on July 20,
2003. I was at home and it was about 2:30 in the afternoon. I decided to
take a time-out and be still for awhile. I laid down on the bed on my back.
My eyes were closed. Slowly I began to shut off the mental noise that
accumulated from the day. Little by little I was able to quiet my mind.
Once I did that I had this urge to
connect with my guardian angel. My inner guide told me to open up and send
out a signal (which I would call purified desire) in order to draw the angelic
energy/force. I knew my mind had to remain clear of any other thoughts so
that my angel could receive my energy clearly. I maintained clarity of
mind and kept sending out my wanting-ness to connect. What happened next is
quite difficult to explain.
First of all, there was an instant shift
inside of me - a higher energy was over me and inside me at the same time. I
felt a tremendous swelling of love within me and it kept growing. The best
analogy I could use is blowing air into a balloon. The balloon expands and
gets larger, the more air you put into it. I felt like I was expanding with
love and joy as this energy (which I identified as my angel) was inducing this
sensation. Love and joy are words that have been used repeatedly when
describing these experiences. As such, it probably sounds trite. But the
sensation I felt far exceeds the human concept of these emotions. The love
and joy kept swelling and I knew I was approaching ecstasy.
Immediately, either because I was
overwhelmed or scared, I opened my eyes. I still felt this powerful energy
around me. For some reason I looked up at the ceiling, yet I knew it wasn't
something that could be located. The next thing was very strange: this
energy transformed into a distinct presence and I recognized the presence
immediately. I knew without a doubt it was my guardian angel and I began
to speak ALOUD to it. I greeted it like you would an old friend you haven't
seen in years. I think I said something like "oh my God, you're here...I
can't believe it..." And then it responded to me. I heard and felt this LOUD
VOICE inside of my head. It was so intense it carried a vibration. I've
never experienced anything like it.
I would ask a question and it
answered my mind in vibrations. It's complicated because the angel
was communicating to me with words, but it's energy was so powerful I FELT the
words. At this point I began to withdraw because the feeling in my mind was
too intense. Frankly I was scared, not of my angel specifically, but
by the feeling inside my head and the incredible power surge of energy. (I
kind of regret it because I could've asked more questions).
After I sensed my angel's presence had
receded, I took out my journal and wrote the experience down. Physically I
felt like rush of endorphins took over my body's system. The high lasted most
of that afternoon. I feel very blessed for having had this experience. There
is a higher reality that transcends the human experience. This life is only
the tip of the iceberg.